I'm having major Steroline feels after watching 5x04... I can't stop thinking about them. I also keep thinking about their first kiss. This what happens when you ship a pair for at least 4 years. Shipping my OTP since 09
Anyway there's my second steroline fanfic :)
"Why can't I let it go?", Caroline huffed to herself as she faced her body towards the ceiling of her dorm room. The sound of the covers ruffling in the silence reminded Caroline that she was alone. Elena temporarily left college until she found out the link between their dead room mate Megan and Elena's dad.
Caroline started college a few days ago and straight away she became friends with Megan. They weren't close but she did feel sorry for the horrible death she encountered. Jesse, another friend Caroline recently met had a thing for her. He kissed her yesterday. It didn't meant nothing to Caroline, but she liked his company. He wanted to be around her, it made her feel wanted. That's what she ever wanted in relationship. She didn't want to date him for many reasons. One of them being is that they are both from different species. She's a vampire and he's a human; it would never work out. The another reason - Tyler. Caroline loves Tyler. Their love is a like every typical high school love. It's that kind of love that you experience when you're young. You find that one person you love so much that you think you'll be together forever. But in reality that kind of love dies. Especially if you've been parted from them for a long period of time.
Tyler returned to Mystic Falls for Bonnie's funeral. Caroline partly smiled remembering how happy she was when she saw Tyler. He was there for her when she needed him. Bonnie was more than a friend to Caroline. She was her sister. Memories of Bonnie flooded Caroline's mind. She remembered when she told Bonnie she loves her on the day of graduation. Tears seeped down the sides of Caroline's face. Part of her doesn't feel like living any more without her sister by her side. But the other part of her knows she has to be strong. She has to be strong for Bonnie, Elena, Jeremy, everyone. Being with Tyler helps her forget about Bonnie's death but it doesn't help ease the anger and sadness building up within her. Her relationship with Tyler is physical, they make love over and over again. But they never have an emotional connection. Part of Caroline knows deep down that she isn't in love with Tyler any more but she holds into their relationship. She doesn't want to loose anyone else. Just like that, that moment replays in her mind again.
Caroline rolls on her side with her hands scrunching the covers up to her chest. "Caroline it doesn't mean nothing. Stop thinking about it!", She cursed to herself. You have me... Those words forever imprinted in Caroline's mind. Those words made Caroline's heart swell when Stefan said he'll be there for her. Even without his memories he's still the same old Stefan to her. He still wants to be there for Caroline no matter what. Caroline can still feel the warmth of his hand covering hers. It felt strange. Not bad strange but the kind of strange where you never felt something so surreal that you have to replay that moment again. It was a comforting gesture, it was new and refreshing. For some reason Caroline couldn't let it go. It reminded her of the time when Stefan cupped her face in his hands when she transitioned into a vampire. He's always there for her when she's going through a bad time. He's her saviour.
Their relationship is built on trust. They tell each other anything, they have that loyalty and compassion towards one another that can never leave them. She knows no matter what happens to them, their relationship will always stay intact. They have that emotional connection that can never be broken.
Caroline looks at the clock on the bedside desk. The clock reads it's almost 4am. Still Caroline can't go to sleep, because of that one moment she had shared Stefan in the crypt. She guesses it's because she missed her best friend for so long that she's glad he's alive. But her heart beats uncontrollably whenever she thinks about him. It's confusing for her, she doesn't understand what's going on with her.
Caroline tosses the covers off her body and makes her way to the bathroom. She turns on the shower and strips off her pale blue pyjamas. The room is filled with stream and the shower head drizzling hot water above her head calms her nerves down. She needs this.
A hot shower will probably help me sleep. Stop me from thinking about everything. Stop the pain. Caroline closes her eyes and listens to the water hit the surface of the shower floor. Everything is calm, and peaceful. Why can't my life be like this? It's true what she said to Stefan in crypt about wanting to be in Stefan's position; losing her memory. Caroline can't handle Bonnie's death. She can't handle her relationship with Tyler knowing that's about to be over. Her mind and heart is confusing her of what she feels. She can't lose anyone else. She takes a deep breath and turns off the shower.
Wrapping her body with a pale green towel, Caroline walks out of the bathroom into the bedroom. Caroline lays out a new pair pyjamas along with her black underwear and bra. Caroline walks over towards the mirror and ties her hair up into a small bun. She begins to unwrap the towel when she hears someone clear their throat. She whips her head around and gasps when she's met with a pair of green eyes.
