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Chapter 12 – Inner Thoughts, True Feelings

The clock struck 12:00pm when Hermione and Draco came back into there common room. The last 2 days had been rough for the both of them. As time progressed, things weren't getting any better. With the start of the winter holidays, Hermione and Draco we're alone without Ron and Pansy around. At this point, they were ready to really assess where there relationship was heading.

Hermione walked over to the couch and cuddled up close to the fire. Draco walked over to the fridge and got some water for Hermione. He handed her the water and went and sat across from her.

"How did all of this happen?", Hermione said quietly with a look of confusion and fear on her face.

Draco looked over at her curiously, "What do you mean?"

"I'm Hermione Granger, bookworm, straight A student…Not Hermione Granger…who is going to have a baby…2 to be exact", said Hermione as she stared into the fire.

"What are you trying to say, because I certainly don't understand", said Draco as he began to worry.

"I'm not ready for this", she said as she looked over at Draco.

"Neither am I, but we have to take everything slowly as it comes", said Draco.

"We don't have to go through with this", said Hermione.

"Wait…What?", said Draco as he began to get irritated.

"I don't know if I want to go through with this", said Hermione.

"You have to…You don't have a choice", said Draco.

"Yes I do. Its not up to you to decide", Hermione yelled back.

Draco was now standing, "There my babies", said Draco.

Hermione was now standing face to face with Draco, "In my body", Hermione said with fear.

"No…I know you…Like you said…Your Hermione Granger…you would never even consider it", said Draco with some confidence as he sat back down.

"I would never consider it, but when your in the actual position…things are different", said Hermione.

"What are you so worried about?", asked Draco.

"What am I so worried about?...Draco I'm only 17 and so are you. Did you ever think about what everyone else what say…Slytherin Bad Boy with Little Miss Goody Goody…let alone…how much danger we are putting ourselves at and our babies. You really think your dad would spare us, let alone Voldemort?", said Hermione.

Draco stood up and walked over to the door, "I remember you telling me you were ready for us no matter what the costs…Whatever Hermione, do what you want". Draco slammed the door, and left.

Hermione sat back on the couch and began to cry. She sat, alone, not knowing what to do…The only thing she knew was how to cry. Hermione picked up her diary and began to write.

Me Hermione Granger, in a position that I would have never imagined. One, being with Draco Malfoy of all people. Two, being pregnant at the mere age of 17. How could I do this? How could I do this to Ron? After so many years, Ron and I finally gave into our feelings, and I went and ruined it all. All of that hard work…all that hard work is soon going to be gone.

Draco…Draco Malfoy…of all people…why?...Who knew I would fall for him…How do I know he's not lying? What if he is working with his father and Lord Voldemort? For all I know…that could be Draco in my dreams…Let alone that…I'm pregnant…with two babies on the way. What do I do?...I can't handle all this alone. I don't know if Draco is going to be there for me and the babies. He could go back to Pansy for all I know.

How much longer can this go on?...How much longer can I keep lying to everyone?...Really, only time can tell what is to come.

Hermione put her diary on the table and got some parchment. Maybe if she wrote a letter to Ron to explain what has been going on, he will understand.

Hermione picked up her quill and began to write.

Back in the library, Draco was once again in the section on dreams.

Draco was going through the rows of books trying to find a book on death in dreams.

"Come on come on…I need something…The Aftermath of Dreams…Life in Dreams…Meanings Of the Unknown…Death or Life: Dreams…", Draco picked up the book and quickly opened it with the hope of finding any meaning to Hermione's dream.

After looking through the book for 10 minutes, Draco managed to find something.

What does Death in Dreams Symbolize?

Dreams…strange things that are hard to define in one sentence. Many things can come from them. Fantasies, desires, things that could be better than life it self. But is it all good? What about death? Death in dreams…That's not good. One is always woken before they reach death in a dream. But why?...Can it mean something?...Perhaps. Till today, defining what death means in dreams it still somewhat of a mystery, even in the wizarding world. But a word of caution…It does mean danger…a growing danger that is about to come.

Draco closed the book and sat back down. He felt horrible for walking out on Hermione this morning. Things were rough and he really began to feel it as he sat there and thought to himself.

Me and Granger…Fuck…What the hell is wrong with me?...Why can't I just accept the fact that we are together?...I know I'm putting her in danger, and I know she knows that too…But if I really love her why am I putting her though this?... What about the babies?...Things are being to become more complicated as each minute passes.

Pansy…I never really liked her…She was just someone there I could bang…I got to end that…In fact, I will end it when she gets back. That will show Hermione that I am all for us. But… I'm not ready for what is ahead for us. I really am not. But one of us has to try to be confident. Maybe if I am…Hermione will change her mind. I don't even know what she is feeling. For all I know…she could still be in love with Ron.

Draco looked over at his watch, it was now 5:00. He had spent the whole day in the library. He got up, picked up some books and put them in his bag. He left the library and headed for the common room. When he turned the corner, he found a very tired Hermione walking out of the room.

