She could hear David's voice but other than that, there was simply nothing. All she could see was the darkness. She couldn't feel her own body. She didn't know where David's voice was coming from; he sounded so distant... and she had a feeling that something was very wrong. David's voice soon faded away and she was left with nothing but black silence. She tried to sit up, but something was restraining her, pinning her arms and legs down.
Suddenly it was as if all of her senses had decided to kick back in at once, and much too fast. In an instant she was blinded by light and there was a ringing in her ears that was blocking out any other sound. She could feel the hard, uncomfortable smoothness of the metal surface she was lying face up on. She was freezing.
Where was she?
How did she get here?
She still couldn't move. Was she tied down?
Regina panicked, she was sure if she had been able to hear her heartbeat it would have been pounding ferociously in her chest.
Her eyes were beginning to adjust to the light. Dark, blurry forms appeared above her, one of them on either side of where she was lying. As her vision steadily sharpened she was able to distinguish them as people. Doctors? They were wearing white lab coats and gloves, but she had a sinister feeling that they weren't here to help her.
Her vision was in full focus now, but she didn't recognise either the man or woman standing over her. The room was bright from the fluorescent lights that hung from the ceiling, and the only furniture seemed to be made of stainless steel.
The two people were speaking to each other. Regina could see their lips moving but their voices were muffled and far away, as if she was hearing them from underwater.
She struggled but her body would not move. She tried to speak but no words came out.
It was so cold.
David... She wanted him. She needed him.
Where was he?
"Dead." She remembered, he was dead. She had seen him die trying to save her. His own step-father had killed him, along with... "No... Henry. Did he get to Kaelyn too?"
"How am I still alive?"
"I died too. I remember it. I was killed by the same bullet that took Henry's life."
She saw the male doctor pick up some sort of thin tool and hand it over to his redheaded co-worker, who leaned over Regina.
"No, wait!" Regina tried to say, but no one heard her.
What were they going to do to her?
She could feel something poking at her chest but it didn't hurt. After a few long seconds the redhead stood up straight and examined the tool in her hand. Something was now clasped inside the end of it. A bullet. The doctor had removed the bullet that had killed her and Henry. She was right, she had died. And this was the morgue.
"Why am I still here?" She thought, horrified.
She looked around the room, searching for answers. There was another table next to her.
A table with a body on it.
"David!" She tried to shout, but once again her voice failed her.
She fought. Trying to get to him, trying to speak, trying to do anything at all. But while her efforts exhausted her she hadn't moved a muscle.
If she had been be able to cry she probably would have been. She just wanted to go home. To be with her family... her husband... her children...
She would never get to say goodbye, never get to feel them in her arms again.
As she desperately tried to move, to tell them she wasn't really dead, she saw the redhead busy herself at another table while the male doctor and a newly arrived assistant brought a black blanket over to David. They unfolded it. And then unzipped it. It wasn't a blanket at all, it was a body bag.
"Don't! Please don't."
She couldn't bear to be here on her own.
As David disappeared from her view she realised there were more black bags on gurney's along the wall.
If she had thought her heart couldn't break any more, then she had been wrong.
In one of those bags was Henry.
And what if Kaelyn was somewhere over there too?
She was fighting against herself, using all of her remaining strength. She needed to know for sure. She needed to see them...
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"David! DAVID!" Henry yelled from the living room, but the call was unnecessary. David could hear her screaming and he was already running as fast as he could.
"What happened?" He asked a terrified Henry as he raced into the room.
"I don't know! A few minutes ago she started to move around a lot, and then she just..." Henry waved a hand towards his mother and then backed away to give David some room as he sat down beside her. Regina was struggling violently again, just like she had about an hour earlier right before she had spoken those unsettling words.
"No. No!" She shouted over and over again, still tossing and turning.
"Regina wake up! Regina!"
She gave a strangled cry as she jolted awake, throwing herself straight into David's arms.
He held her tightly as she shook with sobs, clinging desperately to him.
"David... "
"It's ok, it's over now."
"It was so... I was..." Her voice broke as more heavy sobs took over.
"Shhh..." He rubbed her back comfortingly. "Try not to think about it. Everything is going to be alright."
Regina raised her head as she became aware of noisy crying coming from the other side of the room. "Kaelyn." She sniffed, dazedly looking around for her baby. Her face wet from tears.
"I have her." Came Henry's voice.
She pulled back from David but remained close beside him, each still keeping an arm around the other. Henry stepped forward holding Kaelyn, attempting to soothe her. A half-smile flashed across Regina's face as she saw her son trying to console his little sister. Her smile grew as he took a seat on her other side. Withdrawing her arm from around David, she hugged both Kaelyn and Henry at once. Henry could feel the warmth radiating from her flushed skin as she rested her head against his, but he didn't complain.
Regina closed her eyes; the two of them simply being with her was all she needed. Her two kids, and of course, her husband. Silently she let a few more tears escape. She bit her lip, willing them to stop but it was no use.
Henry eventually noticed that she was still crying as some of the tears ended up on him. He misinterpreted the reason why she was still crying, but all the same she preferred to hide the true reason from him because the last thing she wanted was for him to have to bear the burden of her fears.
"You had another scary dream huh?" He asked. Knowing that she needed it, he probably would have hugged her back if he hadn't still been holding the baby. Kaleyn's cries had subsided as she felt the reassuring touch of both Regina and Henry.
"I did."
"Was it the fire again?"
Regina laughed softly, "No. No more fires."
"What was it about?" He asked innocently.
"Nothing I want you to worry about."
"Regina?" David interrupted.
