Here you go chapter 2 of this... hope you enjoy it my dear beloved Sabrina. You are still the best thing that has happened to me ever. And I still love you to pieces... I love being in your AW family again, I love sharing it with you again. And I will never get tired of telling you how much I love having you back in my life and having you every day again.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Good Wife! Does that really surprise anyone?

Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

All That Lies Between You And Me

He had been studying her longer than he imagined, as she nuzzled around packing things up, brushing a lock of hair back behind her ear that was persistent in falling forward and into her face, teasing and annoying her soft cheek. She was the most beautiful creature he had ever laid eyes on, there was no doubt about that, if it was now or twenty years ago when the same lock of hair kept annoying her as she studied the law of obligation, persistent in understanding it completely. He could never get enough of looking at her whatever she was dressed up like - the amazing lawyer she was or like now casually dressed, no make-up and her hair in a loose bun trying to hold it back a little.

He could see the hints of black lines under her eyes, not that it was surprising. He knew fully well she hadn't gotten enough sleep in the last month, ever since giving birth to her daughter. He would be lying if he said he had gotten enough sleep during that time, he had tried to be there at the hospital just as much as he could, between work and checking up on her when she was at home, and he might very well have gotten even less sleep than her. After all the first days while she still stayed at the hospital before getting sent home, he had to divided the time there between her and her little girl. That had meant more than one sleepless night or one with only a couple of hours of sleep. However he didn't regret a second of it, he wouldn't have had it any other way. For him there had been no choice of that matter.

The choice had been so clear that he had never hated anything more than when he took her home after she was released and he couldn't push off going back to work any longer. He knew he had already pushed it off too long and Diane had started to question why, and she hadn't been the only one. Kalinda had kept him updated on that front. Alicia had also more than once at that point told him he should go back into work, but he had excused himself with that it was Christmas time and he hadn't taken time off for the holiday in the last many years, he was allowed one year. But as the 27th rolled around, 1 1/2 week after Alicia had given birth, Alicia was now at home with her older kids on school holiday until after new year. So they were able to drive her to and from the hospital until she could once again drive on her own after having the C-section, so he no longer had an excuse to push it back any longer.

He couldn't remember a point other than when he was seeing Alicia during their steamy liaison where he wanted to quit the law to be free to do whatever he wanted (back there it had been to spend time with her), and it had been the same now. He wanted to quit it all so he could spent all his time with her and her baby girl. The little girl he had grown to love more and more every day.

He had until now never been able to understand completely what people that had kids meant, when they said it became all about what the child wanted or needed. He hadn't ever really been able to mentally understand how Alicia could let her children's wants and needs weight in so much that she could decide everything based on not hurting them, however the day Catherine Amy was born he understood it, and for each day he understood it better. He couldn't imagine anything he wouldn't do for the little girl. He had more than once wished she was really his, and there were no complications, but he had quickly understood it didn't matter. He doubted he could love her anymore if she was his in blood and not just bond. Because the little girl had his heart completely, and that wasn't about blood at all.

He hadn't ever imagined he could love a child of Peter jackass Florrick's as much as he did, but it was the truth. He had also started to care more about Alicia's other children through the Christmas he had been allowed to spent with the family. Truth be told he had never imagined Christmas as a grown up could be as amazing as this one had been, it had surprised him. He had enjoyed the family time, the warmth, the happiness, even the time divided between the hospital and Alicia's apartment. It had all been a part of making it perfect.

Now here he was a month later, and Alicia finally able to bring her daughter home. She had insisted that he didn't drop work today to help her, that she could handle it herself now she could drive again. He had tried to argue with her but she had made it clear she could handle it herself.

Yet here he was, he had been unable to stay away. And the situation had its perks, that he saw now. Because she didn't know he was here now he had time to enjoy the view of her. Enjoy studying her like he was, and he loved to be able to do that. Though it also made his heart ache.

He had still to talk to her about them, letting her know he wanted her, with children and all. That he dreamed about her every night, that he loved her more and more every day that passed. That he couldn't imagine his life without her in it, that all he ever wanted was her. All what he had promised himself he would tell her a month ago while she was still in surgery. He knew he should tell her but there had never seemed to be a good time for it so far, after all it wasn't just something to be blurted out. He sighed, he guessed it was all still put back to the shitty timing they seemed to have, actually shitty timing didn't cover it anymore. It was like they had no timing at all.

