It happened again. Just when he thought he was free, just when he thought he wouldn't have to feel bad. Now inside he was only cold, he oculdnt feel any more, he wouldn't feel anymore. He couldn't put his heart out on the line again.
When he first came to Japan he had been cold inside, unable to feel anything but the satisfaction that came with victory. He thought that was life, that was the only thing that existed and then…then he'd met them, the bladebreakers. Slowly, slowly he started to feel something. At first he didn't understand it, why he would feel so good at watching Tyson eat his third serve, or Max jumping up and down with excitement, or Kenny's grin of pride when the team won, or when Rei…when Rei would smile like some feral cat, it all seemed so perfect- but that didn't matter now did it? It didn't matter that all that sadness, all that pain from the past had been erased. That finally he had a family, a home, stability because that was all gone now. Now all he had left was the knowledge that nothing was different, nothing had changed, the world was just as cold place as it was when he was at the abbey and fate was just as cruel.
Kai leaned against a tree in the park, it was the last time he would ever sit here again, after all his plane left tomorrow. He only stayed long enough for the funeral because it was expected, he didn't believe in final good byes, they were made in this world. Once a person was dead they were gone, forever. He knew everyone was expecting him to stay but he couldn't. They wanted his advice, they wanted his leadership but what was he supposed to say? Rei was dead. Gone. Forever. Nothing he could say would make up for that. Besides he only ever promised to lead them into beybattles, not in life. Life was too hard on his own, let alone with other people. He was leaving pretty early in the morning, this was the last time he would ever step foot in this little town. He laughed at himself, didn't he say the exact same thing about Russia? The abbey? He promised he would never see Tala or Ian or Brian or Spencer or Boris again? That didn't work out now did it? Would life repeat itself in this respect too? No! he wouldn't let it. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me, fool me a third time and I must be braindead. It was getting late so Kai stood and walked out of the park.
He just walked, he didn't want to go back to the hotel. So he just walked around trying to think of errands or excuses to stay out. He found himself going past the reasons he wanted to leave. Grandpa's house. That's where they used to practice together. How he hated it.
"Kai? Hey hommie!" Grandpa ran out to him. Kai glared, "where ya going?"
"back to my hotel" grunted Kai
"Tysons here, you could spend the night" suggested Grandpa. Kai looked at him with frightened eyes and bolted. He has to get away, as fast as possible. He didn't want to see Tyson, the same as he didn't want to be at that funeral. He had done the same thing then. He wouldn't sit through the service, he wouldn't see the casket buried. He merely made an appearance and left. When he stopped he was at the cemetary. Rei's cemetary. On the ground there was a piece of paper, it was a letter to Tyson from Max. So Max was here. He took off as fast as he could. He couldn't face any of them. He couldn't do it.
Somehow he ended up at the park again, but it was getting dark and the park no longer looked inviting. He could feel the ghosts here, the ghosts of people who would never return. He couldn't take it so he turned around and ran.
That was when he realised what he was doing, what he had always done. Ran. He ran from the abbey, ran from Russia. He ran from people and now he was running away from the team. He was running away because he was scared of what might happen if he stayed, he was scared of getting hurt. He was doing exactly what Rei did, trying to take the easy way out. For a moment he stopped. He reached into his pocket and pulled out the ticket, his ticket out of there. For a moment he considered ripping it up of staying and fighting his demons, fighting to keep all that he had worked for. But he slipped it back in and ran all the way to the hotel. He wasn't strong enough, he wasn't brave enough. Besides it was all gone anyway. He could feel his heart turning back into ice, he could feel all emotions leaving.
AN: ok so this is a bit shorted then the others, it is also more of his thought and less action but then Kai isn't a talk to people kinda guy is he? His reaction is obviously to run. He always seemed the type who'd run from his problems rather then face them. He doesn't feel he's strong enough to deal with things, to face his friends, to accept that somebody he loved left him so he leaves them. That's so sad!