Waking up the next day I felt strange, the night before I been out walking in the meadows by my half-sister Abby's and just felt lost to the world. Nothing seemed to be going right, first having been sick and emergency surgery and now I had just found out I was pregnant. As I talked to Abby I noticed half of all my stories seemed to be fuzzy in my mind. I could not remember who took me to the hospital or how I got home. Hell I didn't know what had possessed me to come out to see Abby today. I looked at her, "I think I am losing my mind."

She stared at me in the strangest way then looked up. In the doorway was a man I had not seen before. He came in and she introduced us. His name was Edward, his voice was low and something about him made me stare but he barely looked my way. He would not meet my gaze with his eyes. He gazed past me or looked down as he talked. Strange but something about him was so familiar. I shrugged it off and he stood to leave then Abby came to me, "You are not losing your mind. At least not yet."

I was watching Edward leave the room then I turned back to Abby, "who is he?"

"Just a close family friend, why?"

"He seems so...have we really not met before?"

Abby seemed nervous but changed the subject quickly, "No I don't think so, now you said you have to tell me what you found out at the doctor's?""

Still thinking of Edward I looked at her confused, "what?"

"Where is your mind? Wait." Abby laughed and motioned towards the door. "You like what you see there?"

I blushed and nodded, "yeah he is hot but back to what you asked me, doctor said two weeks and back to work but there is more." I sighed, "somehow I got pregnant."

"Edward?" Abby whispered in shock.

"What the fuck? Abby I just met him, how could he?" Then my mind reeled and I saw Edward, I saw him at a party that Christian and I were at but he was just off in the distance but even from there I could see his green eyes looking my way. I shuddered at the memory, what was it about him? Then I turned back to my sister, "No dumb ass, Christian's."

"Did you tell him?"

"I am afraid too, he won't be happy. Part of our agreement is no pregnancy."

"You really should let me read that agreement of yours, you just blindly signed it."

"I know I should and I can, you think you can find me a way out of it?"

"You can just leave."

"Um, yeah no I can't. He said I am bound to it for 6 months."

"Jesus Christ, haven't you been with him for a few months already? So it must have been a 9 month period?"

Nodding numbly I sigh, "I guess so."

"No guessing, tomorrow I will come by your place and I want to read that thing but now seriously what are you doing about the baby? Are you keeping it?"

"I don't know yet but I can't see myself killing it. I think that would haunt me forever. You know after the other ones I lost."

Abby just nodded and my mind went back to the family I used to have. Once upon a time I thought my life was perfect. I had a loving husband and we quickly had two children then the fairy tale ended one night when he told me that he loved me but was not in love with me anymore. My heart fell as he told me that was in love with someone else. Never would anything hurt me as deeply as that did. It was like a knife in my heart that he twisted when he took the kids with him days later. I would have fought harder and not let them out of my sight that was the last time I saw any of them. The plane they were on crashed and they didn't survive. In the back of my mind I thought the sheer trauma of the loss that I would never have children again and this one was not planned but how could I punish the child for that? I knew that Christian would hate it but if I could get on my own before I gave birth maybe he didn't have to know.

"Bella?"

I looked up at Abby, "yeah?"

"Just be careful, I know you feel trapped and want to break free but no crazy moves, you have that baby to think of too now."

"I know and I will not do anything too crazy I promise."

After leaving Abby I head back to my place but as I turn the key I hear my name behind me and as I peek over my shoulder I see Christian. His face is dark, "Bella, you haven't answered any of your texts from me."

"Christian my cell is dead. I was going to call you when I got home."

"You had me worried you were gone with him."

"With who?"

"You want to play that game again, did you tell Edward good bye?"

"Edward? I was with my sister."

Staring at my face I see a small smile play over Christian's face. "Yes Edward, he is the one who wanted to meet you there."

"I talked to an Edward, but I don't remember anyone wanting to meet me there."

"Bella are you alright?" He moved closer hugging me, "you act as though you cannot remember just this morning."

"I remember things just fine." I growl back at him and walk towards my bedroom. "Why are you here?"

"I was just checking on you. I will be right back, have you eaten?"

