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Song for this chapter... Closer to Love by Mat Kearney.
I hardly slept that night, After five minutes I finally managed to pull myself away from the door and up stairs to my room. I got dressed for bed and then climbed under the covers, when my head hit the pillow I expected to fall right asleep, I didn't.
I was awake for ages, my mind going nintey mph thinking about everything it possibly could.
I started worrying, What if Edward changed his mind? or What if he doesn't really like me at all? Maybe he just felt sorry for me.
I knew that was stupid, he wouldn't risk his job if he just felt sorry for me. I knew he liked me but I couldn't stop my stupid brain from conjuring up these thoughts.
I was afraid that he didn't feel the same way I did, and that really scared me because I liked him, I really really liked him. I wasn't there yet but I think with a little more time I may be in love with him, it was so easy to fall for him, too easy really.
I knew I should be more careful, that I shouldn't just put myself out there like that because I knew that if this were to end, this thing between Edward and I, I wouldn't survive it. Maybe that sounds a little bit melodramatic but it was the truth.
When Daniel died, a part of me died with him, I closed myself off to protect myself because if I didn't get close to anyone, didn't get attached then it wouldn't hurt so much when they left. Then I met Edward and those damn walls I had spent so long building crumbled to the ground the second I laid my eyes on him.
I couldn't lose him, it was as simple as that, even the thought of losing him made my chest tighten, it felt as if a bag full of sand was weighing down on it. No, I couldn't lose Edward
All I could do was wait, wait until tomorrow and see how he reacts when he see's me, with that I finally fell into a fitful sleep.
I woke up before my alarm the next morning and I decided to go have a shower since I didn't have one last night and my hair was a complete mess from the rain yesterday.
I sighed when the hot water hit my face and I could feel my tense muscles relaxing. I felt much better after I stepped out of the shower, I walked back to my room wrapped up in my fluffy towel and opened my wardrobe. Biting my lip, I couldn't decide what to wear, I wanted to look nice. I told myself to just shut up and pick something it wasn't as if my wardrobe choice was going to convince Edward to stay with me
I gabbed a random black t-shirt; Van Morrison, awesome. Then I pulled on my favorite pair of skinny jeans and my black converse, I looked at myself in the mirror and shrugged, it will have to do.
The closer I got to school the more nervous I got, throughout the day it got worse, in Art class we were doing still life drawing and I felt so tense, Ms Shellie walked up to me and asked "Bella Dear, Are you okay?"
I got a fright and jumped a little in my chair banging my knee off the edge of the table "Ahhh," I screamed.
I bent over and started rubbing my kneecap where I could tell a bruise was forming.
"I'm Fine, Absolutely fine." I managed to squeak out.
"Are you sure hun?" she asked raising an eyebrow she had a small smile on her face, obviously at my clumsiness.
"yeah yeah, I'm fine really." I was like that for the rest of the day, banging and walking into things because I kept spacing out, over thinking things. By the time I got to English I was a nervous wreck.
I entered the classroom biting my bottom lip while my hands were fisted at my sides. Edward sat behind his desk and the moment I entered his head shot up and looked at me. He gave me a huge smile and immediately I released the breath I'd been holding and my entire body relaxed. I smiled back.
I took my usual seat and waited for everyone else to arrive never once letting my eyes drift away from Edward.
When everyone else had arrived he walked around and handed out sheets of paper, when he handed me mine our fingers touched and Edward ran his fingers over mine as he pulled away, My skin tingled from where he touched me.
He walked back to his desk and as he did I looked down at the sheet he handed out.
Sonnet 18
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Tho art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimmed.
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall Death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st.
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
Oh God he chose a sonnet, a love sonnet.
"So can anyone tell me who wrote this?" Edward asked looking at us all.
The majority of the class called out "Shakespeare."
"Correct, what can you tell me about it?" He asked.
Mike from the back of the class asked "Didn't he write this about another Dude?"
Did he really just say dude?
"Yes, It is believed that this was written for a man, although we cannot be 100% sure." Edward smiled.
"So he was gay!" Jessica asked.
"Not necessarily, it could have been written for a friend, maybe he was gay, again we can't be sure." Edward said looking directly at her.
"So can anyone actually tell me about the poem itself?" he asked.
"It's a love poem." I offered.
"How do we know that?"
"Well Shakespeare says 'Shall I compare thee to a summer's day./ Thou art more lovely and more temperate.' He is basically saying to the person he wrote about, that they are better, more beautiful and more constant than a summer's day."
"Very Good Bella." I blushed.
He went on for the rest of the class explaining each line of the poem, asking our opinions and so on and when the bell rand to signal the end of class while I was putting my books into my bag Edward asked " Bella, Can I see you for a few minutes."
