Disclaimer: Ken and Miyako belong to Digimon and not me.
Title: What if?
Author: Reliasha Valentine
Author note: Wow, I didn't know years have gone by since I wrote my last fanfic. Things has changed and I have grown up. And who would know that along the way, I met a man I will fall in love with, engaged and married to, and ultimately, form a family. I have a baby boy that is 11 months old now. Times really wait for no man and when I was looking through my old profile that I hasn't login for donkey years, I suddenly opened the reviews and are touched by some of the reviews I received. I am not sure when will the next update be but let's treasure this moment.
Summary: It has been 2 years since she has left. Day and night, memories of the past haunted him. What if I have never rejected you? What if I have trusted my heart? Will all this be different? This is a continuous of "Never Know, Miyako Pov". Remember to R and R.
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Where am I?
Everything seem to so unclear.
Who is the lady in front of me?
Why she look so familiar?
Is she Miyako?
"Miyako?"
"Miyako?!" A little louder I went.
She seems to walk away even further from me.
"Stop, don't go!" I shouted.
"Stop, don't go! I really want to talk to you! Please!" I went.
My arm stretched out, my right hand tried to grab her.
She turned and looked at me, with crystal teardrops flowing down her eyes.
With sadness she said, "Ken, goodbye. It is times for me to go. Your heart is not mine to have in the first place and never will be. Goodbye."
With fears grabbing my heart, I stretched out my hand once again.
"No Miyako! Don't leave me again!"
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"Ken!"
"Ken! Wake up!"
Someone was pushing me, trying to wake me up and I slowly opened my eyes, and saw wormmon staring at me with his big round watery eyes.
"Ken, are you alright? You been talking and crying in your sleep." He said.
Shocked and loss of words, I sat up and lifted up my hands, touched my face and felt tears. I looked at him and he seems to know what the cause for this…
Yes, it is a recurring dream ever since 2 years ago. The fateful day when she left. Leaving behind a broken hearted man who finally realized what he has been feeling.
Yes, a foolish man who denied his feeling. Chasing after a woman who he doesn't love. A woman who he wasted his time on, thinking he loved her and ended losing a woman who he truly love since they first became friends, fighting alongside in the Digimon War.
2 years seem to be a long time. From that day she left, I has been thinking about what if?
What if I have chosen to listen to my heart instead of my mind?
What I have chosen to break up with Kari instead of rejected Miyako and walked away from her, leaving her in the rain?
What if?
Because of a wrong decision, I have hurt not just Miyako but Daisuke and many others.
Others who have treasured Miyako more than me.
Yes, I don't deserve her yet I want her.
Yes, I was a fool, yet I can't give up waiting for her.
2 years indeed is a long time. I wish it can be different. And then we will truly have our own happy ending.
Turning my head to the direction of my study table. I looked at the group photo taken a year back. At Daisuke's wedding. He was finally married to the one he loved since forever, Kari. And it got my thinking, what if I never make that choice to be with Kari, mistaken our common fear and weakness of darkness as love and mutual understanding, then will I have my own happy ending?
Until today, at the age of 28, I am still regretting that one decision I made 2 years ago.
How I wish I could go back and turned back time and undo my mistake?
"Ken, are you alright?" Wormmon asked again. I turned away from the photo, looked down at him. He leaned against my arm, rubbing himself against me, comforting me.
"Ken, it's all going to be alright, you have wormmon with you." He said.
I looked down and smiled.
"Yes, I will be alright. Don't worry my friend."
Hearing this wormmon looked back at me, and smiled and as always, he started to rub his body against my arm.
"Go back sleep Ken. You need it for work tomorrow."
I smiled and with a soft "good night", I turned back to sleep.
Before I closed my eyes, I said a little prayer to whomever up there to bring back my heart of love. The owner of the crest of love. 2 years indeed is a long time and the unspoken love is killing my heart bit by bit.
With this… I closed my eyes and went back to my dream.
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Reliasha: Hope my writing skill has improved over the year. Having a family, new commitments and work is draining my time. Yet when I read my own story after years of hiatus, I decided to write a new chapter to show that I am still alive! If you like my story, please kindly review. It can be a motivation for me to continue. I don't know when I will be back. But I hope very soon!