They woke up the next day and went down to breakfast.
"So what are your plans for the day?"
Jace's mom asked while scooping some eggs onto her plate.
"I'm taking Clary to the natural hot tub. I thought it would be a fun thing to do."
"Make sure to take a lunch. It is a good ride away. Also the clave has a meeting and we will be gone until late tonight."
"Anything major going on?"
"Well the counsel of downworlders are coming with their appointed represenatives. You know Lucian has taken the werewolf position?"
"I knew it was a possibility. He continues to be a unofficial member of the Clave for my brothers interest. Good for him. I know he is a fair person."
"Yes I like that he is there as well. Lucian has always be a level thinker. Well I will tell him you are well."
Jace and Clary took off on horseback. Jace showed Clary everything along the way. He told her the history on as far back as he could remember.
The hot spring was a naturally made hole about the size of a hot tub and surrounded by grey lava rocks. They walked around a large bolder after getting off their horses. In the hot tub was her brother and a blond girl. They didn't see Clary or Jace both walked back around the bolder.
"Guess your brother and Jenna beat us her." Jace was whispering.
"You know her?" Clary whispered.
"Omm kind of showed her this place."
"Jace did you bring her here on a date? Like me?"
"Clary it was a year or so ago. We were not serious."
"Are we? Or is this just how you date girls. Take them to the same spots?"
"Why are you getting mad? I didn't know you back then."
Clary's voice stayed at a whisper but took a deadly edge.
"So now that you are getting to know me you take me to the same places you took all your old bitches! How dare you?"
"Clary come back here," but she ran back to her horse mounted and rode off.
Clary took off to the east away from the path they had taken. She tried to make it hard to track. She was unreasonable mad and she knew it. But she needed time to figure it out and then talk to Jace about it. She found a tree house in the woods with a tiny corral for the horse. She left the horse pinned and went into the tiny tree house which was 6 feet in the air with wooded steps.
She found it had a small bed, table and chairs and a stove. It did have a huge deck off of the stairs that was a great look out.
"So you found my secret spot."
Clary whirled around drawing a knife. Jace stood there dust on his clothes looking outright pissed.
"Clary you don't want to go there. Put the knife away."
She put it away, still not moving towards him.
"Why did you run? Why did you get mad at me?"
"I don't know. I was trying to clear my head to figure all that out. Guess i wasn't I ready do deal with your past. I know I am the ass. I admit it, but don't ask me why."
"Clary did I say something? Did I do something? "
"No. It is my blasted temper."
"I better answer. Don't cop out! Tell me how you feel, stop hiding behind your walls."
"What do you want me to say? That I feel like you are everything to me! Not because your gorgeous, but because who you are."
Clary took a deep breath and tried to fight back tears but they were running down her face.
"You want me to tell you that I've dated a few guys before you and they bored me. I get excited about you and at the same time you scare the hell out of me! I love you and you are the first person who could break me. Is that what you wanted to hear?"
Jace was in shock. His mouth was open but moving looked impossible. Clary made a move to go by him. She was angry. She poured her heart out and he stood there like an idiot.
Jace grabbed Clarys hand. " I've never had someone love me. That's what I've been looking for. Clary I'm sorry about today. I wasn't thinking. I just wanted to show you something I liked as a boy, not a date spot."
"You have been with girls. I have no experience. I don't know how to feel."
Jace laid her hands on his chest. He started wiping the tears away.
"Feel lucky we have each other and love one another. I have had sex but I have no experience with love, just lust. I want you more than ever and it scares me too. I won't leave you."
"And I won't leave you."
"Stop crying baby."
"I feel raw. Like I've laid everything out for you to see and I'm not sure what to do."
"This little tree house I built with my father. I've never had any one up here or thought to bring anyone here. This was private."
"Sorry I didn't know."
"That's not my point. My point is that we both need start letting the other in, past our secrets. To share things with each other. I'll try if you will."
"I'll try."
They made it back to the house late. After eatting a light dinner Clary opted to take a shower and get cleaned up. Jace did as well after getting a call that his parents would be in town for a few days due to some business.
"Is everything okay?"
"Yeah Clave business is keeping my parents in town. Just wondering if there is something stirring."
"Hey Jace I want to talk to you about something. But after today I guess I thought that maybe I should tell you what I am thinking."
" What is on your mind."
Clary came to stand before him.
"Well after everything today I have to say I am not happy."
"What the hell Clary!"
"Wait! Let me explain."
Clary cleared her throat.
"So here it is. I want to have sex with you."
Jace looked up to her from where he was sitting. He looked confused.
