"Hello my dear."
"Spencer what are you doing here? How did you find me?"
"Do you really need to ask that? I don't only have the ring but I also have eyes everywhere and not to mention that cute little birthmark on your butt. It didn't take me long." He said coming over to me and caressing my jaw with his right hand.
"If you know where I am why haven't you taken me yet?" I asked slapping his hand away.
"Because sweetheart you are protected by one of the Warriors of Mist. I don't want a death sentence on my head. Besides this is much nicer than the real world. No one can hurt us here ; I can do whatever I want."
"This is in my head. You have no power here."
"Oh I wouldn't be so sure on that." He smiled twirling my hair in between his finger.
"No I will not allow you to have control over my dreams!" I screamed pushing him clear across the room and making him hit a wall. "You had control over everything in my life since I was three. Not anymore; I am free now."
"Free? Sweetheart you are far from free. Look at me, I am in your head and hate to break it to you but I'm not leaving. You will have to deal with me until I can get you away from that warrior and take you back myself." He smiled getting up like I didn't even stun him by launching him clear across the room. "You can't feel pain in a dream, my dear."
"I hate you!"
"Now don't be like that. We could be so happy together and you know it." He whispered in my ear.
"Well than if you can't feel pain in a dream then you will not have a problem with this!" I shouted grabbing the knife in my boot and stabbed him in the stomach. He didn't scream just disappeared. I looked around and light streamed in all directions and all I could see was the light.
I opened my eyes and saw the sun streaming in through the window in Sam's room. I guess I don't sleep in Dean's room because he actually has to sleep. I got out of bed and shuffled to the hallway. I could hear Dean and Sam talking so I hung back at the top of the stairs listening.
"How could you take her when you know Spencer is watching!? You know we wouldn't be having this conversation if you had feelings! A person with feelings can see when something is dangerous!"
"Calm down Dean. It's not like I dumped her in a ditch somewhere and if you love her so much why weren't you around? Oh that's right you went out to get wasted which I believe you still are a bit."
"Shut up! You had no right to take her out of this house!"
"So I should have done what you would do, chain her up to the floor and feed her nothing but water and crackers. For someone who is in love, you don't show it very well."
"What part of shut up don't you understand? I can't risk Rikki hearing that."
"That you are in love with her? She already knows. By the way did I mention how completely gross that is?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Being with her mom Dean? That right there would be fine if you weren't trying to take a test drive in the new model. This is why feelings are useless. They get in the way of better judgment."
"Her mom gave me her blessing!"
"Yeah I know that too but do you think if Rikki was living a normal life she would let you lay one hand on her? She knows the life Rikki lives and she just wants someone who she knows is strong and will take care of her because she can't. These feelings make you mindless. If you didn't have them you would see how completely wrong this is but that's just it if you didn't have them we wouldn't be in this situation in the first place."
"You know before I had feelings I felt the same way but once you can see through their eyes it just gets so much better. You are able to feel happiness and see what we were missing out on. The sex our species has before feelings cannot compare the way sex feels after we have them. You actually have a reason to have sex. Not just because you need to reproduce but for pleasure. Another thing our species don't seem to grasp; it's all about war and the great good. At least what they feel is the greater good for them."
"I thought you were still part of the warriors. How do they feel about your feelings?"
"Well for one they don't feel but I guess they are okay with it. I mean they haven't done anything to me. They just want anybody who is willing to fight with them these days. Most of the warriors have fallen and don't want to fight anymore."
"If you could hear yourself Dean you would see how completely ridiculous you sound."
"Morning, guys." I said pretending I just woke up.
"Hey." Sam smiled.
"Morning." Dean smiled looking at me.
"What was all the yelling about?"
"Nothing, it was nothing. So how did you sleep?"
"Uhh fine. So what's for breakfast?"
"Oh I don-"
"I'm making pancakes." Sam said going to the counter and picking up the bowl.
"You're making pancakes?" Dean asked looking at him weird.
"Yeah what's wrong with that?" Sam questioned turning around and throwing some pancake batter at him.
"What the hell?" He laughed rubbing the batter out of eyes. "Get back here." Dean said running at Sam and tackled him to the ground; then they were on the ground throwing batter at each other.
"Hey is nobody going to invite me into this batter fight?" I smiled laughing at them rolling on the floor.
"Yeah, sure." Sam laughed throwing a handful of batter at me. "It's a good look for you."
"Shut up." I said pulling the loose batter that was dripping from my face and threw it back at Sam.
"Okay." Sam said getting up off the floor. "Well it looks like you won't be getting pancakes." He laughed grabbing a towel and cleaned up his face. "Here." Sam said throwing the towel at Dean.
"You missed a spot." I giggled letting my finger follow down his cheek. "Mmm I am actually a little disappointed that I won't get any pancakes." I said putting the finger in my mouth. "So uh what's on today's agenda?" I asked sitting up on the counter.
"Nothing, we can't risk another carnival fiasco." Dean said getting up off the floor.
"What are you just going to keep me like some prisoner? This is just like the castle." I said getting off the counter and pushing pass Dean.
"Rikki." Dean said but I was already walking.
"He thinks I am just some prisoner?! Ugh!" I shouted bursting into a dragon for the first time. I felt my body transforming into a huge scaly dragon and I heard something like fabric ripping. I was so alive, so free and I didn't even care anymore that I was mad. All I could feel was the wind around me; coming at me in waves, barriers that I kept crashing through, I was flying; I didn't see anything but the sun and the sky in front of me. "So alive!" I shouted to the wind but it just came back to me in an echo. An echo of the wind screaming in my ear that I was free. Something I never really had in my life; until now.
