CYCLE OF RIN
By Lady JenDragon
Disclaimer: I don't own it. Got over it…moved on.
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Chapter Thirteen
Fate Intervenes
Rin rose one morning, a week after her crying admission that she attempted to die to escape her situation with Inuyasha's elder brother. The respect she earned from Sango, Kagome, Miroku and Inuyasha did not change as she expected. But they watched her more often now, following her around when she went off alone despite her individual apologies.
Inuyasha followed her through the forest sometimes, believing himself to be the best tracker. Mostly he kept an eye on her whenever she went to the river to catch fish. She smiled, shaking her head at the memory of Inuyasha falling into the water the first time he followed her to the river. Her life returned to some of its normalcy prior to THAT night.
'Focus.' She scolded, reminding herself of the current task.
Rin's demonslayer suit did not fit her anymore. And baffled as to why. Had she gained weight since her night with Sesshomaru? Pulling the ties at the front towards one another once more, her fingers barely got the wood piece through the loop. What was going on?
Kagome took that moment to enter the hut, stopping just inside. Rin looked up at her with a shocked expression.
"Rin?" Kagome felt alarmed. "What's wrong?"
Rin wanted to scream out her frustrations. Her chest felt pinched in the suit. 'Great', now she would have to get her suit enlarged. What a great rumor that would be, Rin lamented. Women and their little conversations, she thought irritated. Always making fun of her, calling her the whore of a demon. As if that little title would never reach her ears, she thought fuming. Pushing the negative thoughts from her mind, she did not have time for such pettiness.
Rin would make them pay in some small way.
But, she was losing her focus again. Her shrinking demonslayer suit was the current dilemma. What could she do? Sango suggested donning a kimono for the duration of the pregnancy but she dismissed that thought immediately. Too confining, she contended. She preferred the demonslayer suit whenever she went out. If Kagome could wear her little outfit, Rin could keep her demonslayer suit.
"My suit!" Rin's voice strained. "It doesn't want to fit anymore!"
Kagome took several moments to silently assess Rin. Her eyes darted from the head to the hips and back up to Rin's chest. Suddenly, it hit her. There was nothing wrong with Rin, at least, not life threatening. She smiled, shaking her head.
"You're breasts are larger." Kagome said finally.
"What?" Rin's eyes widened, covering the larger swells with her hands. "Why?"
Kagome was correct, Rin realized anxiously. Her hands normally covered more area than what they were now. How could she prevent them from getting any larger? Rin looked at Kagome fearfully hopeful for advice.
"Typical when you're pregnant." Kagome shrugged.
"I'm…" Rin in shock took a few steps back. "I hate being pregnant! How do I stop it?"
Kagome laughed out loud. Seeing Rin's serious and fearful expression, she pulled herself together. She inched closer to Rin, bending over to take a closer look, thinking about her own pregnancy not too long ago. Odd, Rin's chest should take longer to reach a larger breast size. It had not been that long after her night with Sesshomaru. 'A week and a half exactly, wasn't it?'
"I'm afraid you can't, Rin." Kagome gave her a sympathetic look. "It's common that a woman's bosom grows when she's carrying to prepare to breast feed her child."
"No." Rin wanted to deny it vehemently but swallowed her pride and said calmly. "That's some time off yet. Isn't it too early?"
Kagome nodded in agreement, her brow furrowed in thought.
"Normally. But, if what you said is correct. Then you must be experiencing the demon version of pregnancy. It's different for every woman, Rin. No two are exactly the same. There must be a good reason why you're producing so early."
"There's got to be some way to combat this!" Rin said with finality.
She would not let this get the best of her. Surely, something could be done to keep her…bosom from expanding. Rin realized her chest weighed a good deal more than before. 'If its not one thing…its another.'
Shippo pushed through the door at that moment. His small demon form, a few inches taller than seven years ago, bounced onto the raised platform floor. He froze when he realized that both women stared hard at him. Shippo knew Kagome's glare meant business. He was about to be drawn into something he most likely wanted to avoid.
"Why didn't I think about it before?" Kagome smiled. "Hi Shippo."
Rin gulped.
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A pile of clothes, a black demonslayer suit and a kimono shirt, sat on top of the gray rock as steam rose from the small body of water. Rin sat in the hot spring, its heat felt soothing to her. Leaning back against the warm rock, she let a sigh escape her. Only two weeks in and she experienced more hassle with pregnancy than either Kagome or Sango.
The pain in her chest reminded her why she was here, slightly eased by taking what Kagome called 'gravity' off her body. Only in the last few days had pain began in her chest. Her bosom was too big according to both Sango and Kagome. They were pretty sure she was storing some kind of liquid inside. Both breasts hardened continuously, her clothes barely wearable now. Her demonslayer suit could not be fastened, the kimono shirt used to cover the open front.
