Fawnstar's Fear

by Gummysaur

She was supposed to be a great leader, a hero for all the Clans. But when a dangerous prophecy comes up, one with the meaning she does not know, she is not sure if she can take the power she was destined to own. Watch as Fawnstar starts slowly turning away from her heroic path to create a terrible demon that may destroy the forest for the rest of her days.

5. Herbs Don't Heal Everything

"What?" Fawnpaw asked, trembling.

Leafpaw held her paw to her ears.

"I…" she snuggled deep into what was left of her nest.

"Leafpaw, I'm really worried…"

"A warrior told me everything would be alright," she replied quietly.

"Huh?" Fawnpaw said, caught off guard.

"What did he look like?" Orangespots asked.

"Well, it was a she…but that's all I remember. Oh, and she had bright green eyes." she titled her head. "She had…hmm…what did she look like…?"

"Here, I'll give you poppy seeds."

Leafpaw lapped up the small black herbs and curled up. Her breathing slowed.

"Orangespots, is she okay?" Juniperpaw asked.

"I don't know. It's odd to have the same nightmare with the same cat over and over. But that last part, about the warrior…it sounds like…A StarClan warrior."

"What?!" Mousepaw gasped. Orangespots shrugged and padded out the den.

"I'm sure she's fine. Go back to sleep." But her voice betrayed more doubt.

"No, Leafpaw! Duck UNDER the foe! Not to the right!" Lightningfang barked.

Leafpaw stumbled and fell on her side. Fawnpaw didn't jump on her. She looked utterly confused and scared.

"Leafpaw," Lightningfang said impatiently, "your head is full of bees today. Are you paying attention?"

"Your sister got the move right. Can't you?" Featherfall put in. Leafpaw scrambled to her paws, her eyes miserable.

"I'm sorry…" she whimpered.

"Leafpaw, are you alright?" Fawnpaw asked.

"I don't know," she responded quietly, scaring Fawnpaw.

"What do you mean?" Lightningfang asked.

"I…I don't…I just don't think I can do it." Leafpaw hung her head. "I can't be a warrior."

"Now, just because you can't figure out a move doesn't mean you can't be a warrior!" Featherfall gasped.

"No! It's not that. I just feel like StarClan wants me to stop." Leafpaw looked away. "It's hard to explain. I feel like I know too much about pain to inflict it on others…"

"Is this about the dreams you've been having?" Lightningfang queried.

"Sort of. I feel like StarClan has a different path for me." Leafpaw's voice was strong now, not weak and scared like usual.

"I want to be a medicine cat."

"A what?"

Orangespots looked surprised.

"She said she doesn't want to be a warrior anymore." Lightningfang replied, sounding sad. Fawnpaw stared at her sister. Leafpaw looked back at her.

"Sorry, Fawnpaw. I just don't feel like I can be a warrior."

"But…" Fawnpaw whispered. "It's not fair. We were supposed to be the best, right? The best warriors ever." Fawnpaw couldn't look at her sister. Tears sprung in her eyes. "I thought we would train side by side and hunt together. I thought we'd learn how to fight perfectly together and be the best team. I thought we'd be warriors." Fawnpaw's voice rose as she said this, fighting back tears.

"I feel like you betrayed me!" Fawnpaw wailed, and she turned around and scampered out the camp, running.

"It's not fair," she kept crying to herself. "It's not fair. It's not fair."