A/N I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update! I am currently writing a fiction novel, and it had benns taken up a lot of my writing time! Hope you enjoy! As always I don't own anything!

Chapter 4: Gaining Answers

James's POV

James was laying down on his bed. He was dead tired, but he was scared to shut his eyes. He knew he was avoiding everyone. He knew he was hurting and worrying everyone, but he didn't know what to do. He was in a world of nothing but darkness. Nobody knew what happened, and he liked it that way yet he wished he had someone to talk to. He knew that this was going to be hard, but he had to talk to someone. He was falling asleep against his will, and as he was drifting off he thought I wish everything hadn't changed.

Lily's POV

Lily woke up the next morning knowing that she needed to talk to James. She wanted to help him, which suprised her. Yes she knew she had called him terrible things, but seeing him like this had started to make her feel like she wanted to see his trouble maker smile until the

day she died, not that haunted lost look she kept seeing.

Once she was ready for the day, she went down to the common room hoping to find James. It must have been her lucky day because he was sitting in an armchair in front of the fire. She walked up to gim and asked softly and sweetly, "James I am going on a walk. Please come with me?" She wasn't sure what his answer was going to be, but to her suprise he nodded and stood up. She walked out of the room with him following her.

James POV(I should have warned you that this chapter would switch a lot!) [Changing to First Person]

Lily led me across the grounds. Normally I would be jumping for joy if she had asked me to go on a walk with her, but I wasn't really into it. She finally stopped walking and sat against the tree near the Black Lake. I sat next to her in silence. I guess since she knew I wasn't going to say anything, she said, "James I know we haven't been great friends in the past. I know I have treated you like dirt, and you have every reason to absolutely hate me but listen to me please. I can tell something is wrong. Yes just about everyone can, but I can tell it's something unspeakable. You have this haunted and lost look in your eyes as if you have seen horrar like nothinf before. I hate seeing that look. I miss that trouble maker smile and eyes. It breaks my heart to know I once hated them and now I might never see them again. James my point is that if something really is bothering or scaring you, you need to tell someone. It might be hard, but it makes things easier for you. James please don't bottle it up, it will make you do terrible thjngs to yourself." I looked at her the whole time. She had syarted crying while she was talking. I knew she was right. So many bas thoughts had crossed my mind. Before I came to Hogwarts I had thought about jumping off the cliff near my house. I could tell I was hurting her because she was able to see things that I was trying to hide from everyone else. I took a deep breath and said more words than I hadin months, "Lily...I'm scared." As soon as the words were out tears that I had been keeping in fell. I was scared out of my mind, and I didn't know what to do. She watched my tears fall and whipped a few away and asked, "Why are you scared?" My voice shook as I answered, "That he will come for me to. That he will hurt the people I love. I'm also drowning Lily. I don't know how to come up. So much happened over the summer." I could tell she knew who "he" was. "James why would he come for you?" Here came the hard part. Telling what had been drowning me. "Because...

A/N Did you really think that I would tell you? Nope! Review what you think happened! Bye!