Hello~ I just want to say, I DON'T hate Tadase. I personally am ticked off when people refer to him as "Tadagay" or whatnot and it may seem like I don't like him either, but I do. It's just that this is Amuto, and, well, there's no space for Tadamu (:
So, just making it clear that I'm not bashing on Tadase; I simply couldn't think of a character that could play that part and I didn't want to make a new character.
Enjoy~

I don't own Shugo Chara!

X

The next morning, Ikuto sat down onto the school chair tiredly. He leaned forward and rested his forehead against the cool plastic of the table and heaved out a great sigh. He heard footsteps approaching him tentatively and he lifted his head lazily to see who it was.

A girl with rusty red curls stood in front of him, straightening her uniform skirt nervously. Ikuto recognized the girl—Yamabuki Saaya, if he remembered correctly—to be one of Utau's friends. She had come over to their house a couple of times back when Utau was still healthy. He smiled at her carefully; he honestly couldn't remember what kind of impression she had left on him.

"Hello, Saaya." She perked up at her name and smiled widely.

"You remember me?"

"Of course. Utau's friend, right?" Saaya nodded enthusiastically and neatly sat down next to him, arranging her skirt to cover herself properly.

"I had a question about the math homework. Can you help me?" Ikuto shrugged.

"Why not?" Saaya leaned over and pulled out a bright pink notebook and opened it to a page. She sat as close as she could to him, delighted that he didn't move away. As he worked out the problem, she blatantly stared at him.

Saaya had liked Ikuto for as long as she could remember, and had tried to make it obvious to him. Last year, his girlfriend had committed suicide and she had laid off for it for a while but she decided that he had had enough time.

"Do you understand now?"

Saaya snapped out of her thoughts and nodded quickly.

"Yes, thank you so much!"

"You're welcome." Ikuto turned to his bag and began to take out his books.

"U-um. Could I have your number? Just in case I need to ask more questions."

"Sure." Saaya quickly handed him a blank piece of paper where he wrote his number and slid it back to her.

"I'll help you any time since you're my sister's friend." Ikuto smiled at her warmly and returned to his business. Saaya nodded dumbly and walked back to her desk, a little dazed by the smile he had shown her.

Ikuto glanced over at the desk Amu usually sat at, surprised to see that it was empty. Today was the day to work on their project. He sighed and made a mental note to ask her for her number at some point. Amu was probably sick or something; it couldn't be anything serious.

Ikuto turned his attention to the front of the room when the teacher walked in, but his mind slid back to Amu. They would have to reschedule a time, unless she managed to make it to his house. He sighed and rubbed his forehead tiredly.

He hated group projects.

X

Amu desperately tried to wrench her wrist away from Tadase's strong grip. He growled and dragged her into her own room, throwing her to the floor.

"Is this how you repay my grace?"

"L-listen, Tadase, I-"

"DON'T. Call me by my name. You would just dirty my name. Mom was right. You are a filthy little bitch. Isn't that guy somewhat popular? What'd you do to get him?"

"I didn't do anything! I-I-" Tadase kicked her in the ribs harshly, knocking the wind out of her. Without another word, he disappeared. Amu felt her throat constricting. How could this be happening to her? Just yesterday, her life had been fine. Just yesterday, she had been happy.

The door opened again and Tadase reentered with a glass and a bottle of vodka. Amu's eyes widened in surprise—he never drank! He sat back into an armchair and poured himself a glass.

"So tell me," he said, "what kind of dirty deed did you do?" He downed the shot and wiped his mouth. Amu felt fear gnawing at her stomach and her lips were glued together. She couldn't find the willpower to open her mouth and speak.

"Tell me." He downed another shot.

"Did you sleep with him? I bet you did. I bet you're not even a virgin. Well guess what? Neither am I." Amu felt like she had just been struck physically. Tadase had told her over and over again that he was a virgin, and was waiting for her.

"What a fucking dirty slut." He laughed harshly.

"W-wait, Tadase, I-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

Tadase threw his glass across the room in anger and it shattered somewhere behind Amu. There was a vein bulging from his neck and his face was red with fury. Amu couldn't help but cower in fear at this and a small whimper left her lips.

"What a piece of shit you are. Really."

Amu bit her lip, trying to stop the onslaught of tears that were threatening to fall.

"Are you going to cry? What right do you have to cry, slut?"

Amu shook, her eyes filled with fear and absolute terror. Tadase laughed and nudged her in the side.

"Hmm? Hey! Bitch! Answer to your master."

He rammed his foot into her side repeatedly. Amu couldn't believe what was happening to her. Who was this man in front of her?

And then she realized it.

