Disclamer: I DO NOT OWN VOCALOID it'd be a scary world if I did

It's been a few weeks after the formal. Our classes changed so we could start adapting to the next year level. The relationship between me and Mikuo stayed the same but Len and I were a different story. I didn't see him as often as I used to and the only times I did was when he was with miku. Our conversations only consisted of hello and goodbye. Before I realised a gap had formed between us. Normally, I wouldn't care if it was anyone else but with Len it wass different somehow. I just wasn't sure how. While I was on nico nico douga the tone of my text messages rang.

To: Rinny
From:Miku
Omg I'm so sorry! I forgot it was mine and lens anniversary tomorrow. I have to cancel. He just reminded me about it and he's taking me to Super Magical Land. Again I'm so sorry. Forgive me

I sighed "Another cancelation huh?"
My phone rang once more

To: Rin-Chan
From: Mikuo
Hey Rin-chan let's go to Super Magical Land tomorrow alright? Don't worry this isn't a date. Just a friends outing.

I took me a while to make a decision but I finally texted him back.
To : Mikuo-Kun
From: Rin
Yeah that sounds great! I'll be there. (^-^)/

Mikuo's POV

Rin was her usual self after the formal, always smiling and laughing but I could tell she was hurting. I just watched from the side unable to do I kept wondering to myself if I had met Rin first, if I had the chance to say I love you earlier. Would Rin be in love with me? Would I be able to protect her better? I had to shove those things aside to focus on what was going on now. I needed something that would cheer Rin up. My mum gave me tickets to Super Magical Land. So I decided to take Rin along.

Rin POV

The next day I had some fun with Mikuo. We went on a few roller coasters and some other rides. We even had orange cotton candy. I didn't know it existed. Mikuo had to run out on me because his parents needed help back home. I wandered around the place cause I told my mom I'd by home by 5 and it was 3. It was too early to go home. Turing at a corner I saw Miku and Len. Quickly, I hid behind a wall. Unconsciously I started to follow them as if my body was controlled. I hid a few times not to be noticed. As I saw the two laugh something inside me ached. "This is for the sake of Miku's happiness." I thought to myself.

"Rin?" A familiar voice called out.

"L-L-Luka." I hesitated

"What are you doing?" Luka asked

"Who? Me? You know just hanging out." I lied

"Ah huh, behind a trash can. I had a feeling you'd be following Len and Miku. Miku told me how bad she feels about canceling on you again so I thought you might be here. C'mon come with me." Said Luka.

She dragged me to a near by cafe and we had a talk. She forced me to tell her everything involving me and Len

"So, I see... I was right. You love Len."

"Why does everyone keep saying that?" I asked

"Cause it's true. Right now, you're lying to yourself Rin. All because you don't want to believe the truth, but you know it too, the truth. You love Len but you can't express that because he's with Miku. You don't feel like you have the right to do or say anything. You didn't want to hurt any of them, so threw away the truth but time and time again it came back. No matter what you did it remained, so you're trying to ignore it. Am I right?"

A bulge was in my throat. Was everything she said true? I didn't know myself. I kept looking down. I didn't to believe her or at least I didn't want to admit it. Tears formed in the corner of my eyes.

"Luka, what should I do?" I asked with a trembling voice

"There, there the first step is admitting it. I'm not entirely sure myself, but I'm on your side. Don't tell her this, but have a feeling Miku won't be with Len sooner or later. I can't tell you the details, but I'm sure." Luka smiled.

It seemed so simple when I was young. Love looked so easy in theory, but in practice so difficult. Kind of like communism. Love really does hurt, no doubt. It's now that I understand the true extent and pain of it. It's just so messed up and to understand. I've watched so many dramas, read so many books, but nothing can't truly prepare you for love. I always thought love it worth it no matter what, but I can see why people see it as unless and annoying. I never realised how hard it was to stand by and watch the person you love not return your feelings to you. I wish I could sincerely say that I'm fine as long as he's happy, but I'm not I can never be if he's with someone else. This is my selfishness I suppose. I can't do anything by give a fake smile.

A/N: I forgot to say this before but happy holidays. I hope you liked it. Yeah I know I'm really bad at coming up with names, but what could I do.