"No but I am not hungry." I watch him as he calls someone then I turn my back to change. As I come back out I hear him laugh hard and as he speaks to someone he thanks them for giving up and realizing that it was the right thing to do when he hangs up I look over at him. "Christian?"

"Yes?"

"I am tired, I just want to sleep. Are you staying or what?"

"You go to sleep, I will let myself out but tomorrow after you wake up come over to my place."

I just nod and head to my bed, as I walk across the room my foot steps onto a sticky spot. I turn on the lights and notice a blood stain on the floor. That must have been from when I passed out before I was taken in for my emergency surgery. As I head into the bathroom to get something to clean it out I freeze, it's almost as if I am not alone. I feel a presence. Then as I gaze in the mirror and hear a song in my head. I turn at once looking out into my bedroom. No one here but me yet I can still feel it. I move back to the sink shaking my head as I grab water to clean up the floor then I hear the song again. Without thinking I sing softly with it.

"Love, I get so lost sometimes. Days pass and this emptiness fills my heart...All my instincts they return...
Without a noise, without my pride I reach out from the inside..."

As I sing about reaching I gasp as I feel a touch as if someone is touching my face. I close my eyes and images of green eyes haunt me. That is all I can see but I know those green eyes mean something. Frustrated I open my eyes and clean up the stain on the floor but I can still feel the presence. It's like its behind me then I turn and its gone but it comes back. Who would be there? Have I lost anyone who might haunt me, that thought sobers me as I think of my ex-husband and our children. That thought is in my mind as I try to sleep.

I finally fall asleep only to wake up drained and exhausted, I am sick again this morning. Will this morning sickness thing ever end? The baby is the one thing that scares me the most, can I do this by myself? Then my thoughts wander back to the green eyes, they were in my dreams too, who do I know that has green eyes? I run through the people I know, my sister Abby has them but it's not her eyes I see. Then my cell goes off, it's Christian. I answer him that yes I am up and will be over soon. I just need to figure out what to do with this mess I have made while not telling Christian.

The next two weeks pass quietly, Christian wants to see me constantly but he is being so sweet. I swear he knows about the baby but I would not know how. Then I remember the doctor, I will never return to that office and I hope he didn't tell him. I am not ready to think about that. Right now I am getting by day to day. Abby told the copy of the contract I signed with Christian to review it but no news on that front yet. The time has dragged by till I went back to work today.

Sitting at work my cell went off again and as I stare at it I noticed something strange. I had an Edward in my messages. Wait Edward...Christian kept talking about me meeting one and then the weird way Abby mentioned his name when talking about my being pregnant as if he could be the one. Fuck me, why can't remember him. I push my work aside and started rereading the messages. Each message just confuses me more, I said I loved him but I cannot remember him? I am tempted to text him back but instead I text Abby a random text. "Hey sis, quick random question what is Ed's last name?"

I start to read at my laptop as I wait for her answer then I see an old link pop up. I click it and it reads about imprinting. What the fuck? I shake my head and close the window but don't delete the link. I must have saved it for a reason, then Abby texts me back with a why? I laugh, "Please just tell me, my brain is dead today."

"He is Edward De Santis." She finally answers me. I stare at the screen, the name seems so damn familiar. I pick up my cell and look at the messages again then shrug it off.

I don't think about it again for weeks as I am trying to find ways to hide my pregnancy from Christian. He has finally drug me back into the playroom and my heart isn't in it but I let him do as he wishes. While he ravishes my body my mind is lost. I see green eyes still and cannot figure out whose eyes they are until one day Christian made a cold remark about me looking different. "You seem changed, like that monster." I turn my head to him, the only one he even talks about to me about is Edward...as if he wants to know if I know him. Whoever this Edward is he talks about he is a threat to Christian.

Later that night I am out with Christian at a party bored and pretending to drink a cocktail. I bump into a tall man and take a deep breath in, the green eyes. I stare into them but he won't look right at me. "I am sorry."

"Dee...I mean sorry." He darts away from me at once.

"No wait, Edward right?"

"Yes I am Edward, sorry to be rude."

"If you don't want to talk to me it's cool." I shrug and grab a drink off a passing tray.

"You shouldn't drink that."

At his words my blood runs cold, "what did you say?" I stare up at him, his green eyes are wide but he doesn't look directly at me. He says nothing. "How do you know?"

