We got the mission to overpower the Kazekage Gaara. Therefore we have to go to Sunagakure. It´s a long way and a really dangerous mission because soon other nin´s will follow us and try to stop us.
Five days already passed by and I didn´t give Sasori the chance to touch me again. I stay all the time on my clay bird...even in the night. Sometimes he tries to talk to me... tries to regain my trust so that I´d come down and sleep besides him. But I´m not that stupid! I stay out of his reach and don´t speak with him at all. That always makes him upset. Then he screams and insults me. Though these words hurt my heart I don´t show any emotion. The only thing I concentrate on is the fight with the Kazekage. I heard that he´s very strong and is a really good sand-bender but I don´t think that he´ll be a big problem for me.

…...
The fight is over. I lost my left arm but it was worth. With that lost I could decide the fight for me. It was a welcome diversion to hurt somebody. I tried to play as long as possible to annoy Sasori a bit. But then the other nin´s noticed me and tried to help their Kazekage so that it got really dangerous for me.
So I return now to Sasori with the lifeless body. The redhead is hidden in his ugliest puppet, Hiruko. I never liked it but nowadays I´m thankful that I don´t have to see his fucking face.

"You let me wait, brat!"

I simply shrug then let my bird fly away from him. But he follows me.

…...
"I...I have to talk to you, Deidara," he says in deep thought.

As an answer I give him the cold shoulder.

"Please, Deidara," he sounds somehow despairing, "Please say something... anything you want... but stop refusing to talk to me!"

"What do you want, un?"

I let my voice sound as cold as possible.

"I´m... I´m sorry!"

"NO, you aren´t and now shut up, un! I don´t believe anything you say any more. Your words are worthless! Only what you did to me counts, un!"

"But..."

"SHUT THE FUCK UP,UN," I scream in anger.

How could he dare to think that I would believe him?Even a person without feelings should know, that it´s too late! Too late to apologize. He did the worst thing he could ever have done to me. How could I accept his apology? How could I ever trust him again? He broke my heart and treated me like shit. I bet he only wants me to come down. Then he could... do it...again. NEVER!
So I didn´t say anything again.

…...
We got the Kazekage´s power and now we, Sasori and me, have to fight against a stupid old hag, a pink haired girl, a blonde idiot and a grey haired man. Great! I decide that I´ll take the blonde idiot. With a last gaze on Sasori I fly away.

-...
"Where´s S-S...him..., un?" I ask Zetzu.

"Sasori? Don´t know, the fight must be over yet..."

"I´ll fly over there and look for him, un. See ya later!"

At I arrive at the place of fight I see nothing but puppets.

"Wonderful now I have to search for that fuckhead in this crowd, un. SASORI?"

May be he left the place and is already walking back to our base?! But... but he wouldn´t leave his puppets behind, would he? Fear crawls up my back while my eyes look for him. May be he just rests somewhere and will return then to repair his weapons?!
But then I find the answer. There´s a certain redhead puppet lying on the cold ground with two swords stabbed through its heart container. Scared I run to him and shake him. No movement... I turn him around... purple blood soaks my cloak... No life in him... No eyes any more... they disappeared with his life... Sasori is... is dead. I start crying like never before and hide my face in his chest. I can still smell him... taste his blood in my mouth... My... my love! He´s gone... forever!

"Why, Sasori? WHY? I... love... you! Come... come back to me... un … please! How... how could you?" I whisper into his cloak.

I realize that his death is the worst punishment he could ever do to me. He´s away and he´ll never get the chance to rape me again... but now I´m totally alone. I´m in safety but is it worth? My love... the only one I ever cared for... the only one I ever loved is... gone!I hate him for what he has done but... but it hurts too much! Much more as the pain as he raped me!

"Why? How... could... you... un... leave... me?"

I want to hit myself for my weakness. But there´s no possibility to stop the pain. To stop the plenty tears flowing down my face mixing this time with his blood. My whole world breaks into pieces... because he was my world. Now I realise that the only thing worth living for was him! I lived for him... just for him... But he leaves me all alone. What should I do now? Why can´t I stop feeling like this? So... sick... Why must it hurt so much? Why am I not released? He´s away. He´s away for ever! Why do I have to suffer that much? Why? Why me?
I can´t stand the pain any more and faint on his dead body.
I... I love you.

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