"Mmhmm?"
"How is your fever? I brought some more medicine for you if it's still high."
"Oh that would be perfect. My head is pounding." She sat up straighter and reached towards the table for the glass of water as David handed her two capsules. After swallowing both of them she settled back into the couch. "What time is it?"
"Almost 6:00," said David.
"Hmm... I've spent half the day sleeping." She placed an arm around Henry's shoulders.
"Well you really needed it. Besides you were in no condition to do anything but rest this afternoon, trust me."
Regina watched as Kaelyn cuddled in Henry's arms. With her free hand she reached over and gently caressed the top of the baby's head with the backs of two fingers. She looked over at Henry with a somewhat forlorn expression, but by the time he met her gaze she had replaced it with a tiny smile.
"What were you talking about earlier?" Henry asked her.
"What do you mean?"
"This afternoon when I got home. You kept saying you were sorry, and that you wanted me to forgive you. What did you mean?"
Regina looked confused, she turned to David with a questioning look on her face. "I did?"
David nodded, "ya... you did. I thought maybe you were hallucinating or something but I wasn't sure. Do you know what you could have meant?"
She frowned at the floor, trying to remember what had happened before she had gone back to sleep. "I remember you coming home Henry, and then I think I might have been going to the kitchen for some more pills... but other than that it's just a blur." There was a foreboding feeling rising in the pit of her stomach. "Did I say anything else?"
"Not then." David responded, "but you did seem really upset, and I think you gave poor Henry quite the scare."
Regina looked down at Henry, an almost devastated look on her face, "oh... Henry I'm sorry. I never meant to."
"It's ok, I know." Henry smiled reassuringly.
She rubbed his arm and the corners of her mouth lifted a little.
She turned her attention back to David; "you said I didn't say anything else "then", do you mean I spoke another time too?"
He was about to tell her but then hesitated, he was worried about frightening Henry again. David hadn't told the boy what his mother had said in her sleep and he wasn't sure if it was a good idea now either. Especially since he didn't know why she had said those things. He didn't want to worry him unnecessarily.
"No, it was just then."
Regina stared at him for a bit too long, she knew he was holding something back. What had she said to him?
"Well, I don't know what that could have been about." She said to Henry. "As David said I was probably just hallucinating. Nothing to worry about."
"If you say so."
"Hey Henry did you want to watch that movie now?" Asked David.
"Sure..."
"What are we watching?" Regina asked.
"Shrek," Henry ginned.
"Haven't you seen all of those already? Quite a few times if I remember correctly." Regina teased.
"Yep, but I love it."
"Shrek sounds perfect then." She smiled.
Henry passed Kaelyn to Regina so he could go up to his room to get the disc.
"Henry why don't you make some popcorn too?" David suggested.
"Ok." He stood up and left the room.
"Regina, I actually wanted to talk to you about something you said in your sleep."
"I thought I didn't say anything else?"
"Well... you did. Kind of. I think it was about an hour into your nap; you seemed to be having a rough sleep and I tried to wake you up but you only half did. You said something about being afraid..."
Regina's eyes were wide as she listened.
"You said something about "them"... I think your exact words were "it's them, I'm afraid." But that was all you would say."
Regina's heart was racing now, and she swallowed nervously.
"Who are they Regina?"
"David it was nothing, I was dreaming that's all."
"I'm not so sure. I had asked you what's been bothering you lately and that's how you responded."
She shook her head. "No, I was probably just talking about my dream. There were strangers in it. That's probably who "they" are."
"Regina, sometimes you are a terrible liar." He touched her shoulder and she looked down at Kaelyn in an attempt to hide her face. "Please, just tell me what's going on." David said softly. "I'm worried about you."
Regina busied herself with readjusting Kaelyn's position in her arms. Finally she took in a deep breath, "I'm not seeing people or hearing voices if that's what you're afraid of." She said heavily.
"I never thought that," David said gently, "Please Regina, just talk to me."
"Sweetheart, we are talking." she said. But that was merely as an excuse to not answer him properly.
"You know what I mean."
"David... just forget I said anything. It doesn't matter."
"It seems to matter a great deal to you. Is it that you don't trust me enough to tell me?"
Regina looked at him desperately, "of course I do. You're one of the only people I actually do trust, and you should know that better than anyone."
"Alright, I'm sorry, I do know that... but can you at least say why you won't tell me?"
Regina shook her head. She was guiltily avoiding his gaze again. She didn't want him to worry about her, and she certainly didn't want to hurt him, but by not confiding in him she knew she was hurting him too. But what other choice did she have? She couldn't tell him.
David wrapped an arm around her and she looked up at him, her eyes were moist but she was trying with all her might to keep it together because Henry would be back any second and she didn't want him to have to see any more of her tears.
"You don't have to talk to me about it if you feel like you can't. I don't understand why there would be anything you couldn't tell me, but I don't want to force you to either..." she was starting to tremble slightly so he shifted closer to her and rubbed her arm. In response she leaned deeper into his embrace. "Do you think you would maybe want to talk to Dr. Hopper about it?"
Regina raised a hand to her forehead and closed her eyes, "I don't know David." She said quietly.
Henry's footsteps could be heard approaching the living room.
"I think you need to confide in someone if not me. Whatever burden you are carrying, I promise it will be so much easier to deal with if you tell someone about it."
Regina looked back down at Kaelyn. She shifted her higher into her arms, holding the baby protectively against her chest. When she did so, Kaelyn's hand brushed against Regina's cheek, and at her baby's touch she closed her eyes, able to finally relax once more.