Massaging her breasts as Kagome indicated, the hard swells did not release the liquid inside. They tried everything. Manual squeezing in private, something called a breast pump Kagome brought back with her from home. Even a pill was given to her that was supposed to halt breast milk making hormones. Shippo even attempted to nurse, a process that required suckling her breast. Nothing worked. Everyone seemed at a loss how to relieve her problem.
Branches broke behind her, slightly startling her. It must be almost bed time. Kagome was to come get her. Rin, preoccupied with her own thoughts, did not glimpse at her visitor. She glanced at her water-wrinkled hands.
"I'm not done, Kagome!" Rin called out. "Nothing's working!"
She shifted onto her knees, reaching out and pulling her kimono shirt over to her. Rin covered her massive front, searching for the sleeves. She did not question Kagome's silence as she rose to feet slowly. Both women, Rin still felt a bit self-conscious about her larger bosom. People stared too often lately when she walked around the village. No sense in giving them a peek without clothes.
Rin stood with her back to Kagome, sliding her arms into the sleeves, the kimono shirt on backwards. Her long hair hung loose down her back, covering down to just below her waist. She turned to face Kagome, finding Sesshomaru watching her instead. Her lungs lost all capacity for breath. She felt frozen, shocked he returned.
Immediately, her hands covered her enlarged assets with her arms. His amber eyes settled on her bosom then transferred to her face. Then Rin realized he wore no armor and no swords, the yellow/blue sash missing. Even the boa/sash he wore hung low on his right arm.
"Demon nectar grows within you." Sesshomaru answered her unasked question.
Rin found she could only look at him with wide eyes. 'Demon nectar? Like milk only for demon children?' Sesshomaru appeared to understand what her expressions meant and why she came to the hot springs.
"I believe I told you to leave me alone." Rin reminded him.
"The child you carry belongs to me." Sesshomaru took several steps towards her. "Your resentment towards me does not change the consequences of our union."
Rin backed away, her legs finding the water harder to move through. Reaching the rock edge of the hot spring, she turned to climb out away from him. Pointless, she decided, finding Sesshomaru moved to cut off her escape, his massive form standing in her way. She forgot how quickly he maneuvered. Being a demon, he had the agility of lightning. He reached down, gripping her nearest wrist in his large hand.
"Leave me alone!" She demanded, yanking to free her captured wrist.
Sesshomaru turned, ignoring Rin's demand, pulling her out of the hot spring. He led the way along a small path through the grass away from the hot spring. Rin attempted to pull her wrist free to no avail. Out of patience, he merely lifted her off the ground under his right arm.
She did not have time to react, barely capable of keeping her kimono over her, bare legs kicking wildly. He moved quickly, carrying her to a small hut built along the base of a small hill. Rin attempted to stall, straining her dangling feet down to dig into the soft earth. Her actions caused Sesshomaru to pivot, lifting her onto his right arm this time.
"Stop!" Rin demanded frustrated.
Her demands went unheard as he entered the hut claiming temporary ownership of the clearly abandoned structure.
Inside the hut, Rin found her body forced onto an old mattress on the floor almost gentle. She tried to roll over away from him while keeping her form covered. This proved difficult and took more time to execute. Sesshomaru's large hand gently pressed down on her abdomen, pushing her onto the discarded sash/boa and old soft mattress. He laid his full weight on her as she struggled to free herself, his chest on her hips.
"Not again!" Rin breathed.
She blinked twice. Rin did not realize her kimono had been pulled down, her chest exposed. Her eyes followed his chest up to his face. Sesshomaru remained silent, as if contemplating what to do. His eyes focused solely on her bare bosom, her lungs screamed for breath.
The legend was true indeed. The demon nectar produced itself within the first two weeks of the pregnancy, a sign their union was successful. Her full breasts seemed to teem with anticipation, her body sensing his demon aura. Sesshomaru regarded the silky swells, hardened with the demon nectar calling out to him. Without thought, his hand ran over Rin's skin, the feel of her enticing him to continue with his mission. He bent his head to taste her flesh. The memories of their first night together returned to replay in his mind.
Rin nearly jumped as Sesshomaru's lips slid over her swelled left nipple. Suddenly, the pain in her chest disappeared. His hand squeezed her breast, releasing the stored liquid causing her unnecessary pain. Breath finally filled her lungs as her bosom reduced in size. Several moments passed, his lips switched to her other breast, releasing the interior liquid from storage.
"The…demon nectar isn't for the child." Rin whispered in realization. "It's for you."
A low, deep growl vibrated from Sesshomaru's throat as he feed. She could not tear her eyes from Sesshomaru. The ease at which he feasted offended and relieved her. Offended her in that he showed no regard for her sense of modesty. Relieved because there was an escape from this side effect of her pregnancy.
Rin settled, mildly happy that the pressure and pain disappeared. But there were more questions than answers. Rin remembered both Kagome and Sango's pregnancies. Neither suffered the same symptoms she did. Because she carried a demon child, she reminded herself. Rin's chest felt suddenly very light. Glancing down, her assets appeared normal size. She sighed, letting a small smile to touch her lips. Then her eyes widened.