He had once told her to hell with bad timing they would talk, back then they had a talk where she told him she needed to be alone for a while. That she was going to divorce Peter, but she needed to sort her life out before anything else. Now however he seemed unable to finally get another talk with her, one where he told her timing didn't matter anymore he would do it all for her, screw timing they just had to make the timing theirs. He didn't know why it was so hard, but he had a feeling a lot of it came back to fear. A fear of rejection by her. What if she said no? What if she didn't want it? What if she didn't return his feelings? Most of the time he felt like she might very well feel like he did, but there were other times where he had no idea if she really could be feeling like that for him.

He didn't get any longer to dwell on it or study her, as she looked up meeting his gaze, like she realized she was being studied. He smiled hesitatingly at her and got one in return. Her eyes shining at him, and this was one of those moments he had no doubt she shared his feelings, and would return them if he told her how much he was in headless endless love with her. His heart's truest desire.

Alicia had known he had come the moment he walked down the hallway, and she had been a little surprised that he hadn't made himself known as soon as he came, but instead just stood there outside the NIUC. She had considered approaching him, but had quickly decided against it and instead enjoyed the warmth that filled her knowing he was standing there because he wanted to be there for her, that he was observing her with that soft warm and tender gaze of his. His eyes caressed her skin hair and soul, making her heart beat faster and her stomach flutter in thousands of butterflies. She was enjoying soaking in his gaze, and she knew the moment he knew she had noticed his presences he would stop it. So she had let it go on, enjoying every moment of it, and only looked up at him when she was almost done packing everything.

Now they were in the car on their way home to her apartment, in her car, the bigger of them. She would need to either drive him back to the hospital or ask Veronica or Grace to do so later, to get his own car again, even though he would probably not hear of it, she would make sure he didn't have to take a cab or the EL. Not when he had been so sweet to come to help her take Catherine home even though she said he shouldn't. However it had been a great help having him there, helping her carry some of all the things they needed to get down to the car, helping her by driving now so she could keep looking over at the back seat checking if her little girl was still alright. She knew Will was stealing glances at her again now, and she would be lying if she said she hadn't stolen a few of him herself.

As they had packed up all of Cat's things and carried them down to the car there had been a moment where she had thought he wanted to kiss her, but the kiss had never happened instead he had looked so confused and nervous after almost like he had gotten burnt. Something that confused her a lot. Over the last month there had been more than one of these moments, where she thought they were close to kissing but it didn't happen. And that confused her. It wasn't like she didn't want it, she actually did quite a lot, actually it seemed she wanted it more with every moment they spent together.

Her glance fell on the bracelet she had on. One he had given her the day after she had Cat. It was a charm bracelet, and the charms in it were some of the most thoughtful ones she had ever seen. One of them was a small silver heart, with "best Mom" written on it and a small golden flower with a tiny diamond in the middle attached to it. Another was a little silver stroller, and there was a tiny of pink boots and at last there were three small pearls and one bigger pearl.

She hadn't at first understood the meaning of those and looked at him for an explanation, one she hadn't gotten as he had just shrugged his shoulders and smiled at her. It was only until days later she had realized that Will knew she adored pearls and preferred them many times over diamonds. It wasn't actually until he gave her a gorgeous pair of pearl and diamond drop earrings for Christmas that she realized the true meaning of the pearls in her bracelet. That he had meant the three smaller ones to symbolize her now three children and the slightly bigger one to be herself. The thoughtfulness had made her tear up when he gave her the gift, and again as she realized the depth of his thoughtfulness. Both of those moments were ones where she had looked at him and his eyes and showed how he longed to kiss her and they had started to lean in, and both times the kiss hadn't happened.

Of course things were complicated right now, they were messy and confusing. And it was certainly harder now that she had Cat, a baby daughter that would need all her attention and love. It was a complication she hadn't thought she could ask Will to take on, her baby with another man. And yet for each day that passed she realized Will seemed to have taken it on all the same, having stepped up even without her asking him to. She had seen how he was with Cat by now, how much he cared for her, how gentle, loving and careful he was with her. Something that never ceased to warm her heart. And that convinced her they could probably make it work if they wanted, even with her baby daughter a part of her life now.

