"Inuyasha, I want to tell you something that your father never got around to telling you. Though I'm sure he would tell you if her were alive." Totosai smiled weakly. "Take a seat, my boy."
I sat and stared politely at him, waiting for him to begin. "What is it?" I urged.
He took a deep breath. "I want to tell you about mating. You're getting older now, and you're able to reproduce, I'm sure."
My eyes widened. "Whoa, Totosai, we already had this discussion…" I said nervously, rubbing the back of my neck nervously. Totosai laughed and shook his head.
"Indeed, we did. But there's more to sex than you think. I'm saying this on behalf of your father, who is a demon. It is a part of your nature to find a mate, a woman that you will devote your life to for as long as your life lasts. You will mate with her, and then take some of her blood. Then the two of you will be bound forever. And you will die at exactly the same time, but only if the death is from natural causes."
I cocked my head to the side, staring at him wordlessly. "So you're saying I need to mate with someone?" I asked. The only woman that came to mind was Kikyo. But she was dead. And even if she never did cheat on me, we honestly weren't serious enough for me to consider her a lifelong partner. Perhaps I'd meet another woman along the way? Hopefully one who didn't drink and smoke herself into cheating on me.
Totosai laughed at the look on my face. "You don't have to find a mate right just yet, but you're becoming a man, Inuyasha. You're 16 years old. You have to start making some pretty big choices in your lifetime."
"How old were you when you found a mate?" I couldn't help asking.
Totosai tapped his chin. "Let's see… I met Suriya about 1,700 years ago… So I was 285."
My eyes widened. "Damn, dude. You're old as hell!" I laughed. Totosai was a demon as well. He appeared human, yes, but he was capable of many strange things, like breathing fire and using magic to create unbelievably powerful weapons.
"Yes, I am. And I'm afraid that my time has come, Inuyasha." He said sadly.
"What do you mean?"
"Boy, look at me!" he said jokingly, but still seriously. "I'm an on fart. I'm 1,985 years old. I have not long to live. And there isn't much left to teach you. I pray that when I die, you will take everything I taught you and use it in your future."
I definitely did not like the turn in this conversation.
"Totosai, you can't die on me." I said through gritted teeth, trying my hardest not to cry. "You're all I have left…" my voice broke. Totosai crossed the room and pulled me into a tight hug.
"Inuyasha, your father was my best friend, and I love you as if you were my own son. Always remember that no matter what happens, I'll always love you, and when I die, I'll be watching over you. I just pray that you take my advice on life."
I could only nod, burying my face into his shoulder.
"I know things are hard on you, and killing Kikyo changed you quite a bit. But you're still so young…" he pulled away and stared down at me. "Just remember that there's someone out there for you that can make you feel true happiness. Someone you can mate with and keep your race going."
"When will I meet her, Totosai? Do I have to wait hundreds of years like you did?"
"No one knows. I can't tell you when you'll meet her, but I promise that you will find a mate. And when you find her, you'll know she's the one for you…"
8 years later
"Ah, Inuyasha!" Kagome squeaked as I picked her up and playfully tossed her on the bed. It was a late night, and Sesshomaru wasn't home. Kagome and I had just gotten out of the shower, both of us wearing our personal towels. I crawled beside her to lay her head on my lap. I stared down at her, looking over the details of her pretty face.
"You're so cute." I said as we smiled at each other.
"Like you've never told me that before." She muttered softly, averting her eyes.
"Well, you get cuter and cuter every day, so I'm going to compliment you every day. Get used to it." I retorted playfully. Just then she sat up and snuggled against my chest. I instantly cuddled right into her, stroking her hair softly.
It was still new to me, being around her completely nude. Though I was happy she was more comfortable around me, I personally believed that it only increased the sexual tension between us even more. And I still sometimes found myself nervous being in her presence while naked.