Draco quickly ran over to help her, "What's wrong?".

"Nothing", said Hermione as she slowly let go of Draco.

Draco went into his bag and pulled out a rose, "I'm sorry about this morning".

Hermione smiled and took the rose, "It's ok. But just so you know, I still haven't decided anything about the whole situation".

Draco helped Hermione down the steps, "Let's just go have some dinner".

"Alright. But after we have to go see Madam Pomfrey", said Hermione.

"Why?, Is everything ok?", said Draco with fear.

Hermione kissed Draco on the cheek, "Everything is fine. She's just going to put a concealment charm on me so that no one will know about…You know".

Draco smiled, "Ok".

Draco and Hermione came into the great hall and sat in the middle with some other students that were there. They stayed in the great hall for about 2 hours talking to fellow students, along with some third year students who were anxious about Hogsmeade trips.

"Can't we go on a trip over the break? There is nothing to do here", said Lisa, a fellow 3rd year student.

"Well we are going to have to talk to Dumbledore about it first", said Hermione as she ate her dinner.

"How many of you are still here?", said Draco.

"About 10 of us", said Lisa.

"Well, we will go see him. Usually there are about 40 of you that go at a time. Can we just get a list of the names of the students who want to go", said Hermione as she pulled out some parchment.

"Sure", said Lisa.

Some other 3rd year students came by and added there names to the list. In the end, there were about 17 names.

"Alright, we will talk to Dumbledore and we will let you know", said Hermione as she put the list in Draco's bag.

"Alright, thank you", said Lisa as she went back to her friends.

"Ready to go?", asked Draco.

"Yep", said Hermione.

Draco and Hermione both left the Great Hall around 7:30pm and headed towards the hospital wing. They went to the back where Madam Pomfrey was sitting at her desk.

"Good evening Madam Pomfrey", said Hermione.

She looked up from the desk, "Hermione Draco, how are you doing".

"We're ok. Um…This won't hurt the babies will it?", Draco asked with a little fear.

Madam Pomfrey smiled, "No it won't. They will be perfectly fine. Now, Hermione, if you don't mind, could you please remove you top and lay on the bed. I will be right back. Mr Malfoy if you would like to wait outside".

"If you don't mind Madam Pomfrey, I would like him to stay", said Hermione as she looked over at Draco.

"Of course", she said as she left.

"Thanks", said Draco.

Hermione gave him a kiss on the cheek and walked over to the bed.

"Turn around", said Hermione.

Draco laughed, "Are you serious?"

"Yes, now turn", said Hermione.

Draco smiled and turned around. Hermione took off her top and placed a towel over her upper body.

"Ok, now dear", said Madam Pomfrey as she came back with a bottle in her hand, "Before I give you the potion, we are just going to check to see how the babies are, ok?"

Hermione nodded and took Draco's hand.

Madam Pomfrey waved her wand and screen came up.

"Ok, so, this is one…and right here…is the other one", said Madam Pomfrey as she showed the two.

"Are they both ok?", asked Draco.

"Yes, they are fine", said Madam Pomfrey as she cleared the screen.

Draco handed Hermione her top, and she put it back on.

"Now, this potion will make sure that there is no appearance of the pregnancy. When ever you would like to see how far you are in your pregnancy, just come here and I will take the concealment off", said Madam Pomfrey as she handed Hermione the glass.

Hermione nodded, as she drank the potion.

"Now, it will make you a bit drowsy, so when you get back to your common room, go straight to bed. You may go", said Madam Pomfrey.

Hermione slowly got off the bed and headed back to the common room. Once they got back, Hermione walked over to the table to get her things.

"What's this?", said Draco as he picked up the letter that Hermione had written for Ron.

Hermione looked up to find Draco reading the letter.

"Dear Ronald, Did you get back home safe? You better write to me so I know how your break is going. I miss you dearly…" Draco looked up at Hermione, "Do I need to read more?"

Hermione grabbed the letter from Draco, "I was just writing to make sure he got there safe".

"You don't see me writing to Pansy to see if she got back safe", said Draco.

"I just don't want him to get suspicious", said Hermione.

"Hermione, I need to do some thinking. We will talk in the morning", said Draco as he walked up the stairs.

"No, Draco please", said Hermione.

"Hermione, I really don't want to hear it right now. I'm ready to leave Pansy right now, but I don't think you are ready to leave Ron", said Draco as went into his room.

Hermione picked up her things and went upstairs. She looked down the hall at Draco's room.

"Good night", said Draco as he closed the door.

Hermione went into her room and laid on the bed. She slowly yet quietly sound herself to sleep with tears.

Hey Everyone!!!

I am so sorry I haven't updated in almost a month. School has been so hard, that I barely had time to write. I know this chapter is short but I think it was important to put this in. I am almost done school, about 3 weeks left D so after that I will update more frequently, but for now, here is the next chapter, I hope you like it, and please do leave a review, I really really like to know what you guys are thinking about the story, and suggestions?, leave them in your review, take care everyone!!!...and remember REVIEW…please)

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