"KK?" he said, staring at me in shock. I just looked back without a word.

"Hi," I said quietly. It was so awkward it was hard to believe and it took everything in me not to kill him.

"KK, why are you here?"

"Why do you think?" I spat out. Calm down, I told myself, just kept calm. "It's been a year now Sollux! I though you would have been able to talk to me by now."

He sighed and looked away. I couldn't see his eyes though his stupid glasses but I think he liked it that way "Really KK, why are you here?"

I sighed and didn't know what to say. "I'm here to get my best friend back," I said quietly, as if hoping he wouldn't hear.

"KK…" he said "I-I'm not really a good friend. You have Egbert. You thould be fine."

I scoffed, "no I don't. He left me a long time ago for freaking Dave Strider."

He looked back up at me, "What?"

"Sollux, a lot has happened since you left. A lot. And I really, really hate you now. I've tried talking to you so many times and you never ever responded. We were friends Sollux. We could have helped each other. The same thing happened to both of us. I was in love with Nepeta, and you had Aradia. They're both gone now. Honestly we're both going though almost the same thing here. lately I could use someone. Someone who doesn't absolutely hate me. Even if I was still friends with John he would never understand like you would! I need someone to help me now so I don't completely lose my mind." I was breathing heavily and Sollux was staring at me.

"Karkat…" he said.

"What!" I realized I was yelling at him. I also realized I hadn't yelled at someone in a long time. It felt good.

"Did you go thee them earlier?" he asked quietly. "The graveth?"

"Of course I did," I said gruffly, "did you?" He nodded. "Why would you even ask? Of course I did!"

"I don't know. Part of me didn't want to. I did anyway," he said. He wasn't looking at me anymore, more like past me.

"Sollux," I sighed "A lot has happened since you've left. You could have at least told me you were changing schools. I mean, I didn't know, Feferi didn't know. "

"FF hath ED and a lot of other people. I thought she'd be fine. And you had John. I really thought you'd be ok without me. Maybe even better off…"

"By the way, Feferi's probably worse off than I am. Eridan totally ditched her and she doesn't have any friends anymore."

"What happened?" Sollux asked

"Well John figured Dave would be a better friend then I would and Vriska and Dave both decided this was all our fault. And by 'our' I mean Tavros, Feferi and I. Also you know how you always hated Eridan? You were right. He ditched Feferi so fast it's hard to believe."

"But…"

"But what Sollux!" I was shouting again. "Sollux you're almost as bad a best friend as I am."

"KK, you're not a bad betht friend."

"Yes I am! I let my best friend be killed right in front of me! It doesn't get worse then that Sollux!"

"I let my betht friend believe all he did was watch his betht friend be killed." He sighed and didn't argue with me anymore, not letting me get out my next retort. "Come on, let'th go in." He opened the door and I followed, angrily. He sat down on his couch and I sat next to him. "Tell me everything."

I did. I told him everything. About me, about Feferi, about Tavros and Kankri and even how Latula had been today. I told him about my nightmares and about how Feferi was anorexic. I told him everything, no matter how much it hurt. He stared at me and sighed.

"Wow..." he said, "I thought you were going to be ok. You'd all be thad and thtuff but not like thith. You'd have Egbert and Terezi and even if I didn't like them FF had Kanaya and Vrithka. I thought they cared about her."

"Well they don't. Not at all."

We were silent, staring at each other without any movement. No noise, just the two of us.

"KK, I'm tho thorry." He said.

"You should be!" I said and I didn't even feel like I was being rude. "I'm sorry too." I wrapped my arms around my legs and let out a long sigh. "I've missed you Sollux. A ton. That doesn't stop me from wanting to rip your guts out at this very moment."

"I've mithed you too KK." I looked away from him, then back again. I realized I had started crying and silently cussed myself. Sollux had never seen me cry before. "Are you crying KK?" Ugh why'd he have to notice?

"Yeah I am crying!" I yelled. Silence again and I looked away. I stared at the wall as if it would help me somehow. I looked back at Sollux and he had wet streaks down his face and he rubbed his eyes and looked up at the ceiling.

"What have I done KK?" he asked quietly.

"If you messed up, we both did."I was quiet for a few more moments before going on "What have we done Sollux? We're both horrible failures."

"Pretty much," he said, looking at the ceiling. "Both failures."

For some reason I remembered what Feferi had said to Tavros about how they would want us to be happy and to smile. "Maybe it's not too late," I said quietly.

"What do you mean? Oh course it'th too late. They're dead!" he spat at me. "AA ith dead, gone, lotht and from what you've told me FF'th dead enough inside! There is nothing we can do anymore! There all dead dead dead!"

"I didn't mean that! I mean to fix this mess we've gotten ourselves into." I chose to ignore the comment on Feferi because I knew he was wrong. I thought about her today, helping Tavros up the hill, talking to Aradia, telling Tavros to smile. Feferi was anything but dead inside.

"It'th more my fault then yours KK and you know it."

I didn't say anything at all. Finally I sighed and said, "I haven't been hanging out with Tavros or Feferi. I've cut them off to. I could have fixed things. I could have talked to Feferi or worked stuff out with Terezi or try to talk to John. I could at least try not to be a horrible emotional wreck." I stopped, realizing something "But I had to. It was all circumstantial. I can't help being a wreck sometimes. Like Aradia used to say, we all react to different things in different ways. I guess this is just how we reacted. You locked everyone out, ignoring our attempts to contact you and I locked myself in, ignoring help I could have accepted, not doing anything to help my situation. It's our fault yes, but it's also not. I don't know who to blame anymore."

"Maybe there's no one to blame." Sollux said.

"I need to blame someone." I leaned back and stared at the ceiling. "I guess that's why I always blame myself."

"Don't blame yourthelf KK. It doesn't help." He sighed, "Trutht me, I know."

Silence followed and I closed my eyes. "What school do you go to now?" I asked.

"Online thchool, mostly tho I don't have to interact with any human beingth. But I'm going back," he said firmly.

I nodded. That was my idea the whole time. "Why?"

"To fix thingth," he said simply. "Before it'th too late."

"Yeah," I said, thinking maybe it was too late. But that wasn't true. It was never too late. "Let's go out not complete failures," Sollux picked up his phone and I realized something. "Where's Mituna?"

"Uh, he doesn't live with me anymore," Sollux said awkwardly.

I decided not to press the subject, "ok." He punched in a number and put his phone on speaker and I listened to it ring.

"Hey Dad, when are you going to be home?"

R.I.P Mary Sherlach, 56, and Victoria Soto, 26, who died December 14 2012 so others could live

A/N: Yay another chapter. I just wanted to tell you that hopefully the next chapter will be up Wednesday. I will try to update Wednesday and Sunday from now on. Thanks for reading and review!