It wasn't that I didn't like being naked around her. It was just odd, considering we weren't having sex yet. We were just casually strolling around the bedroom naked in front of each other. Meaning I was flaccid the majority of the time I was naked around her. Until I saw her naked, that is. I honestly didn't know if she ignored my raging hard-ons or had just gotten use to them, seeing as she fully understood the effect she had on me.
"Do you mind if we sleep in the nude tonight?" I asked, my heart racing when I spoke the words out loud.
"I don't care." She replied. I was glad she didn't care. It meant more naked Kagome for me… She was staring at my lips now. She just started leaning in when I caught the smell of her arousal again. On instinct, I ripped the towel off of her. And right when I did that, I forced myself to calm down…
God, please fucking help me.
"Wow..." she whispered. I laughed at her surprised expression, thankful that she didn't notice my little slip… She tried to pry my arms off of her and I held her tighter.
"Where do you think you're going?" I demanded, playfully outraged.
"Umm... to bed?" she stared up at me with wide eyes.
"Why don't you sit with me for a while longer?" I asked softly, and she instantly relaxed.
"Okay." She said as her eyes closed. I wrapped my arms around her little body, rubbing her arms, back and the side of her breast. She relaxed into my touch and I noticed a small smile on her lips. Her breathing slowed and evened as if she had fallen asleep. But she was wide awake. Her scent gave that away. Her scent only seemed to get thicker as I touched her. It was good, but I was holding onto the last ounce of control that I had.
Thinking back to the conversation I had with Totosai, I was grateful. He promised me that I'd find someone who'd make me happy, and I certainly have. Kagome was everything I needed. I now had a shot at a new life, eager and ready to push my old one behind me.
Though technically it wasn't my life. It was Juno's. But still, Kagome was fully aware of who I was, and she seemed eager to have me too. The thought made me glow with warmth as I smiled into her hair and held her against my chest. I felt goose bumps rising on her soft skin and decided it was time to cover her up.
I released her and she climbed under her thick comforter, snuggling into the bed as I put the towels away. When I returned, she turned the light off and I lay down in the bed beside her, pulling her into my arms. I couldn't help but notice how much her scent thickened, and her heart beat had picked up quite a bit. I shifted ever so slightly in the hope that my penis wouldn't be against her when it stirred up. And it was definitely starting to stir up… Her scent was so thick, so close.
"You smell so good,"I teased, knowing it embarrassed her when I pointed out when she was horny. Maybe we should sleep like this more often." She shifted. I didn't know if it was from embarrassment or because she was cold. Maybe she needed to be warmer.
"Should we get dressed?"
"No, why?"she sounded confused… husky. Hmm.
Oh God, please restrain me before I pounce on this beautiful woman.
"You smell really good, and it's making me want you... really bad." I confessed. She shrugged, indifferent.
"Is that a bad thing? Besides, I thought you always want me..." she murmured.
With my advanced eyes, I saw that her pupils were completely dilated, and her breathing was slightly more labored. Fucking hell, she was probably as aroused as I was at this point. And I was most definitely aroused.
"I do, but with you smelling like this, and with no clothes on to muffle the smell a bit, my self-control is slipping. I don't want to screw up your first time by loosing control and making it your first time." . I didn't wanna end up hurting this poor girl if I lost control.
"I wouldn't mind if you lost control that way..." she said in that husky voice. God, she was so sexy.
No. Don't give into the demon. Fight your instincts, I chanted in my head. I shifted so my lower body was no longer touching hers. If she continued responding to me this way while I was aroused, I would probably end up hurting her. Unfortunately the fact that she was so responsive was making me even more aroused than I already was.
Don't give into him. He will hurt her if you give into him. I was still trying to calm myself.
"Kagome,"I begged her, "Please don't make me screw up."
She arched a brow at me. "Screw what up? The time is perfect, isn't it? We're alone and nude and I feel really passionate... you do too. Admit it. The time is perfect. What's really keeping you from me?"