I shrugged apologetically at Angela who was waiting on me, she smiled as if to say it's fine and waved at me before leaving the classroom and shutting the door behind her.
It was just me and Edward.
I turned to Edward he was standing, leaning against his desk. "Hi." I smiled.
"Hey." he gave me his crooked grin I loved so much.
"We need to talk." he said, he tone remained light so I knew that although it was serious, I didn't think he was breaking up with me, if we could even break up, were we even girlfriend and boyfriend?
I walked towards him and sat down beside him on the edge of the desk.
He turned to look at me.
"The way I see it we have three options : 1. we stop this, what we are doing" he motioned between the two of us. My breathing stopped for a few seconds.
"I don't want to do that so that brings us to option number 2. We keep doing what we are doing and keep it a secret, and hope we don't get caught. I'm not too keen on this option either, I don't like the idea of lying to everyone and I personally think it's too risky" I nodded in agreement, it was too risky.
"That leaves us with option 3. I quit this job, hand in my letter of resignation and I find a job somewhere else." I gasped, is he insane?
"What? Edward no, you love this job and where else in Forks could you teach." I demanded.
"I never said I would get another teaching job Bella, I could get a different job." He smiled sadly.
No, I couldn't let him do that.
"No, Edward you love your job, you love teaching I know you do, I won't let you give that up just for me." I said teary eyed.
" I do love this job, but Bella I Lo...I care about you more, I'll do this if it means being with you." He nearly said love, oh my God he nearly said he loved me.
"Edward there is a fourth option." I'd been thinking about it all day.
" I could transfer to a different class, that way you won't be my teacher anymore. I mean its not completely perfect, we would still have to keep things on the down low until I graduate but at least if someone does find out at least I wouldn't be your student anymore" I said hurriedly, hoping to convince him.
"Bella, I don't know, I don't really like the idea of hiding and lying." he said skeptically.
"But it isn't lying Edward, we just aren't parading it around, we are already half way through the year, we aren't doing anything wrong, Edward this could work." I said hopefully.
"You really want to do this, you are okay about hiding our relationship?" He asked.
"Yes at least for a while if it means we get to be together and you get to keep your job then yes."
"Okay" he said hesitatingly.
"If you are sure that you are okay with this, then I'll do it Bella." He smiled and me and I smiled too. I leaned over and gave him a quick hug.
I looked over at the clock on the wall and realised I was late for my next class.
"I better go." I said reluctantly standing up from the desk. Edward looked down at his watch and frowned.
"I'll write you a note to explain why you were late" He said.
"Thank you." I said while he wrote the note out. He handed it to me and said "Oh and Bella, I was, well I was wondering if you wanted to be my girlfriend?" he cringed and I couldn't help but laugh he seemed so awkward. I couldn't stop the blush and the gigantic smile from taking over my face.
"I would love to be your girlfriend Edward."
"Good, and I guess as your boyfriend it would be perfectly normal for me to ask for your number." He smiled. He wanted my number!
"Yeah sure, here.." I took the phone he had in his outstreched hand and typed it into his phone before handing it back to him, he saved it before asking me for my phone so he could add his.
"You're not going to give me a detention for using my phone during school are you?" I couldn't help but tease him.
He smiled at me " No I think I can let it slide this once Miss Swan." he said in his best stern voice, I giggled...yes I actually giggled before pulling my phone from my bag and handing it to him.
He typed in his number before handing it back to me, I typed Edwards name in before hitting the save button.
Okay I said stuffing it back into my bag and slinging the bag over my shoulder, I better get going. I looked around checking that no one could see us before I stood on my tippy toes and gave Edward a quick, far to brief for my liking kiss.
"I'll send in my transfer for at the end of the day" I said.
He grabbed my hand "I'm going to miss having you in my class." he said.
"I'll miss being in your class but we are doing the right thing." I smiled.
"I know" he said dropping my hand I turned and walked towards the door, when my hand was on the handle Edward called out " Bella!" I turned around to him.
"I'll call you later!" he said with a smirk. I grinned back before turning opening the door and exiting the room, all I could think was Edward Cullen was my boyfriend.
True to my word when the final bell rang I headed down to reception and handed in my transfer form. When Mrs Cope asked my why I wanted to switch classes I just told her that I had covered some of the material in my old school and I was hoping that by changing to a different class I may be able to study some new things, she seemed to believe it because she didn't question me further.
Angela was a different story " I don't get it that's all I thought you liked Mr Cullen's English?" she asked.
"I do Ang, but its like I said, I've covered a lot of the stuff already." She looked at me skeptically.
"Its the truth Angela." I insisted, she let it drop after that, Thank God.
Edward also kept his word at that evening at 8 o' clock I received a text message.
Hey Girlfriend,
Just keeping good on my promise :)
-E
Oh god he uses cute smiley faces.