Right now as he took her home with her daughter for the first time it almost felt like they were a family and there was nothing complicated lying between them and causing them to not be together.

As they got to her apartment she took Cat while he carried some of the other things up, running down for the rest as she settled Cat in. She had just heard the front door close behind him as he went down for the last bag of things, as Cat woke, whimpering softly, whimpers that soon turned into cries, as Alicia rushed to her baby's cot, lifting her daughter up and into her arms cuddling her tightly against her chest. The movements Cat made soon letting her know her daughter was hungry, not that it should surprise her. It was hours since she had nursed her last. She carefully settled into the rocking chair she had gotten for Cat's nursery for exactly that purpose. She arranged her shirt and bra and Cat in a soft blanket as she settled her daughter in, starting to feed her, rocking slowly back and forward.

She stroked the light curls that had started to form on her daughter's head. Curls that were still so small, light and soft. It had been years more than a decade and a half since she had last had to deal with this. Last had to nurse her child, last had to deal with sleepless nights due to a baby that needed her constant presence there. Back then she had left her work to give her children that constant presence, she wouldn't be doing that this time, she couldn't, no matter the desire she felt right now to do just that to be there for her little girl.

She couldn't go back to the person she had been back then and the woman she was today would regret giving up the law once more. She had already been away from it for months now, to first keep her pregnancy hidden and then now a month after to take care of her baby. She knew it wouldn't be long before she went back in, especially now Cat was home from the hospital and doing as well as she was.

The thought of leaving her daughter through the day made her heart ache already. She wouldn't leave her until she found a reliable nanny for her, one she felt she could trust her baby with and not fear for her well-being. Her mother had already offered to help her out, and she had considered it and had settled on that she would ask her to be there a couple of days through the week together with the nanny, but she would need a full-time nanny, one she could also call in case she had to go back to work late or something similar.

She had been speculating about what to do for weeks now, and concluded it was needed, though it wouldn't be easy to find one she trusted and one she actually trusted not to leak anything to the press. She raised her worries to Will a few days ago, and he had seen her issue and said he would think of something. If it had been any other situation she would have been able to take her baby to the daycare in the same building as Lockhart and Gardner, the one most employees that had children used. But that one was way too risky. In the end Will had yesterday told her he had one he wanted her to meet.

It turned out his cousin, a woman in her late 30is, were a stay at home mom with a 5 year old and a 2 years old. She was a trained pediatrician, until she had quit to take care of her own children. Alicia had immediately liked her, and for the first time in years she had actually felt like she had found another female friend, one she could talk with and who she could trust, not counting Kalinda, because that was different, she would never be able to talk child care with Kalinda or similar things. But here she had found one she could talk about those things with, even with the age difference. And when Rachel offered to be the nanny for Cat, Alicia had accepted. Will's trust in his cousin had helped, along with how comfortable Alicia had already felt with the other woman. She trusted she wouldn't leak anything to the press, and that she would be able to care for her daughter along with her own children at the same time, plus it would be even better that her daughter was watched over by one with kids herself and kids her baby girl would be interacting with. Alicia knew her daughter's life would be isolated enough as it was, this would make it a little less isolated until she could get her in a childcare institution in a few years.

So that was what they had settled on: Rachel would be taking Cat when Alicia went back to work soon. Until she went back one day each week she would come over with Cat to Rachel so Cat could get used to the other woman and her kids, and Alicia could get a few hours to herself. The first time of this would be in a few days. Alicia had hesitated at first but she could see the point in it. Even though she had a strong feeling of that she should make the best of this time off and spent every second of it with Cat. However it would make it easier if she still kept this up: As long as Cat was still in the hospital and after Alicia had been sent home, she had been forced to get used to be a little separated from her new born if she now got used to having her all the time once again, going back to work would only be harder. Even though Rachel had been kind and smart enough to come up with the idea that when Alicia went back in she could take the three kids for a walk in a park nearby Lockhart and Gardner each day in the lunch break and Alicia if she was free could come and see them. An idea that had made Alicia's heart fill with joy and happiness. That would make the whole thing a little easier.