"No!" Rin gritted out.
Sesshomaru spread his kimono shirt and slid Rin down him, removing her kimono completely in the process. She did not realize that his lower kimono had been removed while he drained her bosom. Rin fought, yet her attempt proved pointless. His fingers grazed between her legs, sending spasms of want shooting through her. Both legs spread wider, allowing his weight to fall onto the mattress. 'This isn't happening!' Rin felt her breath catch as his fingers slid inside, pushing her desires to flare higher.
"No…please!" Rin hated the words that escaped.
His fingers pulsed in rhythm with her own conflicting emotions, allowing her body to relax. Her hands gripped then released his arm. Sesshomaru watched as Rin tried to fight her response to him. 'Futile.' Her body called out to him to remind her why she belonged to him. Finding her distracted, he slid his fingers out and gripped her body.
Slowly, he guided his hips against hers.
Rin felt overwhelmed. Her mind and body wound itself in turmoil as he assaulted her. Suddenly his stroking stopped, she opened her eyes. She arched her back, her body opening willingly to him as their hips slid together. Her eyes widened again.
The pain of their union hurt this time. More so than last time. 'Did it?' She could not think straight. The slick rhythm between them became less strained by pain, giving way to pleasure. She bit her lower lip, attempting to stave off his lust…and hers.
'Why? WHY! Why…must I…want him?'
Her pleasure was building fast. Rin could not stop it even if she had some amount of control over her body. The wave of ecstasy hit her hard and fast, releasing pent up energy in a single burst. His came seconds after her, releasing his own into her. Rin bit her lip once more to prevent any emotional outcry. She would not let him hear her pleasure tonight.
Sesshomaru felt unsatisfied. Rin tasted exotic and delicious yet their union lacked the heated passion from before. He wanted her delirium, he needed her unhindered emotion that she showed him. There would be no rest until he got what he wanted, his body craving more. Her back arched against him, pushing them from the floor as she matched his rhythm.
Rin pushed against him, understanding full well what he was after. 'He will not…' His hand slid beneath her head, his fingers sliding through her long black hair. Rin's eyes widened. In an instant, her lips found his.
Suddenly the world changed.
Sesshomaru felt the heat contained in those soft lips draining him of violent lust. Pressing his lips gently against hers, parting hers slightly, his breath turned shallow and ragged. He lingered on her lips, slowly testing what she was willing to give him.
His kiss turned from hungry and instinctive to gentle and provocative. Rin did not know how to deal with this. Her demonslayer training taught her how to behave in a heated battle. This tenderness caught her off guard. And she found herself responding. Her hands slid into his hair, their kiss deepening.
'Maddening.' Sesshomaru thought succumbing to this new emotion.
Her softness lured him to explore. His own body betrayed his lustrous need discovering a new form of desire. Rin gave him what he wanted, what he needed. The method of her seduction changed every time they met. Her hands in his hair drove him crazy, wishing she would wake him from this dream.
Tearing her lips from his, Rin felt an odd burning sensation. The fire within threatened to melt her if she stayed any longer. Her skin slicked with sweat, rippled with her own peak. Her eyes widened as his lips traced her neck down then back up to her ear. His hips moved gently against hers. A small sigh escaped her lips, her body quivering with desire.
Rin did not see the small smile Sesshomaru gave her.
His arm circled around her waist, lifting her from the floor. Sitting with her on his lap, Rin's eyes widened as another wave of ecstasy raged through her. His lips possessed hers, hungrily searching for her feelings. Her arms slid around his broad shoulders for support. Both hands clasped onto several silky locks of hair. Rin's eyes opened as she ripped herself from him.
Sesshomaru shifted, allowing Rin to crawl away from him. He chose not to face her, giving her time to take cover. His fist tightened as anger suddenly raged through him. His eyes burned crimson for several seconds then dissipated.
Rin shuddered, laying face down on the mattress. Tears wanted to come but none formed. Her body continued to betray her. There was much to think about. She fisted her hand, biting it to face her inner hate.
'I don't want him!' She yelled at herself. 'Why do I submit?'
She did not hate him. Rin cursed truth, despising its hurtful rationale. It was pointless to disregard the reality of her feelings. Though he abandoned her, did not rescue her as he had done in the past, she could not hate him. Sesshomaru simply finished with her and left her to figure out the rest of her life on her own seven years ago. Her past master no longer needed her and set her free.
Rin pushed herself up, covering herself with the kimono shirt lying near by. She shifted to face him, finding Sesshomaru gone. When had he left? She did not hear him even stand up or leave through the door.
"Figures."
She collapsed onto the mattress on her back, both eyes focused on the ceiling. Rin contemplated this new revelation. It's final acceptance, one she could live with. Slowly, sleep beckoned her, luring her into dreamless depths. Her body settled into a lax pose beneath the kimono shirt, her body lithe from the union with that damn Dog Demon.
'Jerk.' Was her last conscious thought.