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Chapter 2: Confrontation
It was night and Gokudera was two blocks away from Tsuna's house, practicing.
"Juudaime, I know there's something wrong, so spit it out!" He yelled at a wall. "No! This is too aggressive!"
Gokudera ran his fingers through his hair, forced a smile and politely said to the wall: "Good night, Juudaime. You didn't go to school today, so I brought you your home work. Is there anything bothering you?"
Hayato sighed in frustration and yelled "I TALK LIKE THIS EVERYDAY, DAMN IT!"
He took a deep breath and asked to the wall:
"Juudaime, I'm worried about you. Please tell me what's going on."
"That's the best phrase."
"Thank yo-AHHH!" Gokudera turned around and saw Yamamoto standing two meters away, wearing his baseball uniform and smiling.
"You baseball freak, what are you doing here?"
"I just came back from-"
"I don't actually care, just leave me alone!"
Yamamoto observed Gokudera's pained and frustrated expression with deadly serious eyes.
"What has Tsuna done to cause you so much misery?"
"I-Idiot! Juudaime did nothing wrong! Don't you step on my business!" Hayato was infuriated and walked away from there. Yamamoto took the opposite direction. Meanwhile, Tsuna was in his bedroom with Reborn.
"It's not that I don't like that you're training, but you're not allowed to skip school again, Dame Tsuna." The hitman stated, sitting on the bed and looking at his student lying tired next to him; Tsuna's face was hid by the pillow.
"I'm sorry, Reborn. I lost track of time." Tsuna replied without enthusiasm. The arcobaleno felt his chest get tight.
"You should've already accepted that Catharina's death wasn't your fault. Didn't your conversation with Boris make you feel better?"
"REBORN!" Tsuna got up suddenly, trembling in anger. He didn't look at the hitman, though; the boy just walked to the door. "I'm totally fine, nobody needs to worry about me."
The Sky went downstairs and saw his mother letting Yamamoto enter.
"Tsu-kun, Yamamoto-kun wants to talk to you." She informed, happily. Tsuna noticed right away that Yamamoto didn't have his usual cheerful expression.
"Can it be somewhere else, Yamamoto?" Tsuna asked, nervously. Takeshi agreed and they left the house. They walked until a nearby park, where Yamamoto inquired:
"What are you hiding from us, Tsuna?"
"I-I'm not hiding anything." Tsuna replied a little scared.
"Don't lie! You've been acting weirdly lately, especially towards Gokudera. Do you have any idea how worried he is about you?"
Tsuna paled when he heard that. Yamamoto continued.
"Haven't we always helped you until today? What are you hiding from us? Why don't you talk to us? At least talk to Gokudera, damn it! That guy… he worships you so much!" Yamamoto clenched his fists and looked away. When he realized it, Tsuna was in hyper dying will mode and flew before he couldn't say anything.
The Tenth was holding his tears. He wasn't going to cry. His hyper intuition was almost screaming at him by that time. It was an obvious fact. He should have noticed it before.
Gokudera was in his apartment walking around the kitchen, thinking in how to approach his Tenth. Someone knocked on the door. Hayato, annoyed by the interruption, went to see who was disturbing him. However, when he opened the door, he saw his most beloved person standing there and crying.
"Juudaime? W-What happened?" The guardian of the Storm was now agitatedly trying to make his boss entering his apartment and talk about what was bothering him. Tsuna refused and stayed there.
"I don't want you to worry about me anymore, Gokudera-kun." Tsuna spoke fiercely, startling his right-hand man.
"What… are you saying?"
Gokudera's heart sank when he saw the cold expression on his boss's face.
"I don't want you to think about me anymore nor to feel anything about me. You must forget me or you won't be happy."
"JUUDAIME!" This time, Gokudera grabbed Tsuna by the shoulders. "What nonsense is this that you're saying? As if I could do that! How can you tell me that I won't be happy if I don't forget you? Have you lost your mind?"
In sorrow, Tsuna noticed his guardian's shaking hands. Gokudera was now facing the floor and letting huge tears fall on it.
"You are the air I breathe, Juudaime. You are my very reason to exist. You are my happiness. I-I can't do what you're asking me. Whatever the problem is; let me help you. I'll fight anyone at anytime! I'll explode everyone who upsets you! But don't ask me impossible things. I'd rather die than forgetting you."
Tsuna slapped Gokudera, for the Storm's shock.
"Stop being foolish, Gokudera-kun!" Tsuna was now deeply angry. "You're brilliant, hard-working, and handsome! I am nothing compared to you! It's ridiculous that you worship me so much! In comparison to me, you're almost perfect! Find to yourself someone at your level, someone as good as you! Stop wasting your life and your beautiful feelings at a no-good guy like me! STOP BEING DEPENDED ON ME!"
Tsuna turned around to avoid looking at Gokudera's hurt expression and to hide his own eyes filled with water. He was about to leave.
"Forget about me. I'm ending this friendship for your own good."
"WAIT, JUUDAIME!" Hayato screamed in despair. He had to do something; otherwise he could lose that person. The thought of losing Tsuna made his heart burn in pain and Gokudera no longer had control over his emotions."I LOVE YOU, JUUDAIME, DON'T LEAVE ME!"
There was no reply.
"I love you so much, Juudaime. Please, don't leave. Please, tell me that all these things you just said were jokes. Don't cut ties with me! I'll be better for you! I'll work hard! I'll put all my effort to become a better right-hand man for you. But don't cut ties with me… I can't stand the thought… ugh… I-I can't… please, don't leave me… I beg you, don't leave me."
Gokudera's sobs were piercing Tsuna's heart, but he couldn't go back on his words now.
"No matter what I do, I'll keep hurting you, Gokudera-kun. Even if I try my hardest to protect you, I'll end up hurting you. I know that it hurts now… but it's the best for you."
"Don't go."
"Good-bye. Be happy."
"JUUDAIME, DON'T GO!"
Gokudera was paralyzed as his most beloved person flew into the sky. It had been so much time since he had felt so helpless and desperate.
He was alone.
Ten minutes later, Tsuna arrived at a mount, from where he could see Namimori at the distance. He hugged his knees and hid his face behind them. It didn't take long for him to feel that person sitting by his side.
"I actually felt bad for him, Great Sky. But you did great. We, the strong ones, are better off without the weaklings." Catharina said triumphantly.
"Gokudera-kun is the sweetest and kindest person I've ever known. I won't allow anyone to insult him." Tsuna stated firmly. He lifted his head and looked at the girl, still crying. She was studying him with interest; Catharina was wearing a long white dress. Her presence was so strong that it was as if she was there for real.
"Your feelings are so noble, Great Sky. They make my heart beats faster." Catharina commented, getting closer to Tsuna and holding his hand.
"If you want, I can give myself to you, so you can take me anywhere and do whatever you want to me. I don't care anymore." Tsuna confessed, wiping the tears from his eyes with his other hand.
"Even if I took you to a place far away, stole all of your freedom and forbade you to see anyone you love?"
"Yes."
"Is this just how bad you're feeling after what you did to Gokudera Hayato?"
"…"
Catharina smiled widely.
"Don't you think I'm a hallucination anymore?"
"I don't care whether you're dead, alive, real or illusionary. I'll bet that you're real and that you still have power."
"You're going to ask me to use my power?" Catharina asked lightly serious. Tsuna looked into her eyes with great determination.
"I want you to make Gokudera-kun forget everything about me. If you do this, I'll be yours forever."
