I know I haven't updated in forever I am so sorry please forgive me! I will try and update weekly however I can't next week okay? Sorry

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"This is so cool," Avery's voice said excitedly as she ran around the house and then up to the dock where the boat sat. I know what she meant I had loved this house and as soon as I saw it I knew that we had to have it and the second Jack and I had bought it I thought that I would grow old in this house guess I was wrong.

"You like it?" Jack asked lifting her to his hip and walking her into the house. I followed after them silently I knew that this was a moment between them that I wasn't a part of.

"I love it, the garden is so cool," Avery said as he set her down and she looked into his eyes and smiled.

"Really your mom is the one who planted and picked out everything," he said and Avery looked confused.

"Really because every plant mom gets in New York she kills because she forgets to water them," Avery asked as her cute little nose scrunched up and I wanted to laugh or hug her she was the best but I didn't want to interrupt so I went to the kitchen to see what I could cook Avery.

"I said she planted and picked I always watered though," I heard Jacks voice in the kitchen from the living room and then their laughter echoed through the house.

"Dad?" Avery asked as I walked into the room after discovering a basically empty fridge and I saw tears threatening to break free I knew he wouldn't let he know he was crying but I could also tell he was really happy.

"Yes?" he said.

"Where am I going to sleep?" her little voice asked her hands clasped in front of her.

"In here," he said leading her to the guest bedroom.

"Cool," she said smiling a smile I don't think had left her face yet.

"Wait one second," Jack said running out of the room and then coming back with a camera and taking a picture of her.

"What was that for?" she asked.

"I didn't have any pictures of you," he said. I reached out and took the camera.

"Go get a picture with her," I said and then snapped a picture of the two of them smiling and then one of him tickling her.

"Um question," I said when I was done.

"Yes?" Jack asked.

"Um what are we having for dinner?" I asked him.

"Can we have piazza?" Avery said making puppy dog eyes hoping for her favorite food ever.

"We will be ordering piazza," he said going to call in and order I sat next to Avery.

"What do you think?" I asked her as she looked up at me with his eyes.

"I like him, better than Clarke," she said. That was understandable I liked Jack better than Clarke but we weren't meant to be we always fought and he and I were just to different plus I'm sure he's moved on. What am I thinking? I have moved on!

"That's okay," I say.

"Plus Dad is getting me pizza which makes him awesome," she teased. She had always grown up too fast in my opinion but without a Dad she aged in fast forward if you ask me.

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"I am sorry but you lost the baby," the doctors voice echoed in my head but I don't think I had fully heard the words yet, lost the baby? but how I already loved the little boy who had grown inside of me. Jack hugged me tightly.

"It'll be okay," he said but he was lying things would never be the same again I just know.

"No it won't," I said. I know was being depressing but do you expect?

"Don't be like that," he said and we walked to the car but I couldn't feel it I couldn't feel anything. I really wish I could but I just couldn't.

"Your strong you'll get past it," he said.

"How can you be like that dose it faze you at all that you just lost your first child?" I asked through.

"Of course it dose," he said pulling over.

"Doesn't feel like it!" then he turns to me with tear stained eyes and I'm heart broken Jack never cry's in front of people even me.

"I am heart broken but someone has to try and keep it together and right now that person certainly isn't you," he was right it wasn't and it killed me because I always kept myself together.

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"Are you okay mom?" Avery asked.

"Yes just thinking," I said pulling her onto my lap.

"About what?" Avery asked me confused nose crinkled again.

"Just, reliving the past I guess," I said smiling at her but it wasn't genuine if I hadn't lost the first baby I would probably still be here.

"Okay mommy," she said wrapping her small arms around me.

"Dinners on it's way," Jack said from the doorway smirking, how long had he been there?

Dinner was great Jack told her a bunch of story's about me when I was younger and our friends as well as himself. It was great and for a second I forgot about new your and felt like this was my life but it wasn't.

"Go get ready for bed," I told Avery.

"You can sleep in my bed I will take the couch," Jack said as soon as Avery left.

"It's okay I can go stay at my parents," I said and then got up and went to Avery's room and found her already ready.

"Mommy please stay," she said and I could tell I would be staying it wasn't my choice if it's what my baby girl wanted I would stay.

"Okay," I said giving in and she smiled triumphantly.

"Goodnight Ave," I said and kissed her on the forehead. Then Jack walked in.

"Goodnight sweetheart he said and then turned to leave looking unsure of what to do.

"Wait," Avery said slipping out of the blankets and jumping into his arms. He smiled and then tucked her in and she kissed him on the cheek.

We left I got into my pajama's quick and then stole the couch using the blankets cascaded over the back of the couch.

"I will take the couch," Jack said stepping into the living room in a towel obviously just out of the shower.

"It's okay," I said and he turned and left after much tossing and turning I finally fell asleep to the smell of home I had missed for so long.

I woke up in a bed in Jacks room. He must have carried me in after I fell asleep damn it!

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Okay tell me what you think I know not my best work but I will try harder next chapter! promise:)