A.N. - MERRY CHRISTMAS FANFICTIONERS NO MINNA!
This chapter is my modest gift to you all, hope that you enjoy it xDD
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( Wohoo! A Christmas miracle :D Yeah right, keep dreaming girl ;P )
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" Nursing "
4th Chapter
When Lucy Heartfilia woke up this morning – or was it already yesterday morning – she had a long, busy day ahead of her, never did she expected that it would turn out this exhausting nor that she would end the day holding in her arms the one she loves – though it was more than likely that Natsu would sneak in, during the night – but the reality is different. Lucy has dreamt about situations like this before, both asleep and awake, where in a romantic like scene the two of them would be laying, side by side, locked on a loving embrace. Simply sharing each other's company and warmth, Lucy would give anything for that to be happening now.
" I'm sorry, I'm sorry " the Dragon Slayer voiced, broken against Lucy's belly.
Had she seen him shed tears before? And so intensely? The blond mage cannot recall. But here she is now, taken aback by his unexpected burst and at a complete loss of reaction as the mighty fighter clings to her, so so tight, his face buried on her – by now – soaked stomach, trembling as his shy, muffled sobs get more and more desperate, resound and echoing throughout the small room, making Lucy feel like the walls are closing in on her.
" You died, you died " Natsu said in between sobs, " There was so much blood ".
This is wrong, so so wrong. She's the teary one on the team – plus Happy - she can't help it, tears always easily come to her eyes, right this moment her eyes were burning and she's holding herself back the best she can as not to cry. She's the sensitive, the emotional one, she wears her heart on her hands, not Natsu. Though a very selfish part of herself feels content that it is in her arms that he's crying, and that he doesn't mind to let her see him like this.
" I should've protected you, I should've saved you " the Salamander kept mumbling.
The fire mage doesn't break, he displays his bottled up emotions through the passion and determination he puts in his battles. Natsu is strong, fierce. The sole notion of this hyperactive, happy go lucky Dragon Slayer crying his heart out, is shattering her heart and constricting her chest so hard that is difficult for her to breath, she can't take watching him like this.
" For Mavis sake, what's happening to him?... " a distressful Lucy questioned in silence, as she curls over Natsu's shaking form, wanting to shield him from an invisible threat.
He can't possibly believe that what happened in Crocus was his fault, that's unthinkable. Has he been feeling like this ever since then? How didn't she noticed this. It couldn't be prevented, and he's clearly not to blame, no one is – that Sabertooth guy certainly did not ask to be possessed –it was just an unfortunate event. Sure she has been thinking about it too, a lot actually. She had always been insecure about her abilities as a mage, and seeing herself die made her conscious of how much life is a fleeting concept, it is just as unpredictable as unexpected. Even if she was the strongest mage in all Earthland she couldn't have been able to counter that blow.
" I can't live without you " he said, having trouble to breath, speak and cry all at the same, " I need you, I need you with me Luce ".
Lucy is well educated, though her silly Natsu is the one who always knows the right words to say, to sooth, reassure, inspire, comfort his nakama in any situation. He is the one who always wipes – once he even licked – her tears away, he's the one always supporting her, not the one crumbling down, not him, not HIM. And now their roles are reversed, now she's the one who has to hold him together – has he too, felt this angsty while watching her cry? – and she'll repay him for his loyalty, faith and care with every ounce of Love she has for him.
" Hush, Hush " Lucy soothed, rocking them back and forth and leaning her forehead to his right temple, whispering to hisear " I am here Natsu, I am here ".
After a while Natsu's sobs subsided and his trembling stopped, gathering all the strength that she was capable of – giving the circumstances she felt drained - the blonde pushed Natsu back with her as she leaned back on the bed. Now the Celestial mage is laying on her back, and the Dragon Slayer lays on his left side, with his head resting a little above Lucy's right breast. Her chin rests on top of his head and her arms encircle his frame, while his arms are around her waist and his right leg is bent under her knees and the left is stretched on the mattress.
" Sorry, don't know what came over me " Natsu felt embarrassed for his drama queen performance just now.
" It's okay, everything's fine now " Lucy sing sang trying to sound unfazed.
" I wont fail you ever again, I promise you Luce " He spoke more calmly.
" Look at me " she said laying on her right side and looking right into his eyes, " You have never failed me Natsu, never ".
" I let you die " he spoke, some tears still prickling in the corner of his dull eyes, " I just stood there ".
"You couldn't have done anything " she tried to reason, reaching her left hand, cupping and wiping the stray tears, she finished " No one could ".
" I could, if I was stronger " he responded determinedly, " I was supposed to be the one shielding you ".
Snaking her right arm along his neck, Lucy buried her hand on Natsu's soft pink hair and pushed herself flush againsthim " Then I would've lost you ", she said encircling him around his shoulders with her other arm and resting her head in the crook of his neck.
" Luce " he called whispering , " I Love you " Natsu confessed holding her really close and afraid, afraid of what she'll say.
A.N- Gomen * bows apologetically and somewhat ashamed of herself *
It is really really short, but this week is all that I can give. Christmas, New Year and Family are draining all my spare time.
Hopefully I wont miss next week's update.
Happy Holidays everyone xDDDD
Ja na!
murasakiana n.n