"Dee…"

"And Dee why are you calling me that?" I lean closer then Christian appears out of nowhere.

"Bella, let's go. I didn't know he would be here."

"Who?"

"Edward."

I stare after him knowing he is the one who is haunting my dreams. Why can't I remember him? I shove Christian to the side, "No I want to talk to him." I see a grimace cross Christian's face and he grabs my arm tugging hard while I cry out. "Let me go."

"Not here, not now."

"Fuck you Christian, I am staying. Good bye."

"You are not going to leave me and go to him." With that my arm is tugged again and I am swept along. As he pulls me out of the room I catch a glimpse of him again. He looks up at me but then away carefully. He doesn't want to meet my eyes with his. Why? I need to know if those are the eyes that haunt my dreams.

Each day that I spend in this web of hurt and lies with Christian, the more unhappy I become. I know that I need to move on but if he won't let me go I can't do it alone. Who would help me? I know Abby would and she has been reviewing that stupid contract for me but the clause that Christian mentioned is iron clad. Unless he drops me, I am stuck. Then I think of the baby I carry that he never wanted, would knowing about it be enough to push him to want me gone? I am scared to find out but I know that I cannot hide it much longer.

Then my thoughts stray again to Edward, I read and reread our old messages. There is obviously feelings there and the messages are recent but I cannot fucking remember sending them. What is happening to me and how could I forgot someone who I obviously love. Would he help me?

Days later I am still wondering about this Edward but Christian has been unbearable, watching every move I make then complaining when I tell him to ease up on the security. His main guard has been following me around the clock, every time I look behind me there he is. Finally one day I see my opportunity, Taylor is in Christian's office and they are talking. I crept to the stairwell and ease the door open, when no one looks I grab my purse and cell to run down the stairs. Once outside I do not try to get my car, I know that he can track that instead I wave my arms wildly for a cab then inside I am confused, where am I going?

I tell the driver to take me to Abby and I pull out my cell looking at the messages from Edward again. Before I can talk myself out of it I dial his number, I don't let him talk but ramble, "Don't hang up and please don't ignore me. I know that I know you, I need to see you. Please meet me at my sister's house. I am headed there now."

"On my way." I hear him answer then the lines goes dead.

At Abby's house I wander around on the outside porch, she is not here and it's just as well I am too nervous to talk. I need to know what is going on and I think Edward is the key to all my fuzzy thoughts and the green eyes. I wait and wait for what seems like hours but it is only minutes till I see another car pull up. Its him, I bound down the stairs towards him. I catch him off guard and as he gets out of his car we stare at each eye to eye. My violet eyes widens as they met his green ones. My world spins as I am drawn into those eyes.

Edward, his name echoed through my mind and pictures flashed by my eyes. Then it changes to him and me, not now but in the future. I gasp out as I see what looks like me pregnant then I fall back. I feel his arms around me as I whisper, "you, it's you."

"Dee are you alright?"

That name he keeps calling me when everyone around us calls me Bella, why does he do that, then suddenly I remember. "I am your Dee." The words come out soft and breathless as the memories start to return to me.

"Yes you are but stop please, you are in a better place now. Stop trying to remember me."

"Edward." I turn to gaze up at his eyes. "I have felt like I was losing my mind but now I know what I lost was you. Your green eyes I see every time I close my eyes, please do not push me away."

"It's better for you if we are not friends."

"I don't care, I need you."

"You need me?" His eyes are soft and his hand moves down over my stomach.

"Yes I need you. Since you disappeared my life has been strange."

"Dee I have been watching, you need to tell Christian about the baby."

"I can't only you and Abby know. Abby is trying to find a way to break the contract."

"You won't find a way, if he wants you he will track you to the ends of the earth. Christian would have to let you go."

"I got out today."

"Oh my god Dee you snuck out?" Ed looks up in alarm and then quickly pulls me towards the house, "inside quick."

"Why? He won't find me here."

Just then my cell starts to go off, it's Christian. I just scare at it numbly and then look at Ed, "I think it's too late."

"Don't let him track you, turn it off." But as I fumble with it, the call gets accepted, I can hear Christian yelling though the phone at me.

"Leave Edward please, he won't hurt me."

