MINNA~~~~ HERE I AM AGAIN WITH ANOTHER CHAPTER. I THOUGHT I'D UPDATE SINCE MY TUITIONS FOR ENTRY TESTS OF MEDICAL UNIVERSITIES IS STARTING TOMORROW.
sorry if it will be short but i tried :)
hope you like it :)
TO MY LOVELY REVIEWERS 3
tamachi-neko: don't worry shizu-chan will :) its his job as a lover
XxpandalovexX: i love your review :P and thank you for all your love and support :) hope you enjoy!
sea07: i am sorry to make iza iza suffer but hey, it will get better and maybe iza iza becomes a mom (WHICH HE MOST DEFINITELY WILL. AND SHIZU BEING THE DADDY)
akaitenshi17: yes shizuo has 2 children in his dream and wants 2 in reality :) i am glad you enjoy my work. and yes i always looked at shizuo as though he had a storm in his mind.
ebonyalchemist: yes i love celty, always loved her and this is fun ne~ and i am sorry to be mean to izaya-chan. but yes darling everything gets back to normal.
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NORMAL POV:
Shizuo stood there in awe looking at the now sobbing Izaya. The Orihara Izaya was shivering and crying. Shizuo moved forth to hold him but he moved away until he was stopped by the wall, it seemed that if possible, Izaya would enter in the wall too. Listening to this, Shinra quickly held an injection and injected the liquid in Izayas' arm making him to fall asleep that instant. Tears still falling from those orbs and some stuck in raven lashes. Shizuo moved his hand to wipe off the tears and upon his touch he could feel Izayas' muscles tense. He backed away and sighed. He took out his cigarette and lighted it up. Then looked at Celty who quickly wrote on her PDA –don't worry Shizuo. Everything will be fine. I know so!-
"I don't think so Celty. I am worried that what might have happened to result in this."
Both of them moved their heads towards Shinra who was taking a look at the heart rate monitor. Upon being stared onto he looked towards them and said "Huh? what happened?"
"What happened to Izaya?"
"Shizuo, I can't tell you that."
"You fucking bastard! Why not?"
"Because it's partly your fault."
"For heavens sake Shinra, tell me what has lead to this and I promise I'll fix it."
"How can a monster who can't even control his anger or repay his debts fix anything?"
"I can try you know."
"You are ready to strive for Izaya? This is new."
"I'll do anything to bring back the Izaya I know."
"Well if you put it this way. I guess I have no choice. But, you'll have to promise us that you will never leave his side. Even if it means living with him."
"I promise. Now tell me."
"Fine. Well, when I was examining him I found some semen samples in him. From 10 different men. His anus was also torn and he had a lot of cuts on his back, his wrists have cuts which are caused by a lot of force-handcuffs. He has hand marks and a lot of bruises-love bites to be more precise. So to be simple, Izaya was being continuously raped these 16 days and this has lead to the trauma. The reason he is not letting anyone near him."
"WHAT!"
"Yes."
"So how does he become normal again?"
"I am afraid my friend there is no medicine in this planet which can finish the pain of heart and remove fears but a little love and care can do it."
"So how do we do it?"
"He has lost trust on everyone. Now you have to gain it back."
"How can I do it? I am a monster. Why don't you do it? You are a human."
"Firstly, Shizuo you promised me. Secondly, I mean love and I already love Celty. You do it because you are in love with him so you are willing to do anything for him and he will appreciate it. Thirdly, he loves you too so it will be easier to approach him."
"No, he doesn't love me. Didn't you see his reaction towards me when he woke up?"
"Come on Shizuo he just woke up so give him some time to adjust then he'll open up a bit and finally let you near him."
"Ok. So any advice."
"Yes. Do not approach him sexually. Approach him as if you are tending to a kid who just saw a murder. When he comes forth to kiss you then you be gentle. Only come near him when he demands it. Understood?"
"Yeah pretty much. So now what."
"Now we wait for him to wake up. Till then, let's have dinner shall we?"
"Sure."
Shinra and Celty left the room. Shizuo came near Izaya and sat near him holding his bandaged small hand in his. He brought it close to his lips and kissed it. Then held his hand near his cheek, the underground doctors' words roaming in his mind and stabbing his heart. He was agonizing. Then took a look at the sleeping face, and a tear escaped shizuos' eyes. He wiped it and took a look at the drop of emotion on his index finger and thought 'am I crying? I don't cry. I am Hewajima Shizuo. The manliest manly man alive and I are crying? But my heart hurts; I can't see him like this.' As this thought ended the rivers blocked in his eyes set free and Shizuo started sobbing while rubbing the ravens' hand with his cheek.
After some moments Shizuo wiped off the water flowing from his eyes. Sniffing he stood up and turned his back towards Izaya but suddenly looked back as he heard a little squeal escape Izayas' mouth.
[IZAYAS' DREAM]
He was gagged and he saw projections of men around him, they were laughing, nobody was caring for his tears every single one of them had another projection of their lust and desire. Izaya felt so small In front of them all. He was helpless. Within moments they were all over him, his gag removed. He screamed but no one was there to listen to his screams. He looked next to him and saw that he was all alone. He had always been alone. His dad was a drunkard and his mother loved his sisters more and was seeing her cousin. Izaya grew up to have a lot of complexes.
