"Noah, eat it," She said watching her son mash up the muffin. "you're making a mess."

This Saturday morning Olivia was in her and Noah's favorite breakfast diner. It was a routine that she had started not to long after he was born. It would sometimes get boring sitting in her apartment with Noah, so she decided to shake things up a bit. Sometimes on an occasion, Fin would join her and every blue moon, Amanda or Nick. But this time, she just wanted to spend the day with her son.

He looked at her, and just continued smashing it. "Don't want it mommy."

"I thought you liked chocolate chip?"

He shook his head. "Can I have juice?" He asked pushing the plate away from him.

She pulled the plate farther on her side of the table. She went in his backpack and pulled out an apple juice box. She pulled the plastic wrap from the straw and put it inside the juice box. She handed it to him, who happily took in and began drinking.

"Where do you want to go next, sweetie?"

He took the juice from his mouth. "Mmm," He put an awful lot of thought into the question making her smile. "Park."

"Noah, we went to the park last week."

"Park." He reiterated. He looked like he wasn't changing his mind anytime soon either.

She sighed and nodded at his request. "Ok. We'll go to the park."

She heard the bell ding as someone walked in. She never takes much thought as to who walks through the door but this time, something made her want to look. When she did, she realized it was a mistake. There he stood, he looked good though, and she had to admit it. He was dressed in a black t-shirt with a dark blue jacket on and blue jeans. She was hoping and praying he wouldn't look her way. But of course, fate never flows her way.

He looked at her, well more like stared at her, for a few seconds before turning his head back. From her angle it looked like he was looking at Noah and the plate more so her. She looked at him as he ordered his food. She could've had the chance to avoid him by leaving when his back was turned but she felt glued. She stared out the window, trying to retain from his desire or to look curious as to what he was doing. She looked closer into the window and seen his figure reflection walking toward her. It wasn't until Noah had spoken to him that she glanced over her shoulder.

"Hey little buddy," Trevor said acknowledging his son. "what you drinking?"

"Apple Juice," He held it up to Trevor. "want some?"

He smiled at Noah's generosity. "No. It looks good and I don't want to drink it all from you."

"Mommy got more juice, she'll share."

"That's okay Noah. I have coffee."

"Yuck," Noah made an icky face. "Apple Juice better."

"You're right. Next time I'll have to get Apple Juice instead."

Noah nodded bringing the straw back to his mouth. He looked as if he was chewing on the straw instead of drinking from it.

Trevor looked at Olivia, who was staring out the window.

"Olivia," He said trying to get her attention. "you mind if I sit with you guys?"

She ignored him. "Sit." Noah said wanting his company.

"is it okay with your mommy?"

Yeah," Noah pointed to the extra chair at their table. "sit."

"No Noah. He can't sit with us." She finally said turning to her son.

"Why not?"

"Because he can't."

Noah puckered his lip. "Pease."

Olivia looked at her son and complied. "Fine, he can sit with us." She uttered in more of a low grumble.

"You sure because-"

"I'd do it before I change my mind."

He nodded and sat down. Noah inspected the muffin on his plate.

"Muffin," He studied it. "what kind?"

"It's banana nut."

"I like nana nut. Can I have some?" He asked putting out his hand.

Trevor broke off a small piece and handed it to him. "Here you go," Trevor looked at Noah after he took it, completely occupied with getting a piece in his mouth. He looked at her. "Olivia-"

"Don't start Trevor, please," She didn't even look at him. "I'm really not in the mood."

"Ok. How about we talk about something else?"

She still never turned his way. "Sorry to burst your bubble but, I don't think we share the same likes anymore."

"I like cars," Noah filled in with a mouthful of food. "fast ones."

"Noah, don't talk with your mouth full."

Noah kept trying to mash up what he had in his mouth which was now starting to turn into a slushy mess.

"Let's give it a shot."

"I am not playing this game with you."

"No games, got it," He was silent for a second. "You know, I still know your favorite sports teams. Basketball and Baseball."

"Stop Trevor. I'm serious."

"You're favorite basketball team is the Warriors and baseball, The Mets."

She just shook her head, wondering why he was doing this.

"And your favorite body washes," He looked at the back of her dark brown hair. "Lavender with roses and cherry blossom."

"What the hell are you trying to fucking prove?" She whispered so Noah wouldn't hear.

"You know what I'm trying to prove. But, that's not the point."

"Then what is," She looked at Noah, who was struggling to swallow all the food he stuffed in his mouth. She picked up his juice box and handed it to him. "here Noah. This'll help." He took it, obeying her.

"The point is I want to apologize," He looked into her brown eyes which finally met his. "you weren't ready to hear the truth. I pushed and I'm sorry. But I can't hide how I feel anymore. I know I hurt you and if I could turn back the clock, I would."

"I know." She uttered quietly, making sure he couldn't hear what she said.

"Mommy, can we go park now?" He asked finally swallowing the lump of food in his mouth.

"Yeah, we can go now."

"Can you come?" He asked looking at Trevor with those identical, beautiful eyes.

Trevor looked at Olivia, wanting to see her reaction and body language toward the question. She just nodded. "Come on, he'll have a good time with you there."

Later that night,

Trevor walked into her apartment after she did. He was carrying a sleeping Noah in his arms. He followed Olivia into his room and laid him on his bed.

"He had a long day." Olivia said knowing changing him into his night clothes would be a hassle since he was practically dead weight now.

"We all did."

She turned and faced him. "Thanks."

"For what?"

"Noah," She said wrapping her arms around her body. "I don't think I could've done that."

"He scraped his knee Olivia. He was fine."

"Seeing him in pain like that. I know he's a kid and he's going to get hurt but-"

"That's the first time you've seen him really draw blood."

She nodded looking at his small chest rising up and down.

"And it's not the last Olivia, it could happen again."

She walked out of the room and sat on her couch. He sat beside her.

"It felt different today. Noah was so happy."

"He's happy with you, too."

"You don't get it Trevor. It was a glow in his eyes when you were pushing him on the swing. He had this light in him I hadn't seen out of him, ever."

"Well, it was pretty damn sunny outside." He examined his arms. "I think I'm getting sunburn."

She smiled a little. "Not that kind of glow," She leaned forward in her spot. "it was a glow as if you had just found the one thing you were missing for a long time."

"A father." He replied quietly.

"I feel so shitty, like I haven't done enough for him."

He looked closely at her and could almost feel the pain she was in right now. He placed his hand gently on her thigh, which sent a tingling sensation through her whole body, head to toe. It was a touch that she hadn't felt in a while. One of those touches that everyone needs to keep them grounded.

"You're the best damn mother anyone could ever have," He said seriously. "and don't you ever think anything less. Noah's one of the sweetest, funniest little boys I've ever met. You did a hell of a job and don't let anyone, and I mean anyone, tell you otherwise."

"I just keep playing over and over what you said last week to me. I never told you how I felt because I was busy being a bitch about it."

"How do you feel?"

She looked at the floor. "Honestly, I don't fucking know right now. I need time to process and think."

"Let me give you something to think about."

He gently gripped her chin and slowly turned her head to face him. He stared intently into her eyes before their lips met. She was hesitant for a second, but then eased up when she felt his hand on her thigh. She moaned as they each explored their mouths, feeling something neither of them had felt in a while. Before things got to serious, he pulled away.

"Good night Olivia." He kissed her cheek one last time before letting himself out.

Hope you enjoyed. Next chapter is in the making. Reviews always, always appreciated. :)