A/N - Please review. All your thoughts good or bad. Also I would like it if you come with plot suggestions, I'm starting to have a harder time coming up with tings.
Disclaimer- I do not own divergent. Nor do I own the characters. It all belongs to Veronica Roth.
Chapter 5
Uriah and I did not sleep all night, nor did we really talk much. We just sat beside each other. Dreading the day, if the day ever comes, that our divergence gets out to the public. Once in a while one of us would say something like 'Why are we even dangerous?' or 'we need to be strong together. At such comments the other would just nod.
Three knocks on the appartment door innerrupts our pattern. When I rise to open it I glance at my watch. Six thirty in the morning, who would visit at this hour? The door clicks as I unlock it. Tobias stands there looking at me.
"I was worried about you, and from your puffy eyes I can tell you didn't sleep". He looks at me. In his eyes I can see that he did not sleep very well either.
"Uriah is here" I say as I open the door completly to let him in. He takes my hand when he walks past me.
Uriah is sitting in the exact same spot as he was sitting when I left him. Tobias scans both him and me. Then he gets the connection. "I see you did not sleep at all either" He says quietly. Uriah just nodds.
"you told her, didn't you?" Now Uriah looks up, his eyes a mixture of fear and regret. "I'm sorry, Four. I know I wasn't supposed to tell anybody, but". His voice trails off. "It's fine, but you two can't sit around here all day moping, waiting to be next. That will only lead to suspicion" Tobias is in Four mode.
I turn to face Tobias and burry my face in his chest. His warm embrace is welcoming and his strong arms wrap around me. He is holding me tight. I can feel his mucles through his black shirt. I hear his heart beating against my head. Concentrating on his heartbeat sends a calm wave over me.
Tobias carefully pulls me away from him. I frown at him and he kisses my forhead. Then he walks over to Uriah and sits down next to him on the floor. I watch him closely as he pats Uriah on the back and says "You need to continue as usual, especailly now. They will be watching us. You're strong Uriah, you can do this. You need to do this"
"I can't they will notice. They are going to kill me" His voice is filled with fear. "Look Uriah, I know they will, if they find out. That is why you need to seem unaware of what happend to her. To the girl they killed"
Tobias' words are stern and his expression is very Four. His intentions however are to keep everyone safe. He cares about Uriah too. And he loves me.
I squeeze myself inbetween them and take Uriah's hand in mine. "We can do this Uri, you are not alone" Tobias smiles at me. Even Uriah tries to smile, but fails. Ending up with a sad half smile across his face.
The dining hall is quiet, everybody has now heard about 'that poor girl that jumped in the chasm'. Tobias' hand is strong in mine, it gives me strenght.
When we reach our usual table everyone is there. Drinking and mourning in their own Dauntless way. Except Uriah, he is still pulling himself together in my appartment.
We are greeted by some half-drunk gestures and 'hello's'. I still can't wrap my head around the idea of drinking you sorrows away. The Dauntless aren't sad for the loss of the dead girl. They are celebrating her bravery. Saying once again that it was courageous jumping into the chasm.
It makes me sick. She did not do it because she was brave. Neither did Al for that matter. No one jumps in the chasm because they are brave. They are either killed, or cowards.
Tobias sees my discomfort and pulles me closer. I sigh, knowing that he too is hating this. All the voices in the dining hall die out when Eric takes the stage.
"Abagail was a good person. She was dauntless, trying to out brave everything and everyone, even the laws of gravety". Abagail must be the dead divergent girl. Eric continues saying how much she will be missed, and how everyone will mourn her. I can't stand this anymore.
Tobias wears the same look I must be having. Disgust. Without exchanging any words, we both stand up and leave.
Once we are out of the dining hall, I turn to him. "Now what? We can't really go back to my appartment, Uriah is still there." He does not respond just takes my hand and drags me along.
He doesn't let go of my hand untill we reach the train tracks. In the distance I can see a light, the train must be coming. "Second cart" Tobias says. The train comes closer. I start to run, I can hear him right behind me. With a loud noise I land in the cart. Tobias on the other hand lands gracefully as always.
"Where to?" I ask. He just shrugs and I frown. "Lets just ride the train for a while" he finally says. The wind throws me off balance, a hand steadies me. My knees are weak, my back slides down against the wall.
He sits in front of me and pulls me into his lap. His lips find mine. Not in a hurry, but soft and gentil. Our toungues slowly circling each other. My fingers move from the hem of his shirt, up his back and find their way into his hair. Pulling him closer to me. Needing him.
Tobias moans, lets his hands slide down my back. I feel the tip of his fingers on my skin, between my trousers and my shirt. I sigh.
"I love you" I whisper in his ear.
Gently he pulls his face a few inches back so he can see my face. Then I realize it's the first time I said it out loud. I open my eyes, his face is coverd by a huge smile.
"What did you say?" he says, still smiling.
"You heard me" I respond, while I look away, suddently embarrassed by my show of affection.
He cups my face in his hands. Forcing me to look at him. Shakes his head a little "No I didn't, say it again" I smile at this. Lean into him and say "I love you, Tobias Eaton".
He plants a kiss on my temple, on my cheek, then on my lips. "I love you too, Tris Prior. Very much"
I pull his head to mine and kiss him. Our bodies fitting perfectly together. I wish we could stay this way forever. Me on his lap, his eyes at the same level as mine, our lips together.
But then there is reallity.