A\N: Here it is. The next chapter. I really hope everyone likes it, if you do please remember to review and let me know.

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Spoilers: None

Warnings: None

Recurring Nightmare

Dr. Ching walked into Matt's hospital room just as Megan was finishing up his de-brief.

"Perfect timing," Megan smiled as she saw the doctor walk in. "We're just finishing up."

"I'll come back next week," Megan told Matt, "I'm going to talk to the nurses and see what time would be best."

Matt didn't respond.

"I know that must have been hard for you Matt," Dr. Ching sat in the chair beside his bed that was now vacated, "But what were doing here it's important."

Matt didn't say a word.

"Do you think you're ready to talk to me about what happened to Jessica?"

Matt's lower lip trembled and a few tears escaped from his eyes before he hurried to brush them away.

"Take your time."

"She was only a few years younger then Gabby and I just-" Matt began to cry. "I don't know….What if it was me? What if I died?"

"You wish you had died instead of Jessica?"

"Yes. No. I don't know. I just want to know if I do Gabby and the twins will be taking care of."

"Have you talked to Gabby about this?" Dr. Ching asked.

"No! I can't, she already thinks something's wrong with me. I don't want her to think I want to die."

"Well Matt it seems like you and Gabriela need to talk about a few things. For you to fully recover and for you and Gabriela to start healing it needs to happen."

"I wouldn't know what to say."

"You know it might be a good idea to have someone sit in with you, a mutual friend, someone you know won't take sides. That way if you can't communicate properly there's someone their to act as a mediator."

"Yeah maybe," Matt gave the idea some serious thought.

At twelve thirty, half an hour after she had put them down for their nap Gabriela crept into the nursery to check on Serena and Michael. She was happy to see that both fourteen month olds were sleeping peacefully.

Tiptoeing back out of the room she left the door open and proceeded to walk to the master bedroom. Turning on the baby monitor on her bedside table she unplugged her laptop she'd been charging and opened it.

Prior to the accident she and Matt had been planning on going away for their anniversary. They had already narrowed down the list to seven possible locations. Gabriela was going to continue researching the getaway, as she felt now more then ever they needed a vacation.

Just as Gabriela was clicking for one of the resorts she and Matt had chosen a call button flashed on her screen. It was telling her she was receiving a call from her mother in Barcelona. She quickly pressed accept.

"Gabriela," Esmeralda's Spanish accent was notably thicker. "How's Matt?"

"Nuh," Gabriela sighed, "He says he's fine but I know differently."

"Your father was the same way. He'll come around eventually."

"Well right now he's a little pissed that I told the nurses he was relapsing in PTSD. We haven't spoken much since then.

"You did the right thing Gabriela."

"I know I did Mom, I just want Matt back, I miss the old Matt. It seems like forever since…."

Esmerelda waited and let her daughter finish her thought.

"It feels like ever since we got married things have been going bad. It's been one ting after another and I just don't know how much more we can take."

"Oh sweetie," Esmeralda's heart broke for her daughter, "I wish I could hug you right now."

"I wish I could hug you too," Gabriela whipped away some tears from her eyes.

"Are Serena and Michael sleeping or can I say hi?"

"They'll sleeping, it's twelve thirty here. That's another thing that's bothering Matt; he hasn't seen Serena and Michael since the accident almost a week and a half ago.

"He's still in the ICU?"

"His burns were pretty bad but not bad enough for the burn unit. Luckily though he was moved to a recovery unit today so the twins can see him. I'm planning on taking them tomorrow.

"He got 2nd degree burns right?" Esmerelda tried to recall what Gabriela had told her when they Skyped briefly the week before.

"Yeah, all on his arms and legs. His shoulders broke too. It's going to take a lot of therapy and hard work before he's back on active duty. The doctor's are estimating four to five months. That's May or June."

"Just say the word and I'll get on the next plane to Chicago."

"No Mom, I don't want you to think you need to come back here for every little thing. You were miserable here, you love it in Barcelona."

"I wasn't miserable Gabriela. I just saw your father everywhere I went. We spent so many years there…. To have him taken from me so cruelly…. I just couldn't do it anymore. I hope you and Antonio never have to feel like that."

"Have you talked to Antonio lately?"

"Yes and he told me what a jerk he was. Sometimes I swear your brother and father are the same person."

"It wasn't all Antonio's fault Mom. I should have called him when Carla first started coming to me. I didn't think it all the way through though.

"Your brother may have the quick temper Gabriela but you've always one to act first and ask questions later."

"Yeah don't I know it? It's gotten me into a lot of trouble." Gabriela puffed out a sigh.

"Oh speaking of Antonio, the reason I called Maria's started reading and wanted me to hear her so Dani had a great idea of having her record a Hallmark storybook and then send it to me."

"That's a great idea," Gabriela smiled. "Matt and I did that before the twins were born. Right now the book he read and recorded "Goodnight Moon," is a godsend, that's all the twins want to hear before they go to bed. They miss him so much."

"I bet they do. Do you know when he'll be out of the hospital?"

"In a few weeks, but it won't be easy. He won't be able to drive and he'll be on crutches and…."

"Gabriela I don't mind coming for a visit. It sounds more and more like you need me to help.

"I don't know Mom," Tear fell down Gabriela's face. "I don't know what I'm going to do."

Esmerelda was just about to respond when Gabriela's cell phone rang.

"It's Antonio," Gabriela told her mother as she answered the phone.

TBC

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