The rest of the day seemed to pass in a haze for Shizuo as he went back to work with Tom. They only needed to collect money from three guys who all didn't put up fight once they saw Shizuo trailing behind. It wasn't as if Shizuo was in any mood to fight anyway with all the thoughts running through his mind.

Hatefully yours

"Tch…" Shizuo mumbled to himself as he walked next to Tom.

"Hey Shizuo we're all done today. I'll see you tomorrow around 10 like always."

"Ok Tom… See you tomorrow."

As he was walking away, he felt his phone buzz in his pocket.

[New message from Flea: All done with work, still coming over?]

Shizuo paused, wincing at the prospect of seeing Izaya so quickly after learning about the box, but at the same time, he didn't want to leave Izaya alone either. He sighed, typing his response to the text

[Yeah, I'm heading over now.]

[New Message From Flea: Yay :) now we can watch that movie like we were supposed to before Tom-san took you away :( ]

Shizuo smirked at his boyfriend's childish use of emoticons and typed his reply

[Haha I guess we will… See you soon…]

He walked in the direction of the train station thinking about what he was going to say to Izaya about this whole ordeal. He couldn't just go up to him and ask 'Hey flea, so I noticed you're suicidal. Let's talk about that!' Knowing Izaya, even if he asked, he probably wouldn't want to talk about it, or would lie about what he truly intended to use that gun for. Shizuo fumbled nervously with his cigarette lighter in his pocket as he felt the train lurch forward. He silently cursed the 'No Smoking' sign above the door and made a silent resolution to pull out a cigarette the second he stepped off of the train.

Maybe it would be best not to mention it at all. Thought Shizuo. He hadn't considered how old the note really was. For all he knew, it could've been written a long time ago, stowed away and then forgotten about.

This particularly made sense considering the tone of the note. It had been months since they had been seriously trying to kill each other, and even then it had been mixed with violent sex every now and then. Once they made their relationship "official" they still fought frequently and had disagreements but it was nothing compared to the animosity that they used to share. Izaya had even said out loud to him on one occasion. "I don't understand how I ever could have hated you as much as I did Shizu-chan. We're more alike than anyone I've ever met… I'm not going to say this a lot, but I actually do appreciate you… and what we have right now" It was the most heartfelt thing he'd ever heard the flea say, and as much as Izaya liked to argue that it was just his brain on a post-orgasmic high he knew that it was from the heart.

Shizuo smiled to himself as he got off the train and fished out the cigarette he was itching for.

Just you wait flea, I'm going to give you a reason to stay

Izaya and Shizuo sat snuggled together on the couch watching that documentary Izaya was talking about earlier. Shizuo had no idea what it was even about, choosing instead to study his lover's face each time the video talked about something that sparked his interest.

"The Prince was such a good book Shizu-chan. This documentary does a really good job explaining his philosophy though. I'm sure even a brute like you could understand Machiavellian politics after watching this."

"Yeah."

Izaya craned his neck to look up at the blonde behind him.

"Are you even watching?"

"No…But I like watching you…"

Shizuo leaned in to give Izaya a kiss on the lips. Izaya returned it greedily, but then quickly pulled back.

"I know Shizu-chan is a chain smoker, but you really outdid yourself today… everything ok? You only smoke like this when you're stressed."

Shizuo really hoped Izaya wouldn't notice his accelerating heartbeat at that statement.

"Yeah, I'm alright… just a rough day at work I guess."

"UGH, me too. As much as I love my humans some of them can just be so BORING! Today I had this woman come in looking for information on her husband's rival company and hearing her talk for half an hour about how he 'always gets home late' and 'never makes time for the kids' just made me wanna kill myself."

Shizuo let out a nervous laugh that boomed through the entire apartment. Izaya paused to stare quizzically at his face.

"…are you sure everything is ok?" asked Izaya. That look of concern returned to his face, and Shizuo considered bringing it up right then and there.

But he didn't, and just kissed him instead.

