Being Who You Really Are Chapter 23: Songs, a high school musical fanfic

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I know when I read some fics I don't usually read the songs, I skip them, but please just read these ones because I'm using them a lot more to get their feelings across, please?? Lol review!! xxx

Lauren was sat, staring at the water rippling against the sides of the lake. No birds were singing, no butterflies were fluttering, no ducks, no rabbits, nothing. Lauren smiled, it was a sad smile.

It's ironic isn't it, she thought, just when I need cheering up the most, there's nothing. She felt a pain, in her chest, in her heart. She opened her mouth and sang, trying to stop it the only way she knew how.

I'm just a girl with a crush on you

Don't care about money
It doesn't give me half the thrill
To the thought of you, honey
So tell me that you want me still
If only I could trade the fancy cars
For a chance today, it's incomparable
I might be sitting with the movie stars
Everybody say that I have it all

But I can't make you love me
Is it my life or the things I do?
Can't make you love me
I'm just a girl with a crush on you

I have been through changes, yeah
But I'm still the girl you used to know
It's made me no different
So tell me why you had to go
Oh baby, I will trade the fancy cars
For a chance today, it's incomparable
I might be sitting with the movie stars
Everybody say that I just have it all

Just the thought of being close to you
It's incomparable
Should be happy with the life I live
And the things I do
Seems like I have it all

Can't make you, make you love me baby
It's my life, what can I do?
Can't make you love me, alright
I'm just a girl with a crush on you

I'm just a girl with a crush on you

She finished and listened.

'Silence' she said out loud. She heard a car drive by slowly and stop, she jumped up quickly and ran to a hiding spot she found many years ago when she first went there. It was perfect, she could look out but no-one could see her.

She almost gasped when she saw who it was but managed to control herself. There was Zac, stood right in front of her. She saw him kick a rock in frustration and watch as it made ripples in the water. He walked away and she stayed there until she was sure he'd driven off.

She dusted herself off and sat back in the same position as before. She sang once more, knees hunched up to her chest.

You took your love away
too fast
Left no chance to say
look back

And now I know the truth,
it makes it easier.
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away

You threw it all away,
so blind (so blind)
Pushed me far from you in your life.
Now I know the tears
wont lead to loneliness.
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away

I run away

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away-y-y-y-y-y

Let's pretend that I moved on,
tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away.

Lets pretend that I moved on
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
open my eyes...

No tears escaped, no sobs came out of her mouth. She got up and walked the way home, it took her ages seeing as it was 6 miles away.

Zac got in his car and drove off. I guess I never really knew her that well, he thought. He didn't cry, he didn't kick himself for being stupid. He resolved to move on, find someone new. Release an album, make a movie, something. Something to take his mind off what he didn't understand.

4 months later

(ok, from now, it'll be like diary's. Lauren and Zac have both released separate albums of all the songs they wrote that you'll read about next and it's the reasons why they wrote them and stuff. Also, I know you can't release songs here and there and everywhere but just go along with it)

Dear Diary,

Lauren doesn't care anymore. I've sent her a bunch of flowers but she hasn't done anything about it. I've left her messages on her phone, sent her texts. Don't get me wrong, I don't want 'us' back; I just wanted to make sure she was ok. Now she's gone and released a song. I'll write the lyrics down and then maybe you'll understand why it hurts.

Everytime I saw you I tried to pretend
Now I think your caught in a spin.
Said that I could trust you to be my everything

fallin from the shadows.
Now I think.

All those times wasted
And you tried to hide it from me
How can't you say it
How can't you do it
Never really had me
I'm over it
So why is it so hard to see cause all the lies
Your tellin' me now i'm gettin' out im movin' on i'm over it.

I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over it

I try to walk away but my heart is saying no
Can't believe it took so long to go
Now the past is fadin, I hardly know your name
Don't know whatcha doin, you lost the game

I don't care
Never...I'm over it
So what is it
Can we
I'm over it

How can't you say it
How can't you do it
Never really had me
I'm over it
So why is it so hard to see cause all the lies
Your tellin' me now i'm gettin' out im movin' on i'm over it.

How can't you say it
How can't you do it
Never really had me
I'm over it
So why is it so hard to see cause all the lies
Your tellin' me now i'm gettin' out im movin'on i'm over it.

I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over it

ha ha ha ha

It was obvious she meant me. All the critics and reporters etc commented on it. I've rang my manager and told him I wanted to reply, but in a song. I'll write back in when I've finished.

Zac

Sugar sweet, if only they all knew
Jam, can't spread no more you've took my bread
Energy, just work, no rest or play
Me, myself I'd rather be alone again
So you can do what you like

Do what you like

No need to ask me

Do what you want

Do what you like

No need to tell me

Do what you want

Cherry pie, you're not as cute as me

Ice, could never be as cold as you

Recipe, you stir me up inside
Me, myself I'd rather be alone again

Dear Diary,

How dare he! I've got reporters camped outside because of that stupid song he's written about me! I don't even know why he's done it! Unless, oh crap! He thinks the song I wrote was about him! No, no, no, no, you idiot Lauren!!!

That was for Billie! His girlfriends just dumped him for his best friend and he wanted me to make a song for them! Oh shit, well done Lauren. I guess I should apologise and tell him the real reason why the song was written. That doesn't take away the fact he deliberately wrote it about me though. I thought he knew me better.

Hang on; if he can be so petty, then I might just join him. I'm gonna release another one! Show him that I don't care that he doesn't care about me not caring about him not wanting to get back together! No I didn't understand what I just wrote either! Anyways, Zac Efron won't know what's hit him.