"What the hell Stefan?! You gave my undead heart a freaking heart attack!", Caroline yelled. She adjusted her towel higher feeling weird how much skin she was revealing to Stefan. He approached Caroline in a flash from the other side of the room placing a finger upon his lips. "What are you doing here?", Caroline whispered as he stood in front of her.
Stefan quietly laughed. He found it amusing how Caroline overreacted when he just saw her in nothing but a towel. "This isn't funny. How long have you been here?, Caroline questioned.
"I sent you a text an hour ago about you helping me with my blood addiction. I thought you got the text so I came here so we could start", Stefan smirked as his eyes scanned Caroline's body. "Looks like you knew I was coming since you're half naked".
Caroline's eyes grew wide. She was sure that she was blushing so hard that her cheeks were a shade of red. She ever expected to see Stefan flirting with her. She remembered their first encounter in the woods when he complimented her on how much hotter she is in person. Drunk Stefan can really say a lot when he see's anything he likes. Seeing Stefan like this freaked her out but ever since their conversation in the crypt she knew the old Stefan was there...Somewhere. "Firstly, no I didn't see you're text I was busy having a shower and lastly no. No flirting", Caroline said in a serious tone.
Stefan smiled and licked his lips. "I'm only teasing", He crossed his arms over his crest and ogled Caroline's body in front of him. Caroline saw that look across Stefan's face. It was the same look he gave her in the woods when he was flirting with her. Caroline quickly turned around to grab her clothes from the bed. "Let me get changed then we'll talk", She said turning her head around to meet Stefan's gaze.
Stefan watched as Caroline pace into the bathroom. He knew she could tell how affected he was by her presence; the same could be said to Caroline whenever she saw him. He walked over to Caroline's bed and settled on his back with his arms folded behind his head. How could I be just friends with a woman like Caroline? Was I blind or something?, Stefan thought to himself. He couldn't help but think how Caroline made him feel. That night when he fed on Jesse Caroline stopped him; she told him how he's a better man. That he's not the ripper... From the way Caroline was telling him about the kind of man he was, it definitely showed amnesia Stefan that this woman has been by his side when he needed someone. He could see the platonic bond shared between them, it's beautiful and healthy.
The bathroom door opens and Caroline makes her way over to her bed. "I'll teach you how to hunt animals in the morning. We can't go into the woods at this time, animals are sleeping", Caroline said smiling gracefully. She got into bed covering her body with the covers. Stefan stayed in the bed but shifted a bit to the edge so Caroline could have her space.
"So I have to kill animals to survive now? Who told you about this lame animal diet?", Stefan inquired as he angled his body to the side facing Caroline.
A small giggle erupted from Caroline's throat. She turned around to face Stefan before she replied, "You did actually. When I became a vampire you taught me how to feed from animals and hunt".
"So I'm guessing that's how we met each other, right?". It intrigued Stefan how he helped Caroline with her vampirism. It proved that the old Stefan was drawn to Caroline just like he is now.
Caroline snuggled her face into the pillow avoiding eye contact with the green-eyed vampire. "Actually no" Caroline gathered up her courage and finally looked up. "We met on the first day you arrived at high school. I invited to a party and I stupidly began flirting with you..." Caroline doesn't know why but she felt embarrassed to tell Stefan about how they met first. Saying what happened 2 years ago still brought up the sadness and pain she felt back then.
Stefan smiled, but there was more to the story judging by the disappointment plastered within Caroline's eyes. "You told me that nothing would ever happen between us. I was hurt, but I got over it. In my defence I was pushy when I was human, plus you were head over heels for Elena". His smile faded. He couldn't believe he chose Elena over Caroline. He was definitely blind. However, he doesn't feel that way about Elena any more. After all she does love someone else. Why would he go back to someone who doesn't love him? It wouldn't be right.
"I'll tell you rest of the story later in the morning. I need to rest. You can stay here if you want". Caroline brought the covers to her chest with her hands tightly griped the fabric. Her eye lids closed; her eye lashes fluttering down onto her cheeks.
Stefan's gaze became fixated at the sight of Caroline's sleeping form. She was like an angel. A pretty, full of light angel. "I'm sorry", Stefan whispered.
Her eyes reopened, "It's okia, it was a long time ago", Caroline said softly. "Good night, Stefan".
"Good night, Caroline". With that they both close their eyes. It didn't feel weird or strange that Stefan was there with her in bed. It felt natural. She needed this kind of closure, she needed someone there with her. After everything that has happened to her, Caroline's glad she can have this emotional connection with someone.
I'm still not over the fact Stefan finds Caroline hot and when Stefan holds her hand! Like ASDKSDJK Julie wants to kill me. Can't wait for Thursday!
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