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The song for this Chapter is Down by Jason Walker.

When I arrived at Sea-Tac airport Seatlle because forks doesnt have an Airport It was unsurprisingly raining adding to my crappy mood because after Renee dropping me at the airport giving me a hug and telling me that I should email, my flight was delayed for an hour.

I couldn't sleep on the plane. So I was tired, hungry and just sad. I missed home already.

I grabbed my bags from the conveyer belt and pulled them towards the exit. I stopped when I reached the doors and looked around for Charlie.

I saw him climbing out of the cruiser and walking towards me. I forget about the cruiser for a second there. I could clearly see it now it stuck out like a sore thumb.

I was just glad the blue and red lights weren't actually flashing.

Charlie walked up to me and took my duffle bag out of my hands and pulled me into a sort of awkward one armed limp hug. "Hey Bells!" Charlie smiled a small smile. I managed to give a small smile back. "Hi Dad".

He released me from the awkward hug and started towards the cruiser. I followed and thanked God when Charlie opened the front passanger seat, feeling thankful that I didn't have to sit in the back.

Everyone always stared at you in the back as if you were a criminal. Daniel used to have to ride in the back when we stayed with charlie for the summer when we were kids.

Charlie had a strict ladies always sat up front rule. Daniel Hated it.

Thinking about Daniel brought tears to my eyes. I missed him so much. I was trying to stop the tears from escaping when Charlie spoke. "How have you been Bells?"

I kept my eyes on my hands and didn't look at him I didn't want to lie to him but I couldn't tell Charlie the truth either. What could I say My brother is dead, Obviously I feel Like crap, I hate the world, I hate life, I hate myself. Instead I just replied with " I've been fine"

"That's good." Was Charlies reply.

We didn't speak much after that neither I or Charlie were talker's but despite the silence it wasn't awkward it was relaxing, a relief that I didn't have to pretend that everything was fine.

Charlie knew aswell as I did that everything wasn't fine.

When we pulled up outside the house a flood of memories hit me. Everything still looked the same, completely unchanged since the last time I was here almost six years ago.

It was in all honesty, a little bit weird. I'd spent every summer here with Daniel when were were kids up untill we were eleven, when both Daniel and myself decided that we didn't want to come anymore.

After that Charlie used to meet us in Florida or California or wherever it was we were staying for two weeks. It had been two years since we had done that.

So it had been quite some time since I'd been back to Forks, or lived with Charlie. Despite spending my childhood here and everything being the exact same I felt as If I was in a foreign land.

Somewhere I'd never been before. Forks looked different without Daniel.

Charlie helped me pull my bags out of the trunk of the car and I trudged up the steps after Charlie with the duffle bag over my shoulder, Charlie with my suitcase.

He unlocked the door and turned to look at me.

"You must be tired, I'll show you to your room." I just nodded in reply, I didn't feel like talking.

He walked me up stairs passed the bathroom and to my room on the right, across from my room was Daniel's old room. I felt that all familiar ache starting in my chest. I quickly entered my room before I could stand and stare at his bedroom door too much.

Upon entering my room I discovered that everything was the same as it always was. The same lamp sat on the old bedside table, the walls were still painted the same Lilac colour.

The only new additions were the new purple bed clothes and and old...old computer that sat on the work desk in the corner.

I stood in the same spot looking around for a few minutes. "Well I didn't re-paint or anything because I don't know what colours you like, You still like purple don't you?" Charlie asked.

I turned to look at him "Yea purple is great." I mumbled. Charlie looked relieved.

"That's good." He said.

"Yeah." I said awkwardly.

We stood in silence for a few minutes until Charlie turned to me and said "Well I'll leave you to get settled." With that he walked out the door.

I stood for a few seconds and surveyed the room. I stared at the desk beside my bed, From where I stood I could see a photo frame. It was covered in dust so I couldn't see the picture inside it, but I knew exactly what picture it was.

I walked slowley towards it and sat on my bed facing the window. I picked it up in my hands and looked down at the dust covering it. I lifted a shakey hand and with one finger I wiped a smudge of dirt away.

I could see my brown hair through the glass. I froze not sure if I should continue, but I couldn't stop myself. I wiped the rest of the dust away with my fingers and looked intently at my hands wich were covered in dust.

I wiped my fingers on the leg of the denim jeans I was wearing and then I looked down at the photograph in my hands.

It was Daniel and me back home in Phoenix, we were about ten in the picture. It was so sunny out and I stood in my sundress while Daniel stood beside me in a pair of red shorts and a t-shirt . I had a scrape on my knee.

I couldn't see it in the photo but I remember because I had fallen and was crying, Daniel ran over to me and gently lifted my knee and told me that he would protect me from my own clumsy feet. It made me stop crying. Daniel helped me up and I stumbled again and we both burst out in laughter.

That's when the picture was taken my head was thrown back and I had tears in my eyes. I felt myself giggle just looking at the picture. Then I looked closely at Daniel.

He was bent at the waist laughing but he still has his hand on my arm ready to catch me if I fell again. I smiled for a second and just stared at he photo and then I suddenly couldn't hold it back any longer and the tears started pouring down my cheeks.

Sobs were wracking my whole body and I was shaking. I hadn't cried like this since I found out Daniel was dead. I had been numb the last few months but now being here in forks I couldn't pretend anymore. I couldn't hold it in, I didn't want to hold it in.

I layed down on my bed and hugged the photograph tight to my chest and sobbed. I cried for my mother and my father, I cried for having to move to Forks and leave everything behind, I cried because tomorrow was my first day at forks high and I was terrified but most of all I cried because Daniel wasn't here, he wasn't with me and I missed him so much.

I don't know how long I cried for, eventually I stopped and I was left with red,puffy eyes, a headache and that tiredness you always get after having a good cry. I looked at the clock on the bedside table it read 11:30 pm.

I didn't move I just lay there curled up with the frame clutched to my chest and let the hours drift past. Charlie checked in on me at 12:30 and I pretended to be asleep.

He only stayed for a second and then went to bed. I remained awake untill finally at 3:17 am I fell into a fitfull sleep.

A/N: Well hope you enjoy I'm trying to make my chapters longer but I'm finding it hard. I'll keep working on it. Thanks for reading! xxxAoife