"Yeah I'm alright."

He brought his lips to his again, deepening the kiss until Izaya moaned. Izaya turned to face Shizuo, slinking his arms around his neck and bringing their bodies even closer.

"Hey… still up for that second round I promised earlier." Izaya whispered seductively along the shell of his ear.

"Mmmmmn. I might just take you up on that…" he chuckled. "What about that Macaroni documentary you were watching…"

Izaya fished out the TV remote from under him and paused the video.

"It can wait."

Izaya went back to kissing his monster, pressing his tongue along his lower lip begging for entrance. Shizuo complied immediately, allowing his tongue to explore the warmth of his mouth. Shizuo picked him up by the waist and carried him to his bedroom. He set Izaya down on the edge of the bed and began peppering kisses along his neck while Izaya wrapped his legs around his waist. With his legs firmly on the ground, Shizuo slowly ground their crotches together, eliciting a lewd moan from Izaya.

"Mmnh Shizuo…"

Shizuo chuckled into his kisses and moved to pull off Izaya's shirt.

"I love it when you say my name, my real name." Shizuo leaned down to give a soft bite onto Izaya's neck. "My name is Shizuo Heiwajima, try to get it right."

Izaya laughed at the obsolete taunt. Between thrusts from Shizuo, his arms scrambled upwards to undo the buttons on his vest and shirt. His arms explored his bare chest and back, his fingernails leaving red trails and pulling his body closer to his. Shizuo moaned at the skin on skin contact and moved his hands to Izaya's belt, dragging his pants and boxers down with it. His length immediately sprang up uncovered and Shizuo got down on his knees to take it into his mouth.

"Mmmnnh Shizuooo" moaned Izaya, bucking his hips into Shizuo's mouth. He tangled his fingers into blonde tresses as Shizuo moved a hand over his thigh to keep him from moving so much.

"Hmmmn Sh-Shi-zu-chan. Ahh you almost never go down on me. What's the occasion? Ahh-I didn't forget my birthday again did I-AHHHHH"

Shizuo didn't let him finish that question as he gave him a rather hard suck on the tip. Izaya sat up quickly and reached over to yank Shizuo on top of him on the bed.

"Let's stop playing around" said Izaya lustfully as he pulled his face down to his. When Shizuo pushed his tongue into his mouth Izaya could taste himself and he felt his cock twitch with need.

"Mmmnh Shizuo I want you…"

Shizuo stood up briefly to remove the rest of his clothes, allowing Izaya a moment to appreciate his body. Years of lifting objects 10 times his size has earned him abs and arms that would leave both men and women lusting after him and Izaya smiled selfishly knowing that it all belonged to him. Shizuo reached over onto his bedside table to grab his bottle of lube and immediately started coating his fingers in the slick substance.

"Ne, Shizu-chan? Let's skip the foreplay this time, I'm ready."

Shizuo cocked his head to the side in a way that Izaya couldn't help but find cute.

"You sure flea?" said Shizuo as he began coating his own erection instead.

"Yeah, besides I'm still a little loose from earlier today."

Shizuo placed himself between Izaya's legs and lowered himself down so that their chests were touching. Gently, he pushed himself inside of Izaya, watching his head roll back into the moan he gave while being stretched. Once he was in to the hilt, Izaya moved his head back to face him, breathing in unison with his lover. As their noses brushed lightly against each other, the mood shifted in the room. What was once a lustful atmosphere was now more of an emotional one, and as their eyes met, they could both feel that gentle tugging at their hearts they tried so hard to ignore months ago. Time seemed to stop when they had moments like this, when sex was more than just sex and their glances were more than just glances.

Shizuo smiled softly down at Izaya, who nodded slightly signaling that he could move. As they maintained eye contact, Shizuo slowly thrust into the warm heat enveloping his cock. Izaya moved his hands from his shoulders to his neck to gently pull him into a passionate kiss while rolling his hips upward to meet each of Shizuo's thrusts. They both moaned as they found a slow but sensual rhythm, focusing almost entirely on the connection they shared.

