"And you wanted better love"

I was so happy to be back in Kanda's house… I felt so… so wrong… my judgment was off on everything and I just kept making a fool of myself.

I stumbled over to the couch and laid down. May be if I lay still enough the world will stop spinning…

Kanda sighed and sat next to me. He sat with his eyes closed for a long time as if he were thinking. I would have moved in and claimed the couch by laying on him but I didn't trust myself in getting up…

Kanda suddenly pulled out his phone which started to vibrate. I would have rolled my eyes but I didn't want to screw myself up any time soon…

Kanda snapped his phone open a bit angrily and he growled into the receiver. "What do you want you Baka Usagi?!" I sat shocked for a moment. Not because of the words they just mean stupid rabbit but the tone he used was seriously angry….

He grumbled more and then brushed his fingers through his hair in irritation. "And what's that got to do with me…" he paused listening to the other person on the line. "No. I don't want you over… he's fine! Yes… yeah. No! Don't you- if you come over I'll…" he trailed of then slammed his phone shut and he sat there in his pool of hate. I stared at him almost worried. Honestly what could he possibly hate more than being bitten?

After a while he calmed down and looked at the room before us. He got up and picked up my bone. I looked up quickly making my head spin. Hey that's mine! I pouted in my head.

He brought it over and placed it on my front legs before wandering off to his room. I watched him go for a moment or two before taking my bone and simply chewing it.

I suddenly heard a knock at the door and I looked up. Not a good idea. I laid my head back down but I couldn't help but look again as the door opened.

Cautiously in came the red head from when I first woke up here. The red head smiled at me for a moment then went up to Kanda's room.

I toned out the sounds of Kanda yelling. I didn't really want to hear those moments from him.

The two came back down stairs-Kanda a bit angrier about it and the rabbit came over only to sit down on a chair across from me. "So he's drugged?" the rabbit laughed. Kanda rolled his eyes. "Oh yeah Lenalee is coming over too!" the rabbit smiled brightly and I honestly was getting annoyed by that smile. I don't know why.

"Baka Usagi!" Kanda snapped his mood worsening.

I got board of them. I bet if I wasn't this messed up I'd try to bite that bunny… but right now… I just wanted a nap…

Right as I was about to drift off a knock came to the door. Bunny boy jumped up to answer it and in came a girl. She had long hair into pigtails. "Hi Kanda." She smiled "hey Lavi." She added as she walked in.

She sat in the seat where the red head, Lavi once sat. Lavi looked around and finally decided to sit by her on the arm of the chair.

"We wanted to talk about your love life Yuu-Chan!" Lavi smiled brightly.

"Well more like he's concerned for you." The girl I assumed was Leanalee nodded to Lavi next to her.

"Like I care…" Kanda growled

"We're concerned because we know you're into guys and no guy has really taken your eye. Or the other way around…" Leanalee frowned concern showing on her face.

"I don't like any of them…" Kanda rolled his eyes an act he seemed to do a lot round them. He sat next to me and scratched my head giving a massage.

As he did I relaxed and slowly fell to sleep under his hand.

I woke to the grass below my body the blades ticking my nose so I woke. I got up and looked around. I saw the light from the sun going down behind the trees before me. It was going to be another one of those dreams… I sighed my heart pounding heavily in my head. I walked down the path way I knew would lead me home. To my pack. To my pack leader father, Mana. I let the tears fall from my eyes and roll down my furry face. I felt my mind scream not to go.

I began to run. I ran to the place that screamed danger. I ran home. I came around the corner to see the fighting. Our pack fighting to the death amongst each other. I backed away slowly. Why did I come? I knew I was no help. Why try to fight the ill. Those who had rabies were long gone… every bite would not only infect but kill. Most didn't live through the attacks. Just like I wouldn't.

My father's brother came at me from behind. I kicked and snapped but he was larger than me and was much faster. I pushed away and at that moment he died in the middle of his insanity. He fell on me and I couldn't get away. I was trapped under his body for what felt like forever. I finally was able to push my way out. Everyone was dead even those of my litter. I couldn't stay here. Not because the Ill would return but because I would surely lose my mind without the illness.

I began to leave. My body hurt and I bleed from many places on my body. I stumbled and fell where ever I went. I finally fell from starvation. I hadn't eaten properly in a weak. Maybe more. I watched as a hunter found my little white body in the growing vast snow.

I felt him pick me up and carry me. He carried me somewhere warm and I slowly fell asleep by the fire.

I woke to many wolves. They called themselves the Noah Clan. They were a strange but tightly knit pack. They offered to give me a new way of living. To help me grow. The hunter returned and introduced himself. His name was Adam and he understood every word I said. He told me he was once a wolf and that he could make me strong. He could make me a powerful human. I didn't join them because I wanted to be stronger they promised to cure the illness I had gotten. I agreed and they took me down stairs.

That was where they cut me. I remember the pain of the scar they caved into my face. I remember they demanded I hold still. They said they might accidentally hurt me. I couldn't help the spasm and I lashed out. They cut my eye. I remember they took me back upstairs and fixed me up. But honestly I could think about was the felling. The pain. It burned. I felt like I was dead inside. I couldn't move my jaws or I'd pull my skin or worse my stiches. They didn't drug me. I felt every poke of the needle in my face. The pull of my skin as they pulled the string through the layer of my face.

I felt a soft hand on my shoulders and I felt warm. I light came and pulled me from the pain I felt. A safe felling of love sucked me in. whatever was at the end of that light… I loved it. I couldn't help the felling. Whatever it may be at the other end I would love. I'm sure that it will most likely be a lie when I wake up but. It was as if calling me to do it.

The sight of something came into my head and a saw a large black wolf. His eyes were cold but the soft blue drew me in. my head screamed that it was Kanda but my eyes saw a strong beautiful wolf looking at me with a love growing in his aura.

I woke up with a start the last thing I only glimpsed before my eyes came open and Kanda was petting my shoulders. "Moyashi?" he asked.

I perked up then placed my head on his lap. Please? I begged with my eyes. He sighed and got up when I took my head from his leg. He came back with a bowl and placed it on the couch next to him on the far side. I pouted a bit and crawled onto his lap to get some.

"Aw… he's so cute." I heard the voice of Leanalee smile as I gently took the food from Kanda's hands. He irritatingly held it nearly in his fits making me have to nibble the end of it to get him to let go. Honestly it's not like I'm gona bite him. He started handing them to me just normally and once he showed me the bowl was empty I sprawled out on his lap. Hopping to get some better sleep.

"Moyashi-Chan!" I heard Lavi smile and I perked at the sound of the food. Lavi sat on the floor and in his hands was a rope. "You wana play?" He chimed throwing one end on top of my body.

I watched as he reeled it in and it fell to the floor. "Well he certainly isn't any fun just like you Yuu-Chan." Lavi pouted.

The rope was supposed to be fun? I didn't see what made it so fun… he threw it on me again and I got irritated at the feeling it made as it pulled the hairs on my back. I snapped at it and once I had it I shook it around. I don't know why but it was kinda fun. Lavi pulled and shook the other end so it was like a struggling elk or dear. I was pulled off the couch and Lavi and I played on the floor. I started to get tired so I lay down. I kept the rope in my mouth as I intended to rest for a minute or two. Lavi didn't seem to notice I was tired and pulled the rope more. I laid there and let him pull. He couldn't move me when he sat on the floor. He got up and began to pull. I felt the cool of the floor below me change as he pulled me across the room.

i know this one was short but i have been swamped with a lot of things so i might put a pause on this one. or you could expect the chapters to come out once every two weeks or so... let me know which one you'd rather want.