"I love you Jace. This is the most important relationship ever to me. That is what you are to me."
"I'm not sure what to say. If I say no yoy are rejected but if I say yes I feel like I'm taking advantage of you."
"True.."
Anything else said was stopped by the ringing of his cell phone. Jace answered and looked at Clary and motioned for her to leave his room. It was his dad so maybe he needed to talk privately. Clary left the room.
Clary went into her room, dressed and went down to the kitchen. She felt like making a snack and decided to make a couple pancakes with apples and cinnamon on top. She had just finished her first pancakes when Jace came in. He eyed the pancake, she slid it to him and turned to do the dishes.
"Sorry my dad needed to talk to me. What were you saying before we were interrupted?"
"Nothing. I'm going to go take a bath. Night."
Clary walked out of the room. Jace had his walls up and she did not have the energy to climb them. He was still eating the pancake, but gave her a searching look.
Clary ran a nice hot bath in this oversized tub. She put in some soap for bubbles and climbed in. The room was filled with a fog from the steam.
"Are you mad about some thing?"
"Nope just in the mood to relax."
He was sitting in the hallway with the door cracked.
"I loved the pancake."
"Thanks Jace."
"My dad says there is arguing amongst the Clave."
"There always is."
"Clary I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to feel like I was shooing you out the door."
"I know. You did nothing wrong."
"Then why do I feel like I did?"
"I don't know Jace. I can't tell you why you feel like you do."
"Why are your walls up?"
"Why are yours?"
"I don't know."
"Well let me know when you figure it out." Clary said letting her anger show.
"Dammit I knew you were pissed!"
"Hell your ruining my bath too! Get the away from me right now. You are itching for a fight and I don't know why."
Jace went to bed alone pissed and missing Clary.
Clary called her brother vented on his voice mail and went to bed. Since she was sleeping alone she was just in a tight spaghetti strap top and her underwear. It took her forever to sleep. She kept having nightmares that someone was after her. She woke up when someone fondled her breast.
Pulling a knife out she took him down easily.
"Who the hell are you?"
"Jasper. This is my parents house."
"Great just freaking great!"
She held her knife to his throat turned the light on and shoved him out the door, kicked open Jaces door. Jace was out of bed in a few seconds.
"This was in my room."
"He is my brother came home late tonight." Jace eyed his brother who she had a knife still to his throat.
"Great. Now tell him if he touches me again I will cut him open and watch him bleed out."
"You liked it."
"You son of a bitch!" Clary elbowed him in the eye. She knocked him to the floor.
"I will kill you. I've had a draining day that ended like shit and to wake up to you in my room, uninvited."
"In the past Jace and I shared girls thought you might want to give it a go.
"Never! So never touch me again."
"Jasper out. We will talk in the morning. Clary stay please."
The door closed and they were alone.
"I'm sorry. He is an ass but girls like him. Not sure why."
"That's why your insecure, you think I would go running to him? Oh my God you are dumb."
"It has happened before."
"But those girls didn't love you I do."
Jace pulled a blanket from his bed and wrapped it around her.
"I can see why he was tempted. "
Clary blushed. She forgot she was in her underwear.
"Why don't you fight back with him?"
"I made a promise to my parents to try to get along. The is why I needed to talk to my dad alone. Jasper and I don't get along."
"So you didn't trust me?"
"It's not that. I am just being paranoid. I love you so much and losing you would be hard, especially to him."
"I love you, get it. I am as faithful as a dog. Hell I named my house faithful. I am with you."
She came over to him. His chest was bare and she ran her hands up to play with the curly hair at his neck. She laid her head on his chest.
"Can I sleep with you tonight?"
"Yes." Jace said in an uneven voice.
Clary ran over,turned the light off, and got into bed with him. Jace propped himself up to look at her. He opened his mouth to say something but Clary was done talking about everything. Clary kissed him down his neck while playing with his hair. She crawled on top of him and he sat up.
"Wait. It's hot in here. He got out of bed and opened a window. She was behind him, in the dark it was easy to be brave. She put her thumbs in his waist band and pulled his pants off him. He stood there and let her.
"Well that is some progress." She said a little breathless.
He turned on her, kissing deeply.
"Clary you sure?"
Her kiss was all she was willing to reply. He pulled off her shirt and her underwear. He kissed her again and again making her feel like she was drugged.
She had no clue as to how she got in bed or when he had joined their bodies. She did know that it was amazing and she loved him.
"Clary are you okay?"
"Umm better more like Heaven."
"I love you," he said close to her lips.
"I love you too."
"Do you want anything?"
"You. That's all."
Jace put his arms around her.