She was right. She was so willing, so responsive, so lovely to me. And I know I loved her. The fact the I made it to this point without raping the fuck outta her proved that my human side loved her more than my demon side wanted to fuck her. And that was saying something, seeing as I've been wanting to fuck her since I smelled her and heard her for the first time.
Fucking hell, I was in love.
But it was still her first time. Was she really ready to be my mate? I sincerely doubted that she had condoms anywhere. She hasn't known me long enough to decide that she loved me like I loved her. And regardless of whether or not I was controlling myself, I would hurt her.
"What's wrong?" she asked after I didn't respond.
"It's just,"I choked a bit with emotion. "I don't know. You're absolutely right. The time is perfect."
"So why can't we...?" she looked confused, her perfect brow still arched.
"You want the truth?"
"Yes." She was looking me dead in the eye.
"...It's gonna hurt you. Your first time is supposed to hurt... and..." he broke off, struggling. "I don't have a condom. If I cum in you... you know what happens. I know I want you for the rest of my life, but what if you change your mind? What if you don't want me anymore? You can't be with anyone else if you wanna make that choice, Kagome. I can't take your will from you."
"But I don't know what I'll want in the future." She blinked at me. Her beautiful black eyes darted around my fac rapidly, trying to read my thoughts and expressions.
"Exactly." I got up, leaning on my arm and carefully reached over to turn on the life so she could see me better.
"I can't imagine you being stuck with me, if you didn't want to be with me. That'd be horrible. I wouldn't be able to live with my self. And apparently mates can only have other mates if their spouse dies. Remember the Widow Effect?"
"Yes..." she hesitated. "I'm on the pill..." she tried.
"I'd still come in you. A condom is the only thing that could protect me from keeping you that way." I explained.
"Inuyasha, listen to yourself. You want me, but you're afraid I won't want you for the rest of our lives? I do want you, forever. And with the mating rules, I'll live as long as you do. We could literally be together until death do us part. How could I not want you forever? I love you, and I'll always love you."
"I appreciate that but..."
"But nothing." She cut me off. I was stunned by her tone. Was it because she was horny, because she was really frustrated that I was hesitant to touch her?
"Are you really rushing to sex because you just want to have sex, or because you actually want to be with me for that long?"
She looked at me like she wanted to slap me. "I'm willing to have unprotected sex with you to be with you for as long as you live, and you're asking me stupid questions with the answers right in front of your face."
"You're deep." Her confession winded me for a moment. She continued.
"I want you. I want you physically and emotionally. Is that wrong? Do you hate yourself that much to where you think you don't deserve me, even though I love you more than my own innocence... my own life?"
She sounded serious, and almost angry. Her expression was fierce, as if she was offended that I didn't believe her.
What shocked me the most was her confession. I knew she loved me, as she's told me before. But she usually wasn't the one to get all mushy about her feelings for me and such. It was usually me doing all the lovey-dovey stuff and planning things to do with her and initiating the kissing and cuddling. But looking at her now, it was very evident that she loved me and wanted me forever. She was willing to mate with me to prove that.
So what the fuck was I waiting for?
"You're absolutely right." I stared into her black eyes.
"Then what is there to be afraid of? Are you going to love me as long as we live?" she asked incredulously.
"That's a very stupid question." I glared at her. What a stupid question.
She kept staring at me. She stared at me for a long time. We lay there just looking at each other.
"Then make love to me." She whispered softly. My heart beat sounded like helicopter blades, matching hers. Her pupils dilated again, and her breathing changed again.
I finally understood. Of course I was going to love her forever and beyond that. Now I knew why she got so upset. I felt the exact same way. And the fact that I doubted her feelings for me pissed her off. She really, truly does love me back.
Not as much as I love her, but still.
I turned off the lamp and shifted towards her. I still had a clear head, despite being insanely aroused. I would be gentle for now; the last thing I wanted to do was hurt her. I held her in my arms and kissed her everywhere I could reach, overwhelmed by my emotions, overwhelmed by how much I loved her.
