If there was one thing that I was glad for, it was that I could forget all the feelings and the pain when it was time to entertain the ladies in the Host Club. There the act was just an act, it was normal and fluid and I felt comfortable again. Yet...as we waved everyone goodbye I studied each face. It had to be one of these girls that he liked. Unless he'd met someone online. No, it was one of these girls, but who?

I'll say it again, I wasn't jealous. No, I was just very curious. I found it laughable that I didn't even know Hikaru's 'type' when I knew the 'type' of pretty much every girl in this room and even the other host club members, in part. Maybe it would be best if I tried to move on from Hikaru, being so close to him had clearly clouded my mind. Only I didn't want to move on from him, I wanted to pull him close and kiss him until I couldn't breathe any more.

"What's with that look?"

I snapped out of my daydream at the sound of that voice. Haruhi stood, ready to go, only a few girls left now taking their time and whining that they didn't want to go as Tamaki lamented their leaving also. "What look?" I feigned innocence.

"For a second you had this weird look on your face, kind of love struck." She replied and I cursed, there was no way I was showing that much on my face, damn her perception abilities.

"You must be imagining things Haruhi."

Haruhi gave me a doubtful look. "I'll be seeing you later then." I watched her leave and turned back to where Hikaru should have been, just a few paces to my side. He was gone though, standing a little further back with a girls arms wrapped around his waist. They were both smiling, but my heart pounded its way up into my throat. The new girl, Miki something or other? The new girl was the one he had fallen for? They were talking but I didn't hear the words, they become a nasty hum in my ears.

I looked away. A moment later she passed and I felt Hikaru take my hand and squeeze it. "Ready to go?" he asked.

"Mm? Sure." I tried to clear my sadness but it was too late, he turned me around and frowned deeply, piercing me with his eyes. "What?" I squeaked not at all liking that mistrusting look.

"Something's up with you and for once I don't know what." Hikaru replied.

"I-" That single word floated away and I became silent. I could see it in his eyes, that pain that occurred with not knowing what was wrong with your twin when you usually did. "I don't want to talk about it here."

"Okay fine." Hikaru's hand went back to mine, but it was much tighter this time and he pulled me along. He marched down the hallway and outside, not even speaking until we were in the car on our way home. "Right, now spill." Hikaru turned his whole body towards me. His gaze was so intense.

Stop looking at me...

This wasn't the first time that Hikaru had fixed me with that stare. He did it every time he felt I was keeping a secret from him, ever since we were young he would just fix me with that stare and stare and stare until I cracked. I almost always did. Okay, always. I couldn't help it, that stare burned into me even if I faced away, even if I was sat all the way across a room. I wasn't the one keeping secrets here though.

Dammit stop staring at me!

I cracked, just as he knew that I would. "I was looking on your computer and I found that article you were looking at." I admitted, cheeks burning up in a real blush.

"Which article?"

It was my turn to stare at him this time, outside I was aware that we were almost home, I would rather finish this before then, before he could storm off and hide it from me. "You know 'which article'. The one about 'quiet sex'."

Hikaru made a noise that was somewhat like being strangled and this time he was the one who blushed. I grinned a little to myself, happy that I'd got him cornered. I wasn't jealous, I was just curious. Being so curious it was exciting to trap Hikaru in a corner and get him to tell me. "See. You do know what I'm talking about, don't you? Hikaru I don't care that you want to have sex with the new girl, I'm happy for you, I'm happy that you found someone. I'm just a little hurt that you wanted to hide her from me, I mean we're twins aren't we? Brothers that share everything? Mm, guess it doesn't matter now because I found out anyway." I laughed, but everything still hurt inside. "And you thought you could keep this new girl and you a secret from me."

"It's not Miki."

"Huh?"

"The reason I was looking at that article. It wasn't because of the new girl. I don't want to have sex with her. She had her arms around me because you likes me, but I don't like her." Hikaru stated boldly. His blush was gone, instead a serious look was there. Hikaru has his hands folded in his lap, head down a little. As he looked up and I saw the full intensity of that look my breath caught in my throat. It was a strangely sexy look. "I was looking up how to do it quietly, because I knew that if anyone heard us, then it would be bad for the both of us...reputation wise."

"Oh..." I didn't know what else to say, but forced out something more so I didn't look like an idiot just saying 'oh'. "She must be really important." the car stopped outside of our house.

"It's not a girl."

"What?" I'd been distracted looking out at the house only a second, barely catching those words, but as I turned back Hikaru was already out of the car and jogging up to the house. It's not a girl? Then...could it be? My heart was fit to burst just thinking about such a possibility.

Am I your love?

AN: Look who decided to make this a full story!