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Chapter 8

Previously:
"So… your little friends, who are they?" He asked, stopping me as I tried to walk past him into the kitchen. I looked up at him, trying to keep my face void of any emotions. He definitely knew.

'I don't know who you're talking about.' I signed even though he couldn't understand me.

"Don't you dare, girl. –Mrs. Cope told me that you were hanging around with these new kids lately. Says they even know sign language." My heart sank at his words. So he didn't know that I was out but what was worse was that he knew about them. He knew that I talked to them. I pulled them into this without them even knowing.

I had practically considered it to be safe to be around them inside of school but of course, I should have known that it wasn't. It wasn't safe for me to talk to anyone anywhere. He was the chief in town, he had the possibilities to get to information. I just didn't think he'd ask people in town to keep tabs on me.

Now I felt myself remembered why I didn't want to befriend them in the first place: because it was too dangerous. Because by talking to them I had endangered the whole family's life.

"What did you tell them, huh?" He asked, slowly walking towards me, backing me up against the wall. "What did you tell them?" I shook my head quickly and signed 'nothing' but his anger only seemed to rise. "You think I believe you one word? You're a fucking liar." He grabbed me by my shirt and pulled me towards him, holding me so close to his face that I could feel his breath across my cheeks. "Listen now. I told you to keep away from people. If I ever hear of you talking to them, ever again, you're going to be sorry for the rest of your life. The Cullens, guess they think they got it all but just wait" He threatened quietly. "just wait and see what I'm capable of doing." He pushed me back into the wall and walked into the living room.

I stood there, leaning on the wall for supported as I tried to keep myself together. "I want dinner in no more than twenty minutes." Charlie shouted and I sighed quietly, pushing myself away from the wall, carefully rubbing the back of my head where I had hit the wall. It was a small wonder that he hadn't brought his point across more violently. It didn't seem like Charlie anymore to only threaten me. But actually, this was worse than violence. I would have been glad to take his beating today, rather than having to fear for the lives of others. Their death, as if this alone wouldn't have been enough, would have been caused by me. More people I'd have killed indirectly. I wasn't much better than him. Maybe I wasn't better than him at all. He hadn't killed anyone. Not yet anyways.

I tried to dispel my concerns for a short while and made pasta for Charlie quickly and he sent me up to my room without food.

As soon as I set foot into my room I slid down against my door, sobbing as quietly as possible.

I knew it was wrong. I knew I shouldn't have befriended them in the first place and I knew I had endangered them from the very first minute. But it had felt so good to be around them. I'd been selfish –again. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I kept repeating the words in my head until I couldn't stand the thoughts anymore and dragged myself to bed, waiting for sleep to take over.

I went to school late on Monday in order to avoid the Cullens as long as was physically possible. I got myself a late pass and went to English quickly. My wonderful "Not there?" teacher wasn't really bothered by me being too late. She constantly ignored me anyways.

My mind wandered to the lunch break in about four hours. If I'd go to the cafeteria, there was no way I could further avoid them. Only problem was, I hadn't had anything to eat since Saturday morning and I was starting to feel nauseous and I'd thought that I'd finally get something into my system. Guess not though because there was no way I could make it out of there before any one of the Cullens arrived.

I didn't want to keep away from them but I had to. His threat had left me with no choice because I'd rather hurt their feelings by not talking to them than getting them hurt or even killed. I couldn't risk it.

The hours kept rolling by without me really noticing any of my classes and when the bell rang after fourth period I took my time packing everything and finally, when I couldn't stall any longer, headed out of the room and down the hall towards the library. I was pretty sure the Cullens would be fairly close to the cafeteria by now and didn't worry about running into them.

It was no surprise I got to the library relatively unseen and, after greeting Mrs. Henderson, the librarian, with a nod, went to the back of the library where I could hide easily and sit in one of the aisles. I sat, leaning on the bookshelves after grabbing a random book from the biology section which I was currently sitting in.

I flipped through pages mindlessly, scanning articles and pictures without really minding what they were talking about. I wasn't here to really look at any of the books, not today. It was solely a hideout now.

I felt like I didn't want to see anything or anyone at this moment. I would have preferred to lie at home, sulking, because that would have been better than to hide from your best friends in a library during school and not being able to tell them why exactly you ignore them.

Worst part was: the hardest was still to come. I hadn't seen the Cullens yet but during biology and PE I'd have to either ignore them completely, which would confuse and hurt them, or I could make up a lie about why I didn't want to be with them anymore, which would hurt them even worse but it would probably drive them away from me faster. Only problem: well, I couldn't come up with such a lie. I'd thought about it all morning but nothing would come to mind.

I prepared myself to get to class as late as possible. Entering with the bell seemed like a good option, since they wouldn't be able to ask any questions straight out.

I was such a wuss.

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