I captured her lips for a kiss and very slowly rolled her onto my back, careful not to put any weight on her little body. My left arm lay above her head, supporting my weight while my right hand slowly made its way down, down and over the side of her breast, her curves, her hips and down her leg, gently cupping the back of her knee. I hitched it up and out of my way, spreading her legs wide.
The scent hit me like a brick. I've never been so exposed to it before. Her legs were usually closed and her vagina was usually covered. But now, bare and open, the scent was incredibly powerful. It left me breathless for a second and I almost got off instantly. But I held on to my control, determined to be sweet and loving and gentle for her.
I stared at her beautiful face, looking for a reaction. It was her last chance to bail, but she looked unafraid. She was calm, her eyes glinting with arousal and excitement, and though she looked slightly nervous, she looked at me like she loved me. I choked a bit with emotion again and kissed her deeply before positioning myself at her entrance.
I don't think I've even been this aroused before, and it was more surprising that I was completely in control of what I was doing. My penis pulsated a bit when I felt her tempting heat. It was so close. I pressed the head again her entrance and very slowly pushed myself inside. She was so amazingly tight that I almost came, but I fought. I fought hard. Kagome flinched every so slightly, gripping my shoulders and holding her breath until I was sheathed completely inside her.
She wrapped her legs around my waist and held me close to her, kissing my face. I was starting to slip. Not from the demon rattling inside me, but from being so insanely aroused. I hadn't had sex in years and Kagome was by far the tightest vixen I've ever claimed. I didn't wanna hurt her, but this was something the human side of me needed to control. I harshly grabbed the closest thing to me that wasn't Kagome: a pillow. My claws started to shred through the fabric.
"Are you okay?" I heard her ask softly.
I hadn't realized until now that I was holding my breath. I exhaled against her shoulder. "It's been so long, I forgot how good it feels... Are you okay?"
"I'm fine." She said, smiling at me. A warm, loving smile that reached her eyes. I couldn't help but smile back. She was the one going through the pain but she was so concerned about me. I kissed her face softly.
"Ready?" I asked her. She nodded her approval held me against her breasts as I started pumping oh-so-slowly, careful not to hurt her.
She felt so good. So fucking good. I lifted my head to take one of her nipples in my mouth, softly sucking her skin, which smelled softly like her bath soap. Our hair was still damp from the shower, and the cold from my hair contrasted with the heat of her body sent shivers up my spine. She ran her fingers through my hair, her head tilting back as I moved to her other nipple.
She was moaning softly, the sound pushing me to move a bit faster. After a minute or two (as if I was paying attention to the time) she arched her back beautifully, meeting my thrusts. She moaned my name so quietly that if I were human, I wouldn't have heard her. I kissed my way up her neck and chin until I was lip-locked with her again. Her left hand held the back of my head while I captured her other hand in mine above her head, my right hand supporting my weight above her.
She tore her mouth away from mine to moan loudly. I looked at her beautiful figure. Her eyes were closed, her lips slightly parted, her breasts bouncing in time with our thrusts. A layer of sweat covered our bodies. After a while the headboard joined the chorus with her soft moans, my groans, our joined heavy breathing, and the sound of her flesh taking me in. I doubted Kagome could hear that, but I didn't care. I'd never seen such and orgasmic sight before. And my heart swelled knowing I was the cause of that look.
I closed my eyes and moved faster and harder inside her, focusing on the sweet spot deep inside her that cause her soft cries of my name to go up and octave. When she squeezed my hand, I opened my eyes and looked at her. She was looking back at me, and despite her eyes being black, they were glowing. She released my hand to wrap me in her arms and I buried my face in her neck. She whimpered loudly. She was close. So close. Just a few more thrusts…
She cried out incoherently, throwing her head back, her hair a wild, sexy black mess flowing over the pillows, some sticking to her sweaty shoulders. She bit her lip and moaned loudly again as she came, digging her nails into my shoulder blades.
