Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Evanesence - Missing

"He...what?" Emmett whispered, voice laced with venom. Emmett had been so...angry, when Edward left. I wasn't sure if it was because his brother had completely abandoned his family, or because he had broken my heart. It was probably both.

"Edward...he's back. And -"

"Bella, where is he?" Emmett was using that deadly voice, that made me feel protected and terrified at the same time. Jasper honestly wasn't as strong as Emmett, so Emmett had protected me from any lingering Werewolfs and other vampires that tried to kidnap me. Apparently every vampire within 600 miles of us wanted to steal me away from my family. For some reason I will never begin to understand.

"I...don't know." Suddenly, my legs gave out. "I don't know." I wished I could cry, let the pain out in anyway.

"Bella," Emmett whispered, offering me his hand. I pulled myself up, unsteadily, and immediately fell over again. This time Emmett caught me, bringing me to his chest.

"Might as well be human." He muttered.

I rolled my eyes, but was silently agreeing.

Edward's avoiding me like the plague, I can barely stand, and an annoyingly strong vampire is carrying me.

I might as well be human.

I didn't know anything. I didn't know where he was, why he was back. Where he's been the past century. But the thing that's most confusing are my feelings. I want punch him and kiss him at the same time.

I don't want to hurt him, but I can't forgive him. He left me, but I still love him. I always will.

Shouldn't that be enough? Shouldn't I be satisfied?

No; Love won't stop him from leaving again. Besides, whose to say he'll ever return? How do I know If I drove him off? I know I wouldn't try at me for awhile. I just broke my heart! Wait..

"Bella, you okay?" Alice asked quietly from my door. I had forgotten to lock it.

I looked up at her. She had a husband who would never leave her. Unless, of course, being with her would put her in danger.

Why couldn't I have something like that? What if I did? Edward said he couldn't promise me anything besides heart and eternal gratitude. Okay, so that's a lot. But he could never bring himself to promise me forever. Maybe I was in danger. Maybe, it was gone now. Why else would he have returned? But I still couldn't prove he left to protect me. Eternity is confusing.

"I'm not sure, Alice. I'm not sure about a lot of things right now."

Playlist

Linkin Park - With You
Linkin Park - One Step Closer
Linkin Park - Points Of Authority
Linkin Park - Crawling
Evanesence - Missing