Hello Boyfriend,
Glad to see you can keep your word ;) what have you been up to this evening.
- B
I couldn't believe I was texting Edward...My boyfriend.
I have had the pleasure of grading papers all evening...exciting stuff!
What about You?
-E
He actually wants to know about my evening.
I've been doing homework, then cooking dinner and right now...well right before you text me I was listening to music and drawing.
P.S. Did you give me an A on my essay? ;)
-B
It was so easy to tease and laugh with him.
I'm shocked Miss Swan that you would try to trick me into giving your grade away;0...I won't give in seems you will have to wait until tomorrow :)
P.S. What song were you listening and what pray tell are you drawing?
- E
He was teasing me back.
I was listening to Closer to Love by Mat Kearney and as for the drawing...don't laugh at me...I was drawing a shoe...Ms Shellie seems to think we should draw them constantly...I'm giving it a go LOL!
-B
It was true the last few days she had been making us draw shoes...I have no idea why, it was easy so I wasn't complaining and I liked drawing anything at all.
"Hmm interesting...good song choice... "You pull me closer to love" ;) As for the shoe drawing, I'm not laughing I can hardly draw a stick figure never mind a shoe and I guess that is my cue to say goodnight and let you get back to it, I'll talk to you tomorrow!
-E
I blushed when I read his "You pull me closer to love" comment, was he hinting that maybe like me he was falling to, I hope so.
Yes, I'll talk to you tomorrow...Goodnight Edward :)
-B
Goodnight,
Sweet dreams beautiful xxx
-E
He called me beautiful...Yep I was definitely falling for Edward Cullen and I was falling fast.
-L&L-
Over the next two weeks we continued to text one another. I had been moved to Mrs Malone's English class, She was nice and a great teacher but she wasn't as good as Edward, nobody was as good as Edward.
We didn't really talk during school, maybe once or twice but nothing more, I didn't see him outside of school and we hadn't kissed since that day in class. I wanted to, I really wanted to but we hadn't had the opportunity so we just continued texting.
Every night at 8 o' Clock Edward texted me, sometimes it went on for hours. We usually spoke about nothing of importance, small nothings, sometimes if I'd had a bad day I would tell him about it, he was always interested.
He never got bored of me and I loved that about him.
Yesterday: Friday, As usual Edward and I texted, we talked about our day, then he asked me what I was doing this weekend and I told him I wasn't doing anything and asked him the same thing.
He didn't reply straight away which surprised me because he always replied quickly, I sat waiting for the text message to come in but instead my phone rang. I jumped before looking at the caller ID Edward.
We had never spoken over the phone before, he had never called, just texted.
I quickly answered the phone anxious to hear his voice.
"Hello" I breathed out with a sigh.
"Hi Bella" His voice was like chocolate...smooth.
"Your calling me?" I asked.
He laughed "Yeah I guess I am..I don't know why I haven't before. I like hearing your voice."
I blushed"I like hearing your voice too."
" So about this weekend, you asked me what I was doing" he said to me.
"Yeah I did." I had no idea where he was going with this.
"Well, I'm not doing anything actually but well...I..em I would like to do something..with you...if you wanted to do something that is..." He was rambling.
I cut him off " I would love to do something with you Edward, What did you have in mind?"
" I was thinking we could go see a movie in Port Angeles?" he asked.
"Yeah that sounds great, when?"
I heard him sigh in relief as if he were afraid I was going to say no.
"Is tomorrow at say 7 o' clock okay or is that too late?" he offered.
"No seven is great, Charlie is working late so it won't be a problem, I'll get the bus" I said the last part hesitantly, I wasn't very keen on busses especially not after the accident.
"What! No God No, I'll pick you up and drive you." Edward said in a tone that told me there was no chance of changing his mind.
"Edward you can't just dive into my estate and pull up outside my house, its a small town someone will see you"
" Then meet me outside of your estate, I'm diving you Bella no arguments...what kind of boyfriend would I be if I let you take the bus?" he asked.
"Okay then." I agreed.
"Okay" I could hear the smile in his voice.
"I'll see you tomorrow at 7 Bella."
"Okay."
"Goodnight sweet girl." He said.
"Goodnight Edward." I whispered before I hung up.
I looked down at the phone in my hand... I was going on a date with Edward Cullen.
A/N: Okay there it isfrom this point on things will probably start getting faster.
I may not be able to update for a while because my Leaving Cert is starting soon..for those of you that don't know what that is, it's the exams you take in your final year of secondry (High) school. We don't do continuous assesment just the exams at the end and lucky me I have a total of 10 to God i've already done my enterprise, and three of my art ones aswell as my french and Irish oral exams at least that takes a bit of pressure off!
I hope to update before them but if not I just wanted to let you know why the update would be late. Wish me luck
xxxAoife