JR arrived back at Southfork, he parked his car and sat there thinking about the events of the last few hours. He looked up at his bedroom window and saw that the light was still on. He sighed knowing that he had to confront Cally now; he couldn't leave it until tomorrow. He got out of his car and walked towards the house. Everything seemed to be in darkness downstairs he looked at his watch, it was gone midnight; he hadn't realized he and Sue Ellen had been talking for so long. What was he going to say to Cally? Who did he really want Sue Ellen or Cally?

He walked into the den and switched on the light, fixing himself a drink he sat down and ponder the questions running through his head. Cally or Sue Ellen was there really any doubt in his heart who he wanted; once over maybe but today everything had changed. The pain that shot through him as Sue Ellen walked away convinced him of how much he loved her; it had always been her and he knew it always would be. They were connected by something that was stronger than anything he had ever known, he always thought that he was in control but he knew he wasn't; neither of them were…fate and destiny were and that was kept bringing them together…pieces of a jigsaw puzzle that needed to be fitted together to form the complete picture. Finishing off his drink he went upstairs, first he looked in on John Ross who was busy reading a book.

Looking up John Ross smiled when he saw his father "Hey daddy"

"Buddy what are you doing up so late?" JR replied walking into the room

"Waiting for momma to call; she promised me she would phone the minute she got into London but she hasn't; maybe she's forgotten about me already"

JR cursed himself; they had been so wrapped up in trying to sort out their own relationship that they hadn't thought about their son. He thought of how many other times John Ross had been caught up in their warfare…giving Sue Ellen her due she never used their son as a pawn in their games but JR had…frequently.

"I'm sure she hasn't forgotten about you…maybe she thought it was too late to phone when she got there and don't forget there is a time difference"

"Why did you make her go away?"

"I didn't, she left because she wanted to"

"But if you hadn't hurt her; married Cally then she might still be here…it's all your fault" John Ross turned his back on his father.

JR soothed his back; he wanted to tell his son that his mother was still in Dallas; that she couldn't leave either of them but he had to talk to Cally first.

"It's not my fault John Ross…your momma and I just couldn't live together anymore"

"Yes it is…I remember asking her once if we could be a real family and she told me that she did too and that maybe you would; but you didn't. You didn't love her and you don't love me…I hate you…I want to go to momma"

"I thought you like it at Southfork?"

John Ross looked at his father with hate in his eyes; something JR had never seen before; he believed his son would love him no matter what but things had changed.

"I think it's time you went to sleep; night son"

John Ross didn't reply; once again he turned his back on JR. Getting up from the bed JR slowly walked out of the room turning off the light as he went. He was just about to go into his bedroom when something stopped him. The only person who had ever understood him was Sue Ellen; he needed her now, he needed her forever. Going back downstairs he walked into the den, closing the door behind him he picked up the phone.

"Sue Ellen" he said quietly as the phone was picked up at the other end

He heard her sigh "JR…its late what's wrong?"

"I've just spoken to John Ross…he's upset because you didn't call him…he says its my fault you went away and he hates me"

"Damn..it was so late after we finished talking that I knew I couldn't call him; I'll phone him tomorrow"

"Why don't you pick him up from school? I'll pick him up on my way back home from the office"

"Okay"

"He says it's all my fault that you left…he's right isn't he?"

Sue Ellen remained quiet; They had both done things that they weren't proud of;

"We've both done things wrong; JR noone ever solved anything by worrying about the past. The only thing that matters is the future and we have to find a way to put this right. I want our son to know that he has two parents who love him and each other."

"I'm going to talk to Cally now…just needed to hear your voice again"

"Okay; night I'll talk to you soon"

"I love you"

Sue Ellen closed her eyes "I love you too…now go!"

JR put down the phone, breathing deeply he decided it was time to face the music.

Meanwhile back in her house, Sue Ellen was overcome by a sense of loneliness and longing. She knew now that more than anything she wanted her family back. She picked up the picture of John Ross on her bedside cabinet; even though it had only been a few hours since she last saw him; she missed him; she wondered what it would have been like to have had an ocean separating them. The thought terrified her and she wondered how she could have even considered it. Smiling to herself she remembered how earlier that morning she thought she had sorted out everything; how wrong could she have been. Part of her wanted to pick up the phone and ring JR again; just to hear his voice; a voice she had always loved; a man she had always loved. Feeling tired she decided it was time to go to bed although she knew sleep would elude her tonight. JR would hold her thoughts and dreams hostage just like he had years ago when they first met. JR the man with the sparkling blue eyes that captivated her all those years ago on the stage; the eyes that held secrets that only she could know. She knew how much he craved power and control but she also knew that behind the mask he wore was a vulnerable man; a man who needed his father's approval but had never done it; a man who needed to be loved but didn't really know how to show it. It was time for her to take control; to teach JR the meaning of love and to show him how to give love in return.

JR walked into his bedroom; Cally looked up from the book she was reading. JR avoided her eyes.

"You're late..where have you been?"

"Out" JR replied "We need to talk?"