"Yes he will, especially if he learns you were here with me." Ed stares at me. "Come away with me now."

"I can't just run away." I pat my stomach. "I have to think of this child and my life."

"If you want to keep that baby come away with me now." He pulls me into his car and drives off. I am dazed and just staring at him.

Memories are flooding over me slowly, I see him behind me in my mirror then it hits me. "You have been watching over me, were you in my apartment the other day?"

"How did you know?"

"I don't know but I can feel when you are near." I shrug then gaze over at him then out the window. "Where are you going?"

"My place."

"But won't he look for me there?"

"He would not dare, you will be safe until we figure out what to do."

I just nod then think of my cell, I dropped it on the ground so at least Christian cannot track me with it... "How did you know that Christian would track me?"

"He and I were friends once, close friends and I know how he thinks. He likes to always know where his most prized possessions are."

"Possession huh? I am no man's possession." I snap at him without meaning to then sigh as I lean back.

Suddenly I am exhausted. I close my eyes for what feels like a second then I hear Ed announce we are there. At first glance his house is breath-taking. So much larger than I would have expected, "You live here alone." He nods making me laugh, "Wow, and I thought Christian had a big place."

"When you live forever you have time to get all that you want."

"Live forever?"

"I think I have to help you remember some things."

"Yes you do." I nod my voice soft as I look back from the house to him. Then I have to ask, "Do you have all that you want Edward?"

"No, not yet but I know what I want."

"I hope you get it, you deserve it."

He growls at me at that, "You need to be reminded who I really am. I do not deserve what I truly deserve."

"Then remind me."

"I shall but you need rest first."

Without an argument I follow him into the house and let him pamper me. I drift off to sleep feeling safe and sound, his presence calming me in a way that I had not felt in so long. As I start to drift I hear his words, "Think back and remember me." And I do, I see our first meeting and then I start to remember what he said. In my sleep I whisper out "wicked." Then let myself go, lost in memories…they make me breathless as darkness spins around us both but with my hand in his I know I am safe. Each memoryjust makes me move closer to him till I can almost feel the warmth of his breath on my neck and the heavy feeling of his arm over my side. I wake up with tears in my eyes, I know what I want. I want him.

"Dee? Dee baby can you hear me?"

Slowly I open my eyes so afraid that it was all a dream but no Edward is right there staring down at me with a smile on his face. "I can."

"Good, I hate to do this but you should get up. I think you should call Abby and let her know that you are safe. She has been calling my cell every hour looking for you."

I sit up at once and he hands me his cell. I watch him leave the room then call my sister. "Hey Abbs, so sorry that I didn't call you."

"So you are alive?"

My heart stops as I hear Christian's voice. "I am, what do you want?"

"You. You will come back to my apartment now. We need to talk."

"No, I won't."

"Unless you want your sister harmed, you will Bella. And I think I know what you have been hiding. How is Edward?"

"Don't you dare mention his name to me and if you hurt Abby….."

"What? You will do nothing, you will bring your pregnant ass home now."

I pale, he knows. Shit he knows. "No its better this way."

"The timer is starting, I have a car waiting outside for you. Now you have 3 minutes Bella."

"You know where I am?" I peek out the window to see a sleek black car pull up. Damn it he is not bluffing.

"Yes now you have 2 minutes and 30 seconds."

FUCK YOU CHRISTIAN!" I scream and hang up on him then start crying. What can I do? I have no choice, I will not let him hurt Abby and he knows about the baby.

I am trying to stand up when I see Edward come in. He leans against the door frame with a scowl on his face, I notice his eyes are blood red. "Where are you going?"

"I….I have to, he has Abby. I can't …..I have to go to him."

"Bella this might be the only chance you have to break free before he hurts you."

"But Abby."

He sighed then nodded, "Go I will watch as much as I can but take this." He hands me a new cell phone while I stare at him. "Then you can reach me but he cannot track you. Dee I love you, please be careful but I will be right behind you."

I nod to him then head out to the car. Taylor steps out and opens the door. I turn to look back at Edward, he is in the door way. I know he is watching just until we pull away to jump into his car to follow us but something inside my heart is breaking, what if I never see him again? I forgot him once, what if it happens again…..why do I feel like this is the last time I will look upon him?