And I felt it too. The feel of her walls clenching around me was so unbelievably tight that I stilled as I came in her, grunting out her name as I panted for air. I was faintly aware of her brushing my bangs out of my face as I slowly floated back to earth. She softly kissed my forehead and tucked my into the crook of her neck, caressing the back of my head.
I shifted slightly, licking the spot beneath her left ear, lapping at her weak spot before I sunk my fangs into her. She jumped slightly but otherwise didn't seem to acknowledge it. I licked at her puncture wounds again, causing them to heal and form two tiny welts on the dip beneath her ear. My mating mark was in place. She was mine now. Forever.
I kissed her soundly, overwhelmed again. I rolled her on top of me and stroked her back while her index finger traced lazy circles on my chest. I kissed her hair, enjoying this moment of peace.
"I love you, Kagome" I whispered to her.
She lifted her head to smile at me. "I love you too, Inuyasha." she replied and placed a soft kiss on my chest.
Suddenly she shifted, straddling me and kissing me all over my chest and abdomen, and I threw my head back, staring at the ceiling as all my blood rushed south again. She was kissing my throat now, taking full advantage of my exposed neck. She licked and sucked and nipped at the skin around my collarbone, before coming back up my neck to kiss my face.
She leaned back and grasped my hands, willing me to follow her into a sitting position. I barely saw the wanton expression on her face before she attacked me again, kissing me all over my face. She kissed the top of my head, nuzzling me there and stroking my hair, leaving her beautiful breasts in my face. I nipped and sucked at them, caressing her and brushing her hair with my fingers, tracing the long black strands down her back. I very gently teased her nipples with my teeth and she threw her head back, moaning loudly.
I cupped each mound in my large hands and her hands came to rest over mine, rolling her head in a circle as I tugged and pinched her nipples. I released her breasts to explore more of her curves. Taking one nipple into my mouth again, I let my hands feel the silky texture of her perfect skin. They moved from her breasts to the curves at her waist and down to the swell of her hips and backside. I cupped each cheek and playfully tapped one, chuckling when she gasped. She pulled back and looked at me, her eyes hooded, aroused.
"Again," she whispered, and I couldn't help but raise my brows at her. I never expected her to be one to go all night, though I hoped. And I was more than eager to stay up all night making love to her. I pulled her in for a deep kiss, my tongue going straight into her mouth and I pulled her as close to me as I could. She moaned into the kiss, gripping my biceps as she started to dry hump me… wet hump me. I could feel the tip of my penis brushing her folds. She was so wet, and she was teasing me.
"More," she whispered into the kiss. "I want more."
I tapped her butt again, a bit harder this time, and held her hips to stop her seductive movement. She leaned back and stared at me, her hair wild from me running my fingers through it, her eyes wild with abandon.
"I set the pace." I growled and nipped her neck in warning. She moaned and nuzzled me. I move one hand from her hips to her inner thigh, drawing little circles there, teasing her. Her breathing labored and stopped for a minute before she gasped as I made my way to her heat and stopped there.
Her pupils dilated, her breathing labored, her chest heaving from my ministrations, she looked so sexy, so beautiful. I'd imagined her like this for how long now? I was getting harder from looking at her.
Her expression changed from wanton vixen to surprise as I reached for her clit, rolling and pinching and rubbing it with my fingers. She threw her head back, calling out my name loudly as I slowly pushed a finger inside her, setting a steady rhythm, my palm keeping a steady pressure on her clit. She moved her hands up to my shoulders again and tipped her head forward, her eyes still shut as she started to move her hips in time with my intruding finger, panting loudly, her nipples hardening as she became more aroused. I took one into my mouth again, loving the taste of her sweet, sweaty skin.
She moaned again as I inserted another finger and curled my intruding fingers to hit the sweet spot deep inside her, careful that my claws weren't hurting her. She shrieked loudly in pleasure as I evidently found what I was going for and gripped my wrist of my hand that was pleasuring her. Then she released me and moved her hand down to grab my penis, massaging my shaft, timing her caresses with my fingers. I didn't want to get off if I wasn't going to be inside her, so I grasped her hand and move it away, kissing it before releasing it. I wanted to be inside her when I came.