Rachel had also understood Alicia's working hours and said they wouldn't be a problem, and Alicia knew if they at some point would be she still had her mother who had really stepped up first the last few months of her pregnancy but also in this last month after she had given birth. Her mother had moved back to Chicago to help her, in an apartment not that far from Alicia's, and she had been a better help than Alicia could ever have imagined in the past.

"Oh I am sorry... I didn't know... I will go now... and let you..."

She was pulled from her thoughts by a blabbering Will that had walked back into the room and now stood like nailed to the floor trying to look everywhere but at her and her daughter. Not that she could blame him, so far there had been no episodes of her nursing Cat and him seeing it. She knew fully well it was a private moment, though many didn't treat it as that. She also knew Will would probably be finding it even more awkward because of her bared chest and their complicated relationship, not that he could see much with the way she held Cat. Yet she also realized she wouldn't mind that he stayed there. Something she wasn't comfortable with many people doing.

She had never been one that nursed in public or did it no matter who ever happened to be in the room. She had never really been comfortable with that, but she suddenly knew she didn't mind that Will was there at all, actually it only made her feel warmer that he was. She looked up at him with a soft smile and shook her head.

"Will you don't need to leave.."

She whispered, her voice soft and tender, a part of her actually wished to ask him to stay with her, but she couldn't go there yet. He might be uncomfortable with seeing her like this, it was after all not everybody found women nursing appealing. Jackie and been shocked the first time she found out that Peter sometimes stayed while Alicia nursed.

He looked nervous and scared to look at her, she wished she knew what else she could say to make him more relaxed with this.

"Are you sure? I mean..."

He started to say while glancing at her, his eyes nervous though tender and loving at the same time. She smiled at him gently.

"I know... It is okay... I don't mind."

She told him with a sweet smile playing on her lips.

He nodded a bit nervously and placed the last couple of bags he had brought up on the floor and took a seat in a soft arm chair she had also placed in the room. She glanced around in the room, it was painted in a soft light peach color. She hadn't managed to finish decorating or painting it when she went into the hospital a month ago, after all she had thought she still had weeks before she was in risk of giving birth. So the painting and decoration of the room had been Zach's and Grace's Christmas present to her when she returned home from the hospital a few days before Christmas. They had unpacked the furniture she had gotten for it and before she went into labor they had painted it, and put everything in order.

She knew Will had probably helped a lot more than the kids and him had admitted, and she hadn't pointed it out to him though she knew, because it seemed like they wished to keep it a secret among them. Still it touched her heart, and she was pretty sure she couldn't have found a better color and have done it better herself. She looked over at him and smiled as she found him smiling at her or maybe it was the picture of her and Cat, never the less she found him looking at them with a soft smile playing on his lips.

Their eyes locked and they kept sitting like that for a few seconds. Until she realized Cat was done with her lunch and had fallen back asleep. She shook her head lightly, looks like her baby had decided for herself whether she wanted to be burped or not. Alicia started to carefully move her around so she could redress and get up to place Cat in the bed. Harder said than done when she didn't want to wake her up.

"Here, do you want me to take her?"

Will stood up and stepped over to her, intending on helping her.

Alicia nodded gently.

"Thank you." She whispered softly.

He smiled at her and started to lean down and in so he could take sleeping Cat from her arms.

As he moved down and closer their heads managed to bump into each other making them both pull back a little, their gaze meeting and holding for a few seconds.

"I am sorry..."

He whispered, his face incredible close to hers, and she nodded softly as she unconsciously licked her lips.

"Alicia..."

He breathed out softly still not moving away, or taking Cat like planned. Instead his hand found its way to her hair, pushing a lock that had fallen in front of her face back behind her ear. She tilted her head a little against his hand and smiled over his movement, it was like he had known how much she was bothered by that lock of hair that never seemed to stay in place.

"Will.."

She breathed softly, her eyes never leaving his. Her stomach was fluttering and this was for sure one of those moments she expected him to kiss her, one of those that over the last month had ended with him pulling back and looking apologizing at her. She was pretty sure most of the other moments had been more fitting than her in her daughter's nursery, after having just fed her and the little girl sleeping in her arms. Yet as he leaned in and finally brushed his lips over hers in one of the softest and sweetest of kisses she had ever received, she couldn't have imagined a more perfect kiss. Her eyes fluttered close and she returned it just as softly and hesitatingly.

The kiss she knew with everything in her was one of love.

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