"John Ross wouldn't go to bed…he wanted you or Sue Ellen…still don't know how she could have left him" a smile crossed Cally's lips, she was so relieved that Sue Ellen was out of their lives for good, she'd always felt that while Sue Ellen was still around, JR would never be completely hers, now it was different. She felt sad that in some ways she had lost a good friend and teacher but was more than happy to have her living on the opposite side of the world.

"Cally I'm sorry this isn't working?"

"What isn't working?"

"Us..this relationship…hell I'm 25 years older than you. We should never have got married"

"But you told me you loved me"

"I thought I did" he lied; the truth was he had never loved her; he loved noone apart from Sue Ellen and John Ross.

"Who is she JR?"

"I don't know what you're talking about"

"Come on…you cheated on Sue Ellen, guess old habits die hard"

"There's noone…I just feel that we come from two different worlds"

"I'm pregnant"

JR looked at her "You fooled me on that before but not this time"

"I love you"

"I'm really sorry Cally but I promise that I will set you up for the rest of your life. You will have all the money you need"

"Who is she…is it that woman we met in Vienna…I heard you tell her that she was your first and only love"

Vanessa, had he really said that to her. It was untrue; he had been upset when she ended their affair years ago but it was nothing compared to what he had felt earlier. His first and only love was Sue Ellen, yesterday, today and forever.

"This has nothing to do with her"

"Did you sleep with her in Vienna?"

"Cally…this is doing noone any good. I'm sorry I just can't be married to you anymore"

"Sue Ellen was right about you; you're nothing but a two timing, conniving bastard"

JR closed his eyes, this was getting them nowhere

"I want a divorce"

Cally began to cry; JR sighed and walked towards her placing his hands on her shoulder, with one quick move she pushed him away.

"Don't touch me, don't you ever touch me again. You're a poor excuse for a human being."

JR walked towards the door "I'll sleep in the spare room tonight"

"Don't bother…I wouldn't want to spend another night in your bed" she shouted as she walked past him. "You can have your divorce but I'll make you pay for it"

JR sadly watched her go; he hadn't wanted to hurt her but today for the first time ever he had come to realize who he was supposed to spend the rest of his life with and it wasn't Cally. He began to get ready for bed but knew that he wouldn't be able to sleep tonight; he wanted Sue Ellen more than he had ever wanted anyone. Walking over to his chest of drawers he opened it and started looking for something he had hidden years ago. Finding what he wanted he retrieved it, The Miss Texas competition, the same video he had used years ago after the divorce to try and get back Sue Ellen; thinking back to that time he also admitted to himself that part of the attraction was the need to get John Ross back on Southfork so that he had more control of Ewing Oil; although having her back was a bonus. Looking back over the years JR wondered what had he been thinking all these years; he had the most beautiful woman in the world, she was loving, loyal and compassionate; his one ally in a world where he had no true friends. He had loved her he just hadn't been able to show her; now was different he wanted to show her how much he loved her; to spend the rest of his life with her. Looking at the time on the bedside clock he decided to take the video and sneak down into the den; if he couldn't have Sue Ellen tonight then at least he had her on video.

Sue Ellen woke early the following morning. Today was the start of the rest of her life, she should have been starting a new life in London but here she was, still in Dallas. She got out of bed, showered and dressed before going downstairs to make breakfast; part of her wanted to call Southfork and speak to John Ross but she didn't want Cally to answer the phone. Putting on the coffee pot she heard the doorbell ring. Smiling she knew who it would be; JR always did hide from confrontation and if he had indeed spoken to Cally last night and with John Ross' attitude she could well imagine what breakfast at Southfork would be like.

"What kept you?" he said when she opened the door

"Well maybe I wasn't in a hurry to greet the person on the other side" she smiled

"Can I come in?"

She opened the door wider

"Here these are for you" he said handed her a bouquet of flowers

"Thank you" she laughed "You always did think that flowers were the way to a woman's heart"

JR followed her into the kitchen and watched while she placed the flowers in a vase. Walking up behind her he placed his hands around her waist, pulling her towards him, thrilled that she didn't resist him, he planted soft kisses on her neck.

"JR we shouldn't…." she said "You're married"

"Not for much longer"

She turned to face him "How did she take it"

"Not well…she wanted to know who I was seeing, told me that you told her that I was a two timing conniving bastard and that she's going to make me pay"

"Are you sure this is what you want. That after everything that's happened between us you still want us…"

"More than anything….I spent last night watching the Miss Texas competition again, I couldn't sleep so decided if I couldn't have you by my side I would watch the video"

Sue Ellen smiled "Yes I remember that video…you used it to get me back in your good books"

"Did not…it was the anniversary of our first meeting and I wanted to share it with you. Sue Ellen I was thinking, we do need to get out of Dallas; if we stay here we wont get a minute's peace."

"We wont be able to stay at Southfork, I think a fresh start would be best for the three of us…away from the memories we have here. We have something very special now let's build on it, give our son the family he wants"

"I'm going to call Harve Smithfield and set the wheels in motion; after the divorce I want us to be married and this time I promise there will be no more tears. I love you and I couldn't bear it if you walked out my life for good…yesterday proved that"

Sue Ellen smiled "That's all I want…you love, your faithfulness and total commitment"

"I'm tempted to get John Ross and move in here permanently"

"One step at a time" Sue Ellen said as she lovingly kissed him.