Awful day... awfulawfulawful day. But writing helps me, so here I am, writing another chapter! haha(: So, I once again forgot the disclaimer part in the 1st chapter... what is with me and forgetting disclaimer stuff? I DON'T OWN BTR.
Yet.
Anyway(: Let me know what you think!
James and I stayed like that all night- him laying on top of me, I mean. And all day he would barely ever leave my side. He'd always be touching me- it was like I was his rock, the one holding him together. And who knows? Maybe I was. That night when we once again got into bed, he did the same thing, only he didn't wait for a nightmare this time. This time he just laid right down on top of me, and I tangled my fingers into his hair as I breathed in, catching the smell of his Cuda products that he always loved to wear. Once again, the nightmares happened again all night. I tried to stay awake, but I just couldn't. Two nights of no-sleep just wouldn't do it for me. But I always woke up when he had a nightmare. It was impossible not to. I was surprised Logan and Carlos hadn't heard anything yet- he was pretty loud when he was scared.
That went on for a couple months. Then, suddenly, it was like James just shut down. I didn't even know why. Just one night instead of me waking up with him on me, he was still asleep on the other side of the bed, as far away as you could get. That day he wouldn't let me touch him at all. Everytime I tried, he would back away and try and make up some lame excuse. "Um, I have to go, Kendall." was one that he used often even when he had no where to go. But it wasn't just me that he wasn't letting touch him. Nobody could touch him, I found out when I was talking to Logan and Carlos about his strange behavior later on.
After one of his lame excuses, we finally let him go down to the pool. Logan suggested he just needed some space to try and figure out his nightmares, and that he would be back to normal in no time. So space is what he would get. But when it got to be a few hours later, that's when we started getting worried. Finally I sent Carlos down to the pool to bring James up. That's when I got the call, "Kendall, James isn't by the pool. Everybody said he left a really long time ago." Carlos and I talked for 2 seconds and I hung up, telling Logan that we needed to get everybody we could and search for him. After we had assembled a search team, we all split up until finally I got a call from Carlos saying "We found him! But he's too weak to get up, and he won't let anybody touch him. He keeps calling for you, Kendall."
Within 5 minutes I was to where they were. There was James, laying on the ground, curled up in a ball, crying and pleading with everybody not to hurt him. Is he asleep? I wondered, thinking of how he said that whenever he was having a nightmare. I gently put my arms around him and raised him into a sitting position. When he looked into my eyes and realized it was me, he finally stretched out from his fetal position, wrapped his arms around my neck, and let me take him home. On the way back to the Palm Woods, we were sitting in the back seat with him on my lap. He was looking at me, eyes blown wide with fear. As I gently put my lips to his forehead, I whispered, "It's alright. Nobody here is going to hurt you."
What was that? haha(: James angst, that's what it was! So, I hope you all liked it, let me know what you think!