Blinded By Silence Chapter 2: Breathe, Just Breathe, an instant star fanfic

Jude arrived at GMajor within 10 minutes. She wanted to get her stuff done then get out to meet Sadie without any trouble. She wanted an easy in and out. She didn't want to confront Tommy at all, she didn't want to look at him, speak to him, or listen to him.

She parked in her usual spot and rushed into the building. She headed straight for her studio, walking so fast that no one could stop her to talk to her.

Jude walked into G-Major hoping and praying she would not bump into Tom Quincy. She moved swiftly through the halls and found Kwest listening to something on his headphones. Jude smiled at how he looked when he was concentrating real hard. Jude tapped him and the shoulder and Kwest jumped at bit. She giggled as he took off the headphones and smiled at him. "Hey there superstar," Kwest greeted as she sat down next to him, "What's going on? You look tired."

"I am," Jude sighed as she rubbed her temples. "Listen, I just came by to tell you that I'm not going to work today. Sadie and I are going shopping for some outfits for my birthday."

"I don't know Jude," Kwest disagreed shaking his head, "G isn't going to like that."

Jude stood up and went to the door. "I'll negotiate it with her." She opened the door to go to Georgia's office when she bumped into someone. She fell to the ground and her arm broke her fall. She suddenly felt a sting of pain from her elbow going to her shoulder. She looked up to see who caused her fall and saw Tommy looking at her in shock and fear.

"Jude, are you ok?" he asked trying to help her up.

"Don't touch me," she hissed and swiped his hand away. She used her right arm to help herself up. She hissed again as another surge a pain went through her left arm and she cradled it near her body. Jude laughed bitterly and looked at Tommy. "Guess you hurting me is something I can always expect, huh?" Tommy put his head down in shame and sighed heavily. Jude didn't wait for a response as she brushed past him and made it to Georgia's office. She explained that she would have at least two new songs ready by her for tomorrow. Georgia hesitated but finally agreed.

Tommy was outside in his car banging his head against the steering wheel. Why was he being so stupid? Why was he even bothering? 'Because I love her,' he thought as he laid his head back on the seat. All he wanted was for her to stop hating him. This wasn't going to be simple but he needed to win her trust back. The only person who had trust in him and he let it all go down the drain. He wished he had never left, but what was he supposed to do? He groaned again. He saw Jude walking to her truck. He quickly got out of his viper and ran towards her. "Jude," he said as he finally reached her.

"Oh, my god," Jude said incredulously. "Tommy please, do me a favor and give up already. I don't want to forgive you. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to even look at you. Do you want to know why?"

"Jude, listen…" Tommy started until Jude interrupted him.

"No, I'm done listening to all of your lies. Now you listen to me for once. Do you really want to know the truth?" Tommy just looked at her. She continued when he didn't answer. "I hate you."

Tommy was speechless. Hate? She hated him? She smiled sweetly and went into her Chevy. Tommy just stood there. His mind wasn't working and it felt like his heart was crumbling. He really screwed up this time. There was nothing he could do to fix this the easy way. But he knew that there had to be at least one way. 'Hate,' he repeated to himself as he walked back into the studio. He needed to talk to Kwest.

Jude finally made it to the food court in time to meet Sadie. They went into Jude's favorite store; Rave. Jude needed something amazing for her birthday. That's exactly why she needed Sadie's help too. Jude would admit she was always a little fashion challenged. The sisters were looking at some skirts when one of Jude's songs came on. It was Girlfriend.

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
You know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

Being completely hyper and stupid, they started to head bang and dancing like crazy. Jude started to sing along with her lyrics. After the people started staring at them they turned around and looked at the clothes again. Jude was loving this time with her sister. At least she didn't have to think about Tommy. Two hours, and twenty-one outfits later they finally picked one. It was a black and red pinstripe burlesque. It was spaghettis strapped with ruffles at the end and it looked gorgeous on her ( ipe-burlesque-pi-563.html?osCsidc00de461415526774ad29ef4376e 41c2). Sadie smiled as her younger sister twirled around showing it off. Jude looked at herself in the mirror and suddenly a frowned appeared on her face. "What's wrong?" Sadie asked noticing the change in her expression.

"Do you think this looks ok with blonde hair?" Jude asked comparing her hair to the outfit.

Sadie put a finger to her chin, and then smiled. "Well, we could try a new look," she suggested.

