A/N Sorry for the delay. I was a little bit busy and also not in the mood for writing. I hope I can make it up to you. Enjoy the new chapter.

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This is going to be tough. A hard one. She needs guidance and structure. There is no other way. But it will hurt her. You know that. You already thought about that. But there was no way to communicate with JJ, it was heart breaking. All effort of the team, of her close friends was blocked by her. And you, you are the enemy right now. JJ showed you that, you are responsible for saving her life. At her point of view of the world, her world. Yes, she is in her own world right now and it will take everything to bring her back.

First of all, it needs structure. The best structure she knows is the team and FBI structure. Being the enemy, you will play the part of the bad boss, that will put her in her place again. And to do so, you will make the decision you considered these days. Guardianship. The appointment with all needed persons is in about an hour.

Everything is set now. Everything is set now, to hurt JJ. Your heart sinks. You sigh. You look out of the window of your office. This is going to be tough. A hard one.

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Thoughts are running through your mind. You can't manage them. Today you accomplished the first task on your duty as a guardian. You make a short stop between pacing in the hallway. JJ was now restricted in a safe room, where she won't be able to harm herself. The doctors made clear, that she is still a threat to herself. You sigh and start pacing again. You can't handle the situation well. That is one of the things you noticed today. JJ was still in her own world, not talking to anybody, not even to Garcia or Emily. Not even communicating. At what you can do the best, you are failing. Talk to people, get through to them. But this is different, it is affecting you and your team. There is a huge pressure that lies on everybody, to do it right, to make it up to JJ. But she don't want to. She is lost, apparently.

"Agent Hotchner?"

A voice rips you out of your thoughts. You look up, who is talking to you. You raise your eyebrows.

"I'm Hannah Foster, I'm the therapist that will work with Agent Jareau."

"SSA Hotchner, nice to meet you!"

"Agent Hotchner, I want to talk to you about Agent Jareau. I want to draw a picture of her, that I can work with."

"Yes, of course."

After you sit down in the small conference room, you watch Hannah. She seems calm and settled. She looks up to you.

"So, what can you tell me about Agent Jareau in your team at the FBI."

You talked about an half hour. The memories about Jennifer working in her office, presenting you a new case and laughing with the others in the small kitchen lifted you up a bit. But it also hurts, to be reminded, that obviously this JJ is gone. For now. You can't even imagine if JJ is going to be able to work again, after what had happened. It is evident, JJ has given up herself. Will the woman in front of you be able to get through to JJ? You don't know, you can't tell. You hope she will.

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The coffee is soothing you. You take a deep breath through your nose, tasting the smell of the coffee in your hands. You sigh and open your eyes again. Rossi is watching you closely, eying you.

"What?"

"You need a break Hotch."

"What are you talking about."

"You know what I'm talking about."

You frown and stare at Rossi.

"You take too much load on you, Aaron."

He makes his look more concerned than it already was. Aaron, he only calls you Aaron when he is very serious. Like now. You look down at your coffee and say nothing.

"The pressure these days is eating you alive and you didn't sleep well. You know that. You look like hell, Hotch."

A silence settles in.

"When was the last time you spend time with Jack?"

"He is fine, he enjoys being with his grandparents."

"That's not what I mean."

You look up.

"We all are on the edge Hotch, but you made also this decision for guardianship and take further a huge responsibility. That is what you always do, that is what you are good at. But you have to take care of yourself." He pauses. "Otherwise I have to take guardianship over you."

He smirks. You cannot help and chuckle. But is stops right away, when your phone vibrated in your pocket.

"Hotchner."

It is the ICU and your heart stops for a moment. The nurse sounds very nervous and you are too right now.

"I'm on my way."

You look up to Rossi and you can tell he knows what is going on.

By no time you are approaching Dr. Kassanoff in the hallway of the ICU.

"Agent Hotchner, thank you for being so quick. Mrs. Foster is in her room right now and she is demanding you, JJ has obviously a flashback again."

You nod and make your way to the room. You already can see through the window, JJ sitting in the bed, crumpled to herself and shaking with her whole body. Hannah sitting beside JJ trying to sooth her. You brace yourself and enter the room. Hannah is turning around to you, but JJ doesn't move.

Hannah stands up.

"Agent Jareau has a flashback."

"Alright, but why are you requesting my presence?"

"Well, not I am requesting it. Agent Jareau is."

Your gaze moves away from Hannah's face to JJ, still shivering in the bed. You nod and pass the therapist. Slowly you are approaching JJ and sit down on the chair next to the bed. It seems as JJ still doesn't notice you are next to her.

"JJ."

Your voice is calm and soft. You reach out with your hand trying to touch JJ. In the same moment she lifts her head and looks into your eyes.

"Hotch?"

"Yes, I'm here now. You are safe."

You touch JJ's hand, that is wrapped around her legs. You see JJ still shaking and feel the urge to hold her tight. You stand up and sit down in the bed next to JJ and wrap your arm around her shoulder. You trying to sooth her and pull her tight in to your embrace. The shaking is calming down and she places her head on your chest, as you stroke her gently over her back. After a while you look up out of the window of the room. Rossi standing there, with his hands in is pocket and watching you. Sadness is in his eyes. Yes, you are sad too. The flashbacks are the worst. It is like a bad movie is playing. You want to stop it, but you cant, you have to watch it, how JJ is reliving her hell. All you can do is trying to calm JJ down. The shell that is left of JJ, because beside the emotions that she is going through with the flashbacks, she is withdrawn and cold. That hurts. Both.