I can't do this anymore. I can't release another hate song about him, or her, or anything. I just have to do what feels right. I'll release one last song, one last one, but it'll be that one I sang at the lake. One of love, and how I still love him. Maybe then that will convince him I still love him and I don't mean to hurt him. I'll write him a letter too, telling him how this all started etc.

Watch this space,

Lo xx

Zac walked into his flat feeling totally crap. He'd just dumped Natalia. Not because of the press, but because she reminded him of Lauren. Whatever Natalia did, just didn't seem to compare with what him and Lauren had done together. Sure they had a laugh, but it wasn't the same. It wasn't fair to judge her against Lauren but Zac couldn't help it. All he kept remembering was the good times he and Lauren had.

Then it came to him suddenly, he wanted her back. He wanted her back. (if this was a movie, this would be the part where you cheer lol) It was only now when he noticed the package on the floor.

He picked it up and opened it, there was a letter and a cd. He read the letter first, it said.

Dear Zac

I know you might think I'm a scheming, horrible cow right now, but I'm writing you this to tell you the truth.

The first song that sparked all this off wasn't about you. I promise.

Billie had been going out with a girl, she was his first girlfriend, and he found out she was two-timing him with his best friend. You should have seen him, he was so upset and hurt and angry all at the same time. He looked lost Zac. I know because that was how I looked when that thing with my Dad happened.

I couldn't let him feel like that, I was proof enough that if you look like that, you turn out a mess. That's what I am, I'm a mess. For a while at the start, it seemed like nothing could go wrong, I had it all. But now I know that it can't happen. If you get the look of lost, there's no turning back. I couldn't let Billie turn out like me.

So I had a talk with him, when I say talk, I mean a conference that lasted about four hours, you of all people know how much I can talk. We discussed how he was feeling and I made him write down all his feelings. I left him alone to do it and when he cam back he handed me the piece of paper.

When I held it, it felt heavy. It took me a while to realise why but then I figure that it was because, written on that one small piece of paper, was every feeling my little brother had. It made me cry.

We decided that the only way Billie felt he could get back at them was for me to release a song, hence the name 'over it'. Couldn't you see from the lyrics?

' All those times wasted and you tried to hide it from me'.When did you ever hide anything from me Zac? Even when we split I could tell you hadn't been hiding it for long.

Then you released a song and all the anger and hurt I didn't know existed blew up inside of me and I retaliated. I wrote another and it was a hit, just like yours. I'd decided there and then that I wouldn't do another one, that it was too painful, but then she came into the picture.

You're a fast mover for one thing, I'll give you that. The pain I'd experienced before was made even worse, but you also released a song for her. That made me want to slit my wrists. Believe me, I'm not being over dramatic here, I had actually picked up the knife from the drawer before I caught myself.

Then, the anger blew up again, worse than before. I wrote 'She'll never be me'. The next thing I know, it's being played on the radio, on T.V., everywhere. Then you and her broke up. I never wanted to hurt you, if you're happy with her then you should go for it. Maybe I'll find your look-a-like and date him. I doubt it.

That last song you released, got to me. More than the others. You put in it that we could have got back together if I'd have been different. I'm sorry Zac, I can't change, not for you not for anyone. I have to be me, I have to be who I really am.

So I've made this one last song. Hopefully the words will tell you everything, if not, there really is no hope in this world. I'm asking you, as a friend, as someone who you used to (I hope) love, please don't contact me, I'm going to some auditions for some movies and hopefully they'll take my mind off you. Please let me be, and maybe, just maybe, I'll move on and find someone new. I know that's what you want to do and I fully respect that, I hope you'll respect me for wanting the same.

Yours faithfully,

Lauren

Zac put his head in his hands. Just when he wanted her, she'd gone. He yelled and began to repeatedly smash the wall until his knuckles bled. After ages of staring into space, he put the cd into the player. He listened and let Lauren's voice fill the room.

You took your love away
too fast
Left no chance to say
look back

And now I know the truth,
it makes it easier.
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away

You threw it all away,
so blind (so blind)
Pushed me far from you in your life.
Now I know the tears
wont lead to loneliness.
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away

I run away

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away-y-y-y-y-y

Let's pretend that I moved on,
tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away.

Lets pretend that I moved on
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
open my eyes...

By the end, Zac was crying. He pressed play and let her voice wash over him, one last time. He let the words go inside him and pull his heart strings. He closed his eyes and imagined her, one last time….