Sadie pushed Jude into the dressing room and told her to change quickly. After paying for the outfit Sadie led Jude to the beauty salon. Sadie whispered to the beautician what she wanted done and she got started. Another hour later, Sadie had Jude's eyes closed as they walked to the mirror. "Okay, are you ready?" Sadie asked.

"Why am I all of a sudden scared?" Jude laughed.

"Just look," Sadie said as she uncovered her sister's eyes.

"Oh, my god, Sadie, it's perfect!" Jude shouted as she tossed her new brown hair in the front of her. She shook her head to see it flying everywhere. She had to admit; she looked hot as a brunette. "Thanks so much, Sadie. I really needed this." The Harrison sisters hugged and held on tightly to one another before heading out the mall and going back home.

Tommy sat in his studio waiting for Kwest to come in. He had to finish a meeting with Georgia. Finally Kwest came in and sat in the chair next to Tommy. He smiled at Tommy knowingly and started laughing. Tommy scowled at him and exhaled heavily. Kwest shook his head and sat back, resting his head on the chair. "So," Kwest said, smile fading, "Start talking."

"What do I do?" Tommy blurted. He didn't want to dance around the subject.

Kwest cocked an eyebrow about him. "Tommy, you've been gone for three years. I'm not even sure if you can do anything at this point."

"Thanks for the support," Tommy muttered sarcastically.

Kwest sighed and looked at his friend sympathetically. "Look," he started, "You know better than anyone Jude is a stubborn girl. Give her time to heal from your return. She's not going to jump into your arms like she always does Tommy. I'll be blunt. You really screwed up this time."

"Yea I know."

"Well then show her that you know."

"How?"

"You're pretty creative." Kwest looked around the studio hinting at something. "You'll think of something."

Tommy stared at his friend's disappearing figure. Soon, he took a pen and a piece of paper from his bag and started writing.

Girl this is my sorry number 2004
And I ain't gonna mess up no more

Tommy smiled. Only Jude Harrison can make him writing another song.

Jude and Sadie got home at around 5:30. They were laughing at a joke that they heard on the radio when Jude's cell rang. Jude sighed and looked at the ID. Tommy.

What does he want now?

"What?!"

"Jude can you come to the studio? There something I need to show you."

"No, Tommy. I'm not coming in." Jude said, rubbing her temple with her free hand.

"Come on Jude. You won't regret it. I promise."

Jude looked at Sadie putting their stuff away.

"FINE. I'll come for 10 minutes. That's it. You get 10 minutes then I'm out of there."

"Thanks Jude." Then Tommy hung up.

Jude walked up to Sadie and tapped her on the shoulder. Sadie turned around smiling, when she saw the look of annoyance on Jude's face, she turned concerned.

"What's up?" She asked.

"I have to go to the studio. I'll be back in 15 or 20 minutes. OK?" Jude replied.

"Yeah sure." She said, "Is something wrong?"

"No, I'll be back." Jude turned around grabbing her keys and bag on the way by. She jumped in her truck and sped down the street. Quincey, this better be good.

Tommy closed his phone and spun around in his chair. Kwest walked in seeing Tommy so suspiciously happy.

"Hey man, what's up?" Kwest greeted.

"Oh, nothing. I just have a little surprise for a little someone." Tommy grinned.

Kwest laughed, "Aww, you shouldn't have." He held out his hands and closed his eyes, "Whatcha get me?"

Tommy laughed, Kwest opened his eyes and joined him. They playfully punched each other. Georgia walked in as they were punching.

"This better be some sort of work strategy and not a death warrant…." She said and walked out.

Kwest caught his breath and looked at Tommy, "So what did you get?"

"I didn't GET anything. I MADE something…" He said holding up a CD.

Kwest's eyebrow shot up, "Man I hope you know what your doing." He got up and walked out to his and Jude's studio.

Jude pulled into her space and walked into the lobby. She looked for Tommy and saw him in his studio. She walked over and opened the door, standing in the doorframe waiting for Tommy to turn around and notice her.

"Just come in Jude and sit down."

"Why?"

Tommy turned around to face her, "Because you'll want to be sitting when show you,…actually it's an audio clip…but I want you seated when I play it ok?"

"What is it?"

Frustrated Tommy stood up, "Will you just sit please?"

"Fine, don't get so pushy or I'm outta here…"

"Whatever."

Jude sat down on the couch on the far side of the room as Tommy sat in his chair. Tommy opened up the stereo and put in the disk. He pressed play and sat back and waited for the song to start. Out of the corner of his eye he noticed Jude was nervous and anxious.