Lo xx

God I´m such a creep
I´m having so much fun breaking up
It´s getting kind of wicked

And there´s no need to weep
It´s more like a relief - I can´t stop
Laughing and I´m thinking
You´re looking at a single in gold

I´m just your worst freakin´nightmare ex-girlfriend

I am such a creep
I am such a creepy kind
Sorry but I do believe I´m just that type of girl
I am such a creep
( and I can´t help it )
I aint gonna waste my time
And I do believe that boy just had to go
God I´m such a creep!

The grass is turning green
The air is loosing weight - and the sun
Is lighting up my bedroom

My smile is kinda mean
I feel like I´m a dove with a gun
I´m looking in my phonebook
And there´s a lot of numbers to dial

…..God I´m such a creep
I´m having so much fun breaking up
I´m laughin and I´m thinking
You´re looking at a single in gold

Dear Diary,

That's right, have a good look, THAT is what she's written. THAT is what she thinks of our relationship. THAT means the letter was total bullcrap. THAT means that she's winning. THAT means I have to get one over on her. THAT means I have three options.

1-Do another song

2-Find a girlfriend, make her jealous

3-Both of the above

I choose option 3. THAT means I have to get out and about. THAT means I have to have a shower and get some decent clothes on. THAT means I have to find a girl. THAT means..god I've gotta stop doing that. Ok, over and out.

Zac

Dear Diary,

I hate my life. I knew I was doing something wrong by releasing that other song but it just hurt so much that I couldn't stop myself. I wanted to make him feel the pain I felt. I've just made it worse, do you know what's happened now? He's got a girlfriend. HE'S GOT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!

Do you wanna know the worst part, she looks like me, she's got the blonde hair and she even dresses like me! Don't you think that's trying to tell me something? That if I was different, we'd still be together? She's just so me. I see them in magazines, papers, on the news. Did you know once they put a picture up of Zac and me, our backs were away from the camera, and they were talking about it being him and her! Then they found out it was actually me and apologised!!

He's also released this. His ode to Miss Look-a-like. Natalia Romata.

Ridin in the drop top with the top down
Saw you switchin lanes girl
Pull up to the red light lookin right
Come on let me get your name girl
Tell me where your from, What you do, What you like
Let me pick your brain girl
And tell me how they that got that pretty little face
On that pretty little frame girl
But let me show you round, Let me take you out
Betcha we can have some fun girl
Cause we can it do fast or slow
Which ever way you wanna run girl
But let me buy you drinks better yet rings
Do it how you want it done girl
And who woulda thought that you could be the one cuz I

I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love you'll see
This just can't be summer love , L.O.V.E.

Come on and let me show you round, let me take you out
Betcha we can have some fun girl
Cuz you could dress it up, dress it down
Any way you want it done girl
Or we can stay home talkin on the phone
-Rappin till we see the sun girl
Do what I gotta do ,just gotta show you
That I'm the one girl
Well I'ma freak ya right each and every night
I know how to do it insane girl
Cuz I can make ya hot make ya stop
Make ya wanna say my name girl
Come on baby please cuz I'm on my knees
Can't get you off my brain girl
But who woulda thought that you could be the one cuz I

I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love you'll see
This just can't be summer love , L.O.V.E.

Cuz I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love you'll see
This just can't be summer love , L.O.V.E

Summer's over for the both of us. (summer's over
But that doesn't mean we should give up on us don't give up
Your the one that I've been thinkin of your the one
And I knew the day I met you you'd be the one

I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love you'll see
This just can't be summer love , L.O.V.E

Cuz I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love you'll see
This just can't be summer love , L.O.V.E

I actually cried when I heard that. Not like I did with his first one, this was worse. This hurt so much. I have to get him back, I'll play reverse psychology on him. Wait and see. One last song and then I'll leave it and he'll look like the childish one.

The one and only (heartbroken) Lo xx

Boy what's this I see,
Your girl - she looks just like me,
Blond hair and dressed to a T,
You tell me how can this be,
Does she know I was the one,
Who used to turn you on,
But you don't want to talk about it

Well you think you can find
Someone to fill my shoes
And you ask yourself why
She don't do the things I do
And you can't deny
That everywhere you go
You see my face, hear my name
And it eats you up inside

You know I'm one of a kind
There'll never be another me
Can't get me out of your mind
You're lost in your own fantasy
And when you look in my eyes
Is it hard for you to realize
She'll never be me

Why can't you see it girl
Got no identity
Whenever he's touching me
blonde hair and dressed to a t
you tell me how could this be
does she know i was the one
Who used to turn you on, yea
But you don't want to talk about it

You know I'm one of a kind
There'll never be another me
Can't get me out of your mind
You're lost in your own fantasy
And when you look in my eyes
Is it hard for you to realize
She'll never be me

Dear Diary,

Ok so I know she looks like Lauren but she's really different. She, she has, well, oh toss it. She's exactly like Lo. I don't know why, she just is, and I know that's why Lauren released that other song. I'm not stupid. That song's made everyone look in on my private life. I can't go anywhere now, and I'm gonna make it the same for her.

Zac

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

Wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now

Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me

Dear Diary,

I've lost it, I have completely and utterly lost it. I don't know what to do with my life. He's put in that horrible song that we could have had a second chance! Who the hell does he think he is? He knew he would never take me back. Now he's made it look like it was my fault we didn't get back together!

I can't do this anymore. I can't release another hate song about him, or her, or anything. I just have to do what feels right. I'll release one last song, one last one, but it'll be that one I sang at the lake. One of love, and how I still love him. Maybe then that will convince him I still love him and I don't mean to hurt him. I'll write him a letter too, telling him how this all started etc.

Watch this space,

Lo xx

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So???? Sorry it took solong to update!! The fan fiction wouldn't let me upload documents, anyway, review, and be kind!!! xxx