Shizuo shifted his angle slightly, brushing the tip of his cock along Izaya's prostate. He threw his head back in response allowing Shizuo to suckle on his neck while he thrust quicker and harder into that spot.

"F-fuck Shizuo I'm close." Breathed Izaya as he weaved his fingers through blonde hair.

"Mmmn- Me too."

Shizuo removed his lips from Izaya's neck and placed his forehead against Izaya's, locking eyes with him again as he sped up his thrusts. They both began panting into each other's mouths, sweat making its way from Shizuo's brow down to Izaya's nose.

"F-uck ahh, Shizuo. H-harder t-there. Shit…yes."

Shizuo complied immediately pushing himself further into that wonderful heat. His hands gripped the pillow underneath him, trying to keep his thrusts even as he reached his climax.

"Sh-Shit Flea… f-fuck..fuck."

Izaya let out a loud moan as their movements became even more erratic.

"God yes! Yess! HAH! Shizuo I'm gonna- haahnnnn"

Shizuo felt his walls begin to tighten around him and all at once he came into that tight heat. He felt the ecstasy of release in every muscle of his body and he smiled looking down at the sticky mess between their chests, realizing that they had come at the exact same time. Shizuo's lips returned to Izaya's aggressively as they both rode out the pleasure of their orgasm.

God that was amazing thought Shizuo as he pulled out of him. They were still making out with the same fervor they were making love with and Shizuo wondered if they were going to have a second round. He got his answer when Izaya pushed him on his back and kissed down on him, passionately tugging down at his lower lip with his teeth.

"Shizu-chan…." Whispered Izaya as he began peppering kisses along Shizuo's neck.

Shizuo groaned into his ministrations, reflexively jerking his hips upwards into Izaya's. Their half-hard lengths brushed against each other and both men let out a moan.

Izaya then sat upright on Shizuo's hips, guiding his dick into his hole. Izaya hissed at the stimulation, but then began to roll his hips forward.

"Ahhnn s-so good." Whispered Izaya placing his hands on Shizuo's chest. Shizuo placed his own on Izaya's waist, keeping him steady as he rode his length. They found a rhythm once again, Shizuo jerking upwards to meet Izaya's hips every now and then. Izaya leaned forward to continue kissing Shizuo and this new position allowed Shizuo's cock even better access to Izaya's prostate than in the first round.

"F-fuck, there!" cried Izaya as he moved his hips faster.

Shizuo moved a hand to Izaya's dripping length and began to pump him in time to his movements.

"Ahhh SHIZUO"

Izaya came hard into his hand and fell back down on top of Shizuo. He quickly leaned up to gaze at his face, finding that recognizable look of bliss.

"Did we come at the same time again?" asked Izaya almost casually.

Shizuo nodded and leaned up to give him a chaste kiss. Izaya chuckled lightly, leaning his head against his chest, hearing his heartbeat slow down with exhaustion.

"We're getting good at this, Shizu-chan"

Izaya got off of him briefly to drag the covers around them and snuggle close. He turned the lights off in the room and Shizuo wrapped his arms around his waist.

"That was the best sex we've ever had."

"I agree… that was heavenly Shizu-chan."

As his breathing slowed down, Shizuo could tell Izaya was drifting off to sleep.

"Hey… Flea. Can I ask you something?"

"Sure Shizu-chan." Said Izaya sleepily

Shizuo ruffled his fingers through his hair.

"You… you know that I care about you right? Like a lot? And that I'd miss you if something bad were to happen."

He placed a gentle kiss on his cheek.

Izaya paused and looked up to gaze into Shizuo's eyes.

"Of course… And I care about you too… like a lot. And I'd miss you too…"

Shizuo's heart fluttered at the words and could feel the exhaustion of the day pulling him to sleep. Izaya let out a yawn and snuggled closer to Shizuo.

"Yeah, I care about you a lot. Even if you are a stupid protozoan."