Then the song began…

It's like I missed a shot,
It's like I dropped the ball.
(Damn I'm Sorry)
It's like I'm on stage,
and I forgot the words.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like building a new house,
with no roof and no doors.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like trying to propose,
and I ain't got the ring.
(Oooh damn I'm sorry)

But girl I've apologized
a million times before.
(I'll apologize a million more)
So here it comes again
for all the wrong I've done.
(so get ready babe)
Here's One million one.

Chorus
Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,
and make it real clear.
I'm sorry for May
and I'm sorry for June (for real)
and I'm sorry for July (i am)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December.
I'm Sorry.
(I'm sorry 2004)

Its like stayin' out at night,
had way too much to drink.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like you change your hair,
and I dont say a thing.
(Damn I'm sorry)
It's like we're fallin' fast asleep,
with no kiss, and before we hit.
(yeah I'm sorry)
And It's like I forgot your gift,
on 02 14 03.
(Damn! So sorry!)

But girl I've apologized
a million times before.
(I'll apologize a million more)
So here it comes again
for all the wrong I've done.
(so get ready babe)
Here's One million one.

Chorus
Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,
(I'm 'a take my time)
and make it real clear.
I'm sorry for May
and I'm sorry for June (for real)
and I'm sorry for July (i am)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December.
I'm Sorry.
(I'm sorry 2004)

Hook
I'm sorry for the way that I did you
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for how I hurt you girl
I'm sorry on the weekends, sorry on the weekdays
sorry for the things I did, Sorry for the things i said
sorry for the lies
sorry for the time
That I didn't get you what you want,
That I didn't get you what you like.
What can I do to tell you that I'm sorry babe.
(sorry, sorry)

Oooooooooooooohhhhhhh! echo
Wooooooooh!
All them strip clubs,
all them hot tubs.
I'm gone give them up,
'cause I dont want to lose your love

Starts Fading
Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
Sorry 2004
Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
Sorry 2004

The beats faded out as Tommy looked over to see an angry and pissed off Jude.

"So?" Tommy asked, "What did you think?"

"This is what you made me urgently come here for? This….thing?!?"

"Jude…"

"No, I told you to leave me alone. That I didn't want to talk to you, look at you, or listen to you. YOU MANIPULATED ME!"

"Jude that's not…"

"NO Tommy. Just,…just stop. I'm done. No more. Leave me alone for good Quincey. Maybe if you had waited it out and let me cool down and concentrate, we might have…started talking to each other like normal humans. But NO…you had to push on…."

"Jude come on…"
"No, Quincey. I'm done. Goodbye."

Jude got up and walked out of the studio with Tommy hot on her tail.
"Jude…Jude!"

"Tommy," Jude said turning around and walking backwards to face him, "If you keep following me, I'll put a restraining order on you. AND you'll lose your job because I will tell Georgia I will quit if I have to keep working here with YOU in the building."

With that, Tommy stopped dead in his tracks. He watched Jude turn around and speed out the front door of the building.

As soon as the door slammed shut, Georgia came charging out of her office.

"WHAT DI D YOU DO NOW THOMAS QUINCEY?!?!?!?!?!"

Tommy looked at Georgia and back at the door. He let out a long drawn out sigh, and walked back to his studio…Damn this girl is hard…

As Jude drove home, she fumed. She couldn't believe that Tommy would manipulate her that way. She drove blindly trying to remember what she had said to him.

"OK…" Jude backed up and sat on one of the kitchen stools. "You want to know why I'm not talking and why I'm SO mad? Well, it's because I don't' care anymore Tommy."

Tommy frowned. "Care to elaborate?"

"Sure. I don't care anymore. I don't care where you went. I don't care WHY you left. I don't care about what you had to do. And I least of all care about YOU Tommy. I've stopped caring. I'm all done. I'm done falling for you and getting hurt because you don't fall back. I'm sick of the pain. I'm done, Tommy. DONE."

She snapped out of her daze when a car honked at her. She focused and veered back into her lane. Then she drifted back when the next remembrance came.

"No, I'm done listening to all of your lies. Now you listen to me for once. Do you really want to know the truth?" Tommy just looked at her. She continued when he didn't answer. "I hate you."

When the memory ended, she began to cry. Tears came rolling hot down her face. Creating little paths to her chin. She closed her eyes for a second, when she opened them, she was moving towards a tree.

She tried to turn the truck out of the way, but she was too slow.

She crashed.

Jude tried to reach for her cell phone that was on the floor in her bag which was out of reach. The blow to the head she sustained from the crash was slowly rendering her unconscious. Within two minutes, everything went black.