I landed on a small cliff and transformed just like that into my human form again. I looked at my body and I was completely naked. "Damn it." I groaned walking to the edge of the cliff. There was a river running through it and some jagged rocks hugged the bottom of the cliff. "Hmmm…" I trailed off diving down the cliff. "Woooo!" I screamed as I was free falling. When I hit the water, it all rushed through my naked body. It felt cold at first but then my body got used to it.
"Rikki what are you doing down there?" A voice said from the top of the cliff. I looked up and saw Sam staring down at me in the water.
"Just thought I would take a dip."
"Off a cliff?" Sam questioned watching as I floated in the water.
"Yep, come in the water is soothing. It helps with stress; we are completely free out here."
"You know Dean is going to kill you." Sam said and I could have sworn he was smiling. "Alright coming in!" He said pulling his shirt off and preparing himself to jump. He hit the water and made crashing waves that sent me closer to him. He surfaced and pulled his wet hair out of his face. "Yeah Dean is going to kill us." He laughed splashing water at me.
"What's with you throwing things at people today?"
"I don't know. I guess it's fun." He smiled going under again and pulled me down with him. We hung underwater looking at each other. He pushed my hair out of my face and rested his hand on my jaw. He put his other around my waist, pulled me in closer to his body and leaned into my lips kissing me for the first time. I found they were eager to meet mine, they explored what I knew was there already. I closed my eyes and his hot tongue produced fierce heat despite the coldness of the river water. We stayed underwater until we had to resurface to take a breath.
"What just happened?" Sam questioned taking a deep breath.
"You kissed me." I said smiling slightly.
"No I know that but why? Kissing is for species, which have feelings. I don't have feelings."
"Have you ever stopped to think you could develop them?" I asked pushing my wet hair out of my face. It whipped back leaving water running down my face. My smile was now gone. I just had a blank expression on my face; maybe a little bit of hurt as well but to a person who doesn't have feelings it just looks like a blank expression.
"No I can't have feelings. They are for people with weakness. I have no weakness!"
"Feelings aren't a weakness; it's what makes us as close to humans as we could be. The ability to connect with one another on a whole different level. A level that didn't exist when your kind was made. You think you are better off without these so called feelings but you see how wrong you are. If your kind weren't meant to have feelings you wouldn't be able to develop them in the first place. Without feelings we are just a bunch of robots! Is that what you like to be, a robot?" I questioned as tears strung in my eyes with a warning that they were about to overflow. "You pretend to know and understand every angle and you still think your side is better? I've got news for you it can't be better if you have never experienced the real way we live." I said climbing up the side of the cliff.
"Rikki your level doesn't have common sense, no judgment. You are a better warrior without them." He said as we both got to the top of the cliff.
"News flash most of us aren't warriors and 'our level' really doesn't matter because we have volunteers that will fight but that's all they are volunteers. You fought for the freedom to marry who you deem worthy and the freedom to be treated equally no matter what you look like. There are no pures in your forest anymore right?" I questioned ringing my hair out.
"None expect what's left of The Warriors of Mist. How do you know that?"
"When I was a baby my mom told me of a forest that was free to be who they were no matter what they looked like. She said our forest would be just like that one day. She said she fought against the council for a forest like that but once she found out she was pregnant with me she backed down."
"So you know more than you lead on."
"No I have just started remembering things from my childhood since I have been out of the castle."
"Yeah the barrier of the castle could have done that." He said picking up his shirt. "Here put it on." He said handing me his shirt. I pulled it over my head; it was still warm from the sun and smelled just like Sam. It was a short sleeve gray T-shirt that felt good against my skin. "We better get back to the house. Dean is probably tearing his hair out looking for you."
"Oh that reminds me, how did you find me and why was Dean not with you?"
"Dean thought it would help our chances of finding you if we split up. I went one way and Dean went the other. I was flying through the woods and heard you jump off the cliff and the crashing of the water that followed. I thought you had hit the jagged rocks."
"I don't know why I decided to jump, it doesn't sound like me at all but after I transformed back into my human form I had all this adrenaline coursing through. I felt the urge to do something dangerous."
"Ahh, well it's getting dark. Hop up on my back and I'll get us back to the house in record time." He smiled crouching down and I watched his eyes lighten up.
"Okay." I yawned climbing on his back and sitting in the middle of his wing span. "I am so tired but I don't understand why. I got more than eight hours of sleep."
"Well you just transformed into a dragon for the first time; that takes a lot out of you." He said getting up and took off flying. "So how do you like the inconvenience of being naked when you turn back to your normal form?"
"Well it's inconvenient but makes sense. I mean your clothes can't pop in and out of existents."
"Yeah the first time I transformed into a warrior, I transformed back in-front of my mom. It was pretty embarrassing at the time. Nobody told me you are naked when you go back to two legs. My mom didn't seem shocked, I guess because my dad was also part of The Warriors of Mist. She however has never experienced transforming."
"Why she was a black winged horse as well right?"
"Technically but women can't transform they are only carriers of the gene. Only men are able to transform and be a warrior."
"I've got a question." I said feeling his black wings flap and tickle my legs ever so slightly. "When do you learn to use your wings?"
"When we are around five." He said as we landed in the front yard of Dean's house.
I don't own Supernatural, Dean or Sam but everything else you do not recognize from the show is mine.