Faking My Own Suicide (Relient K)

I'm back! Did you miss me?

"He doesn't care that I exist." Xion told herself as tears fell from her eyes. "What's the point of trying?" She had been sitting in her room, contemplating the fact that if she had died, would Roxas even care? Or would he be so caught up in that girl Namine that he wouldn't even notice? She clenched her fists at her sides. "What if I just pretend I died or something, just to see his reaction." She mused while wiping her salty tears off her cheeks.

"I bet he'll love me when he finds out I'm gone. I bet he'll finally wake up and realize that he belongs with me, not that snob Namine."

She wasn't really going to end her life, she just thought about it. She was too afraid to kill herself; instead she would just hide away for at least a week and never leave her home. Since her parents would question this behavior, Xion would just tell them she was feeling ill. To her, this was a good enough plan. She'd just have to get the word out that she had died.

It was a silly and stupid plan really, but it was all she had left to get Roxas' attention.

Later that day she had finally got the courage to talk to her best friend Kairi and explain the whole situation. Kairi thought it was absurd and that she wouldn't spread something like that around the school. She'd get in trouble herself. So the two made the decision that if Roxas or Namine had asked where Xion was, Kairi would reply with, "She's dead."

To Xion, this was a perfect plan and all she had to do was wait for tomorrow to come.

That night in bed, Xion's mind was going crazy of all the possible reactions Roxas would do when he found out.

I wish he thought I was dead, that way when I do disappear he'd feel so guilty for ever thinking that. And it'd be too late for him to tell me anything.

About a week had passed and Roxas had asked where Xion's whereabouts were. He was shocked when Kairi had told him the 'news'. That day, he went home early from school, complaining of nausea and severe headaches.

Kairi just felt awful. Playing with people's emotions was just wrong. He even said he'd stop by the house to visit her parents.

And when he did, what he saw shocked him. After he had ringed the doorbell, the girl who he thought was dead answered.

"Xion I-" He started with wide eyes. He couldn't believe what he was seeing. An envelope he had carried in his hand fell onto the ground. He just stared at her as if she had three heads and leaped forward and embraced her in a tight hug.

"I know." Said Xion as she wrapped her arms around him also. "It was fake." A tear rolled down her cheek as she closed her eyes tightly. "I did it to get your attention. I'm so sorry, I was wrong…"

"Xion," He said. "Don't ever do that, its serious business and you did that because of me? Xion..." He trailed off as he hugged her tighter. "I love you, don't think I don't."

She couldn't hold back the tears any longer and decided to let it all out hard. She soaked his shoulder with her tears. He stroked her back gently with his hand.

"Don't do that ever again, I was scared Xi, really scared." He sniffled his nose. "Just because I have a girlfriend, doesn't mean I don't care about you anymore Xi, I love you."

She had gone through all this just to hear those words for the first time. It was worth it for her even though she carried a ridiculous amount of guilt.

"You know," He started. "I would've asked you out, but you seemed like you weren't interested."

Her eyes lit up. If she wasn't so selfish in all of this, he could've been hers all along.

Well, isn't this just a silly little thing? I honestly cringe when people think suicide is an option just to get a certain boy/girl to notice them...

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