XXX Back to Dei´s POV XXX

It´s hard! I can´t forget him...
Three days passed by since I decided to ignore him. In the night I sleep in the living room and every day I hide in the forest creating little clay birds and dreaming of him. Even if I try to think of something different my mind soon goes back to him. Every time I close my eyes his face appears in my head and I can´t get rid of it. My weakness annoys me and shows what he has done to me. Before I got to know him everything was all right. I only cared for my bombs and myself. I didn´t love anybody. But now?! I´d like to kill him therefore! I never wanted to become like this... so addicted... And the worst is that I know I´ll never be healed. He will always steal my mind and destroy me more and more until no part of me, the real me, is left. I hate him! ...I love him.

Suddenly somebody touches me. I open my eyes to face HIM! Panicked I try to jump back but the sofa stops me. There´s no emotion in his face. He doesn´t move at all but watches me. My eyes become as wide as they can in fear.
Shit, what now?
After some minutes of gazing at each other he finally starts talking.

"Deidara, you´re really stupid..."

"B-but danna...un..."

"Shut up! Now you´ll pay for your mistake!"

"I-I... didn´t..."

"I hate waiting! You should have known best that your behaviour makes me really... really angry, Deidara!"

"B-but..."

"Now it´s too late to apologise, brat!"

"D-danna..."

"Come with me! NOW!"

"N-No, un!"

"BRAT," he snaps and grabs my wrist roughly. Then he pushes me into the corridor.
I know the direction we´re going... to our shared room. His cold breath blows into my neck while he pushes me forward.
I can´t hold back my fear. My whole body starts shaking uncontrollable.
We arrive in our room. Sasori lets go of me and locks the door while my eyes search for an escape route... any... But I already know that I can´t run away because he´s too fast. He would stop me and my punishment would be even worse. And there´s no possibility to fight against him to get free because he´s too strong and I´m out of clay. Anyway I couldn´t hurt him.

Sasori steps behind my shaking body and rubs my back with his cold white hands.

"Ah, brat, don´t be scared! You always enjoyed what we´ll do now! Anyway it´ll hurt less if you simply relax," he whispers into my ear.

That makes my fear become even worse.

"Please... danna...un... stop," I beg.

"Argh, shut up, bitch! I know you can´t resist me!"

He starts biting into my sensitive neck until blood flows down my back soaking the white shirt I´m wearing. Lust-filled Sasori rips my shirt with a single movement and licks of the blood with his wet tongue. Unable to move I just stand there. It´s as if I´m glued to the ground. My heart seems to explode soon. I want him to stop. To let go of me. Every touch burns my skin.
While his teeth continue torturing my skin his hands trail down my sides. They arrive at my trousers. Slowly they crawl around my waist to my zipper. They open it and get rid of my trousers and my boxers. Totally naked I shudder uncontrollable while my eyes fill with tears.

"S-Stop...danna!"

"Forget it, brat," he grins into my hair, "You´re too sexy!"

Sasori grabs my length roughly and starts pumping it while he rubs his hardened member against my ass.
"Danna... let... go of me, un!"

"Don´t you enjoy that, bitch?"

"N-NO," I sob loudly.

"As you wish, brat! But then it´ll hurt even more!"

Without giving me the chance to answer he shoves me to the ground. I try to crawl away... to escape... But he kicks into my stomach. In pain I collapse. Sasori grabs my chin and turns it to him so that I have to look into his cold, lust-filled eyes.

"Don´t. Move. Brat," he groans warningly.

Scared I follow his order. It´s too late for me...
Soon I feel his hands on my back. Then he rams roughly into me. In pain I shriek but he doesn´t pay attention. Moaning he fastens up pushing into me over and over again. I just want him to stop. To get rid of my enormous pain. But I don´t dare to move. So I let him go ahead while screaming even louder. Soon my blood soaks the ground but even that doesn´t interest him.

"Yeah...SCREAM BITCH," he moans into my neck and rams in as hasr as he can.
I see stars in front of my eyes... I never felt something like this before. My knees and arms give in but Sasori holds me in position. Weakened I close my eyes and hope to faint but it doesn´t happen. I have to feel everything... each pain caused through his length... the pain in my heart. Why?
My screams turn him on even more so that he releases soon into my ass. He gasps for air then he lets go of me and stands up.

"I-I warned you, brat!"

I collapse on the ground and don´t move at all. Sasori closes his zipper and goes out of the room leaving me in my own blood. While my ass continues hurting my tears mix with the blood around me.
Why? Why did you do that, Sasori? Didn´t you hurt me enough already? Why couldn´t you simply ignore me? Let me suffer that way? Why did you have to make it even worse? Why, Sasori?
Without finding an answer I lock my feelings in my heart.
Then everything becomes black.

…...
As I wake up again I´m lying in my bed. Hidan sits besides me and watches me worried. Scared I scan the room searching for a certain redhead. As I notice that he isn´t here I relax a bit.

"Shhhh, Dei! It´s all right! I´m here. I´ll protect you!"

I just look into his eyes and show him my pain, my fear, my helplessness. Soon I start sobbing again. Hidan hugs me tightly and caresses my head lovingly.

"Shhhh, Dei" You have to sleep now! You´re ill!"

Rapidly I shake my head from side to side. He would come and... and... do it again. It isn´t safe here! I can´t sleep!

"But I´ll be there the whole time, Dei! He can´t hurt you while you sleep!"

How could I sleep? In this room... where it happened? I refuse to remember what happened some hours before. It... it´s too painful.
Sighing Hidan lifts me up carefully and carries me into his and Kakuzu´s room. There he puts me into his bed.

"Better?"

I nod weakly in agreement then fall into a fitful sleep.