In front of him he saw a big screen which showed his home. He saw himself when he was 13, his dad came home drunk, his mom was out with her daughters on a date. He held his dad so he would not fall. Back then when he used to be sweet, loving every being and creations by God. He always hoped for the best and prayed every night that one day he'll wake up to find that his parents are no longer fighting with each other and are not back- stabbing each other by dating other men and women. But today his dad grabbed him by his wrist and threw him on the floor, tearing his clothes to shreds he saw the same lust in his dads' eyes which these men had in them. That moment Izaya held out a pocket knife and slashed his father.
The one looking at the screen put his hands on his ears and started screaming. But then all the darkness consumed him again. Just when he had grown out of that all, karma became a bitch and replayed it all. Izaya kept screaming for his life, for someone to grab him from this darkness.
[END OF DREAM]
Izayas' eyes shot open with a scream; he was shivering and sobbing, but not alone. Two arms were wrapped around his waist hugging him close to him. Izaya looked at the figure to see that Shizuo had held him like that. The person he craved of all these years. The one he wanted to touch badly was holding him. The feeling took time to sink in. Izaya was tensed, he struggled a bit but gave in when Shizuo whispered in his left ear, voice as sweet as honey "Don't worry Izaya, I won't let go ever. I am sorry I was not there when you needed me, but now I am here and I won't let anything happen to you. I love you. And I'll protect you with my life." Izaya gave in to these words and eased. He held onto shizuos' shirt and sobbed like a little child. Shizuo constantly rubbing his back and Izaya clinging onto him as if his life depended on it.
Shinra and Celty stood there at the door as Shizuo soothed Izaya and laid him back to sleep holding his hand and finally planting a soft kiss on Izayas' lips to which a light shade of pink appeared on the ravens' cheeks. Shinra cleared his throat alerting Shizuo, making him to look at his doctor friend. Shinra spoke up "Wow you are an amazing being Hewajima Shizuo."
"What do you mean by that?"
"You are the only person to soothe another 3 days after he faced a major trauma. You are exquisite."
"I didn't do anything, I just moved on my own. And ended up confessing it to him."
"Things as petty as these don't calm a poor shattered soul. But you truly are amazing."
"Thank you." Was Shizuos' reply and Celty placed a tray of food in front of him. He said his thanks and started eating his food.
The next days Shizuo took the breakfast to Izayas' room and fed him with his hands. He took care of the ravens' clothing and changed his clothing when he was fast asleep. In a week Izaya made it his habit of sleeping on the blondes' shoulder who wrapped his arm around the raven reassuring him that nothing would harm him until the blonde's around. Soothing him to the fullest.
[15 days later]
Izaya stepped out of his room in his regular attire but the shirt was not in his pants. Shinra looked at Izaya all starry-eyed. Izaya came outside the room. Shizuo had texted him to get ready and Izaya did. He looked around the room but he could not see the blonde anywhere upon not finding his lover anywhere, his muscles tensed and he started sweating, he could hear his heart beat as loud as drums. Shinra came close to him but he jerked it off and fell to the floor, shivering the tears he had sealed for the past 10 days made their way to this world. Shinra, scared placed a hand on Izayas' shoulder to which he shuddered and plead "P-please d-don't… I am so-sorry. D-d-don't h-hu-rt m-me." Shinra backed away. The same moment Shizuo stepped in the room.
He looked at Izaya who was on the floor crying for his life. Shizuo spoke up with a worried expression "Izaya? Love?" as these words made their way to Izayas' ears he looked up, eyes wet. His frown turned to smile as Shizuo embraced Izaya and spoke sweet words in his ears. Making Izaya blush at them. He helped Izaya stand up and said that he had the cab waiting outside which was ready to take them home. Izaya was more than relieved that Shizuo had finally agreed to live with him. Shizuo held Izayas' bags in one hand and the other one holding Izaya. Shizuo said his farewell and departed with Izaya.
When they sat in the cab Shizuo texted Shinra on what had happened moments ago to which the reply came that when Izaya would sleep he would call and tell. Shizuo agreed.
In mid-way the diver adjusted the mirror in such a way that he could have an entire view of Izaya. Izaya didn't notice at first but then he felt a strong gaze. He ignored it. But the entire way the gaze kept haunting him and eating him alive, making Izaya wanting to hide away in Shizuo. Every time Izayas' eyes met with the man driving, he came closer to Shizuo. When they reached their destination, Shizuo went at the back of the car to get the bags. Meanwhile, at the front the driver held Izayas' hand to which he struggled. And finally out of no where the car was lifted and thrown on the other side of the street-the man dead. Shizuo held Izaya and went inside cussing and ranting.
Upon entering the apartment Izaya planted a soft kiss on Shizuos' lips which earned a blush from the blonde and said softly "I am glad you came in my life. I love you. Just don't leave me now as I don't think I'll ever be able to recover from that."
"I promise I'll be yours and be by your side for eternity." Was Shizuos' reply as he too gave Izaya a soft kiss and taking him to his bed, tucking him in and making him drifts off to slumber.
Shizuo sat beside where Izaya laid and texted Shinra [What happened today?]
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P.S: i'll reveal izayas' past in later chapters. its just a fragment of it. tell me how its feels like :P