Remus sighed as he put down his book. It was nearly ten o'clock, the others were asleep in bed, and he was doing his best to keep his thoughts from Lily- But it wasn't working…
All he could think about was her… her kind emerald eyes, and her fiery red hair to match her temper… and how James would react if he ever found out…
But James told me not to let anything or anyone stand in my way… but then, he wouldn't of said that if he knew who I was in love wi- … in love?
Remus buried his face in his hands.
I'm in this way too deep…
He was interrupted by someone sitting down next to him, and he looked up to see Sirius in his pyjamas.
"Remus, if it's troubling you this much- I think you should just tell her"
Remus' head jerked up.
"Tell her what?"
Please don't let Sirius know I love her…
Sirius raised an eyebrow. "Tell her that you're a werewolf… and if there's something else you want to tell her- then go ahead…"
Remus slumped down onto his bed, and Sirius took this as a sign of worry.
"If she's the one for you- then she'll understand… if not, then at least you know, and you can move on…" Sirius went back to his bed.
That's it! I'll tell Lily I'm a werewolf and she'll… she'll distance herself from me… and I can finally get over her…
Remus nodded, and stood up. He was going for a walk…
Lily growled as she turned over in her bed again. She had been tossing and turning like this for nearly half an hour, and she still couldn't get comfortable…
Nor could she get her mind of a certain Marauder…
"Lily quit with the noise" mumbled a sleep ridden Alice Prewett.
"Sorry" Lily whispered, and turned onto her back.
I need to stretch my legs… and with that thought she got out of bed, and after putting a jumper and jeans on, grabbed her sneakers and made her way down into the common room. After slipping on her shoes, she walked quietly out of the portrait hole.
The fat lady smiled, and said with a wink "He just left"
Lily raised an eyebrow, but didn't think on it, deciding to just wander the school.
She had not met anyone so far, which she thought strange, and she was just passing the Great Hall when she heard someone stub their toe.
"Ow!" cried Remus, before placing a hand to his mouth, hoping no one had heard him. His luck, it seemed, had run out for he heard someone say quietly "Who's there?"
He turned under the invisibility cloak he had borrowed from James, and felt his heart throb painfully.
"Lily?" he asked as he pulled the cloak off.
"Remus? What are you doing down here?" she said as she walked to stand next to him
"I- couldn't sleep" he said, with a faint blush.
"Oh. Me neither…" Lily trailed off, before her eyes landed on the cloak in his hand. "Is that an invisibility cloak?"
"Hmm? Oh, yeah- It's James'… you wont tell, will you?"
Lily scowled at James' name, but shook her head.
They sat down at the Gryffindor table, and Remus tried his hardest not to shuffle closer to her. They were quiet for awhile, just staring up at the ceiling, which reflected the night sky beautifully, the crescent moon glowing faintly down upon them.
Lily watched looked down from watching a particular star flicker and glanced at Remus. He was still gazing up, and his face was blank, but his eyes showed a battle of emotions. He looked down again, and sighed, looking over at her, and was apparently surprised to find her watching him.
"Remus-"
"Lily-"
They both started at the same time, and Lily smiled and said "you first"
Remus sighed and looked to his feet. "Lily… there's something… well two things I have to tell you… but after you hear the first one your going to run away screaming…"
"I highly doubt that Remus" Lily said, studying his face, trying to figure out what he was telling her.
"Yes, well... I don't doubt it… I've never told anyone before- James, Sirius and Peter just kind of… found out; and I'm so lucky they didn't run away… didn't tell the school…"
"Remus, what is it?"
"I'm a werewolf." Remus said looking up and meeting her eyes.
Lily felt her jaw drop, and Remus looked away.
Say something! Her mind screamed at her Its still Remus! He trusts you with the biggest secret he's got and you sit here like a-
"Oh… well that's… unexpected..." she said after a minute of shocked silence.
"Its fine if you don't want to be near me anymore- I understand.."
"What!?" said Lily in outrage
Remus met her eyes again, and he looked confused.
"Well, most people don't want to hang out with a werewolf!"
"You're not a werewolf" said Lily before she could stop herself.
Remus froze, but his mind was going a mile a minute…
Please don't finish that sentence… please, please, ple-
"You're Remus Lupin…"
Remus opened his mouth to argue- to make her see sense… to make her run before he did something he wasn't entirely sure he'd regret…
But Lily cut him off "Yes, you turn into a wolf every full moon… but the rest of the time you are Remus Lupin…and I know for a fact that you would never do any of the things a wolf would do"
Please don't be saying what I hope you're saying…
Lily moved closer, and didn't miss Remus tensing further.
"… and that's good enough for me"
"Lily… I can't… James is my best friend Lily…" Remus said sadly.
"If James is your best friend, then he'll understand." She breathed as she moved closer
Remus couldn't help but lean in as well.
"He loves you" he whispered
"And I love you" she said
Remus felt his breath hitch in his throat, and before he knew what he was doing, he had crashed his lips onto hers… and then
"Remus, Li- WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TWO DOING?"
Remus and Lily broke apart to see Sirius standing in the door way, Marauders map in hand.