She was close, I could feel it around my fingers. She was so tight, even around my fingers. Her walls quivered and clenched and she exhaled harshly, letting out a long, drawn out moan as she erupted into a mini orgasm. I pulled my fingers out and sucked her juices off my hand. Her cream was salty, yes still sweet. It was extremely arousing. I pulled her in for another kiss, to let her taste herself. She let out a low, appreciative moan and rested her hands on my chest, sighing happily into the kiss.
I figured she was spent since she'd just had two orgasms in a row. I was about to lift her off my lap to lay her down when she suddenly gripped my penis again. I hissed, my breath low.
"Oh fuck," I whispered softly, tipping my head back and rolling my eyes back in my head.
"You okay?" she asked as she started her caresses again. I closed my eyes and growled in pleasure. I opened them again to find her smiling devilishly at me. God, she was so sexy. And she knew it. She knew what she did to me and she wanted to explore the possibilities.
I took her hand again. She gave me a sort of pouting look, and it was adorable and sexy at the same time.
"I know you're not done with me," I murmured to her, and she gave me a coy smile. I smiled back. "I want to come with you," I whispered as I kissed her jaw up to her ear. She moaned and tilted her head to the side so I could kiss her mate mark. She caressed the side of my face, where human ears would be if I had any, and she gave me a short, chaste kiss.
She grabbed my penis again and positioned me at her entrance and I impaled her on my erection for the second time. And it was just as good, if not better than the first time. It was faster now, harder, deeper. She was being aggressive, and it was so fucking sexy. She wrapper her arms around my head, her hand lightly clawing the back of my neck, pushing her breasts into my face. She used the muscles in her legs to push herself up and down on my erection. Her moans were loader, breathier. We were both sweating heavily as we grinded against each other. My left hand was pressed against her upper back, holding her to me, my right hand holding her left butt cheek, guiding her thrusts.
She suddenly pushed me back on the mattress, causing me to yell out in surprise. My head just missed the headboard because of my height. She was sitting up, hovering over me, one hand on my chest, the other grasping the headboard for dear life. Her hair was a wild black halo around her head. She was covered in sweat, yet her nipples were still hard. Her breasts bounced rapidly from her wild thrusting. And from my angle looking up at her, I could see everything. I could see her little bundle of nerves. I could even see my cock disappearing into her. She looked like some kind of sex goddess.
Oh God, I though. She's so beautiful. And she's officially all mine now. My heart stuttered taking in her beautiful, sexy appearance. "Kagome… ah…"
"Fuck," she gasped, rolling her hips. "You feel fantastic."
She threw her head back and shrieked in ecstasy as I tilted my hips, the angle of penetration hitting her g-spot. I reached in between us to play with her clit again, and she gasped loudly.
"So do you," I moaned. She bit her lip and opened her eyes, but they were clouded. She wasn't looking at anything, she was so lost in pleasure everything else was blurred out. She closed her eyes again, her mouth hanging open. I grabbed her hips in both of my hands, pushing and pulling her up and down on my erection. She put both of her hands on my chest and rode me in wild abandon. Her walls started quivering again.
"Oh fuck," she panted loudly as she came. Her orgasm wringed me dry as I came into her, calling out her name loudly. She moaned my name softly as she collapsed onto my chest and placed a kiss right where my heart was.
"You okay?" I whispered, loving stroking her hair. She nodded.
"Mhm." She swallowed, still catching her breath. "I love you so much," she smiled, her eyes slightly out of focus. I smiled back at her and kissed her forehead.
"I love you too." I whispered against her. Suddenly she propped herself up on one elbow and stared at me with a mischievous glint in her dark eyes.
"Good," she murmured. "Cause I'm not done with you yet."