This was going to be the first episode of the radio show that Bam was going to do since he received the news of his cancer. He was a little nervous about it but he was excited for it at the same time. He waited all week for this night and now it was finally time to do the show. The last time he felt nervous and excited about doing the radio show like this was the very first episode that he did.

They all walked into the studio in the "hobbit hole" and sat down, ready to do the show. The show started and they began laughing, joking and talking about whatever topics that interested them, just like they did every week. Then in the middle of a conversation Bam decided to stop who was talking, to announce what he had wanted to say for a while.

"Alright so before you continue with that," he said to Dico who was talking "I have to say something. Ok… ok well by now every one of you listening right now probably have heard something about me being sick. Actually I heard a couple rumors about me like, I was rushed to the hospital to have my appendix removed to I'm actually checking myself into rehab. First of all that's complete bullshit and who ever came up with these rumors, you should, like, I dunno, go to hell. But whatever." He stopped to take a breath "The truth is I'm sick. I have stomach cancer and I recently started chemotherapy for it. It sucks so bad… I mean just the chemo alone sucks. I hate the whole ordeal. If I could just have the cancer and get over it like, like it was just the flu or something, and I didn't have to get treated for it, then of course I would. But it doesn't work that way. A-and now I have to be sick and suffer through all this cancer bullshit…"

Bam had to stop talking because he felt tears forming. Dico reached over and patted Bam on the back. Bam wiped away a couple tears that had escaped. He knew it was going to be hard talking about it on the radio show for his fans to head, but he didn't realize that it was going to be this hard for him. Hew tried to hold it together during the rest of the show, but there were moments where he began to feel a little emotional.

Whenever someone else was talking, Bam would sit there, trying to keep himself from crying or thinking about his cancer. He leaned forward and placed his elbows on the console in front of him, careful not to touch any of the controls, and held his head in his hands. He then ran his hands through his hair and then he froze. His eyes widened and he let out a small gasp before bringing his hands down. He then opened his hands and stared into them, stunned and a little frightened to see he had pulled down with no effort at all, two clumps of hair.

"Dude," He said to the other guys in the room "I seriously just reached up and pulled out two handfuls of my hair right now."

"What's that?" Dico asked

Bam showed him the hair "I just pulled this hair out." He sighed

"That happens with chemo, Bam." Someone else said

"I fucking know that! I just didn't think it was going to be like this." He closed his eyes and sighed, trying not to cry "This fucking sucks."

Bam covered his eyes and continued to fight his tears. He hated becoming so emotional in front of his friends. It wasn't because he was ashamed to let them know he was crying, it was more because he hated having people worry about him. The last people that he wanted to have worry about him was his friends. He leaned back in his chair and looked around at everyone. It was becoming clear to him that it was going to be much harder to live his normal life without becoming over emotional or to ignore the side effects of his chemotherapy.

Unable to take sitting there any more, Bam got up once a song started to play and then he left the room. He stepped outside and leaned against the door, breathing in the fresh air. He had calmed down and no longer felt like crying but he still was not ready to go back inside. Then, out of nowhere, a wave of nausea came over him. He slid down, leaning against the door, and then sat down on the ground. He held his stomach as he sat there, and sighed.

The nausea was almost too much for Bam to bear. He closed his eyes and silently told himself that he wasn't going to lose it. Gagging a little bit he then placed a hand over his mouth and tried to keep him from vomiting. He lowered his hand and then took slow, deep breaths. Slowly the nausea began to fade away. After a minute Bam carefully pulled himself back up onto his feet. He then took a deep breath and held it for a second before he decided to go back inside. He decided right then that he was going to make sure that he was going to finish the show no matter what.

Towards the end of the show Bam was feeling a little more like himself. He wasn't going to let his cancer bring him down. He wasn't even going to let himself get emotional over it, no matter how hard he found it to be. There was no way that he was going to go through this cancer all emotional and depressed as far as he was concerned at that point. He was going to stay Bam at all costs. The only difference that he thought right then that there would be was the fact that he had cancer.

That's what he thought while the show was still going on. But he felt a different way. On the inside he was very scared. The thing was, he just wasn't going to show it on the outside. He thought it might have been a bit of a challenge for him to remain himself on the outside but he was willing to take on this challenge.

After the show he was smiling just as broadly as the others were. They headed back inside the house, still laughing and joking around. Bam had to admit to himself that being around his friends like he normally was, really cheered him up. His fear was still there but he tucked it away deep inside of him. He felt like he was going to make it through the cancer just fine. He felt better and a little more confident about himself. But most importantly right then he felt like he was going to have a good day tomorrow, and he was going to take each day as it came to him.