Why couldn't she have seen earlier that those ruby red eyes weren't warm but rather crimson with wrath and vengeance? Why couldn't she have seen it coming?

"I bet you think I'm being terrible to you. But, bitch, did you ever realize that you deserved this? You were a terrible daughter to your parents. And now you can't even make a proper girlfriend."

Amu's world began crashing down around her.

Worthless.

Was that what she really was? Did she deserve this?

Amu found herself saying yes, chanting it like a mantra.

She deserved every bit of this punishment. And Tadase knew it.

Tadase saw the light in her eyes die out and she crumpled over in defeat. He smiled wickedly.

"Oh yes, bitch. You're a fucking piece of shit and now you're going to realize it." He stood up and dragged her up and threw her onto the bed.

"If you can't be a proper girlfriend, you can at least please me."

Amu's head whipped up in fear.

She wasn't ready for any of this.

"T-Tadase, I-" She felt a blow to her cheek and she fell back into the bed. Tadase loosened his tie and in a swift, single movement, wrapped it around her mouth.

"To silence you. You're too loud."

Amu began shaking her head in terror as he advanced toward her. She bumped into the headboard and began to wave her arms and legs around wildly.

"Why you—You little bitch! The least you could do is to just receive your punishment!"

He punched her in the eye and her head bumped into the board. Her mind blanked out from the pain and Tadase took the opportunity to flip her around and pin her down into the bed. He ripped a long strip of the bed sheets and tied her hands behind her back.

When Amu finally was able to realize what was happening, she felt her skirt getting ripped off. She shrieked against the gag in horror when she felt something against her entrance and tried to pull away. The pressure on her back increased tenfold.

Without hesitating, Tadase rammed into her and she screamed. She felt herself break open and nearly fainted from the pain that consumed her. He hadn't even bothered to lubricate himself before and the friction made her cry out in agony.

Amu felt hands press into her hips roughly and she could already feel the bruises beginning to form. Her body quickly began to lubricate itself in order to lessen the pain and she dug her face into pillow.

"Fucking –hah- slut-hah- Worthless –hah- bitch-hah."

Tadase wasn't merciful on her poor body and tore her open. He grabbed her legs and stretched them out for extra entrance. Amu's mind was reeling from the pain and shock that she couldn't even fight back. Tears were streaming down her face and she was screaming, crying for help. Tadase laughed and drove into her grinning when he saw the blood dripping down his girth.

He felt himself grow even bigger at the sight and he immediately released into her, moaning.

When he finished, he zipped his pants up and stood up, laughing at her pitiful state.

She was covered in blood, sweat, cum and tears and she was naked for the whole world to see. He untied his tie from her mouth and her hands and began to walk out.

"Don't even try telling anyone. Or else, you don't know what'll happen. Maybe you'll go back home to your father."

Amu froze.

Did Tadase know?

He knew what she had done wrong when she, herself, didn't know. Amu deserved this.

Amu lifted a blanket to cover her nakedness and lay silently by herself. Tears were streaming down her face and she trembled.

She had never felt so dirty and low before.

But maybe she had always been like this. That was what Tadase was trying to show her.

Amu lay in a pool of her own thoughts. When Amu finally found enough energy to get up, she saw the bright morning light peeping through the curtains. She dragged herself to the bathroom, pain shooting up and down her spine at every step. She lowered herself into the tub and filled it with warm water.

Her mind was still in a daze and she methodically scrubbed the dry cum and blood off of her thighs. No matter how hard she scrubbed herself, she couldn't rid herself of this disgusting feeling. She felt so tainted and used. Amu wanted to get rid of how repulsive she felt but only her skin came away, leaving raw, red marks.

She was born like this, wasn't she? Yuuki and Tadase and her father were right. She had done something to deserve all of this. She glanced at the bruises that peppered her body in various places, the most severe being by her ribcage.

Amu refilled the tub, sat back, and let herself cry silently.

Her salty tears dropped into the bath, leaving nothing behind but the emotions that shed those tears.

X

Yuuki sat on the couch in the living room, nervously tapping her foot. What was going on with Tadase and Amu? She shook her head quickly. It didn't matter—whatever Amu got was what she deserved. She nodded her head once to reassure herself.

"Mom?" a voice called from the entrance as the door shut.

Yuuki jumped up. Her one and only daughter was home!

The girl entered the house, slipping her shoes off and rolling a bag in.

"I heard that you were here, Mom. So I came too!"

"Saaya!" Yuuki dashed to her and wrapped her into a hug. "You came back from America! It's been, what, two years?"

"I was back for a while Mom, I just wanted to see if I could live on my own for a while. But I missed you too much, so here I am!" Yuuki ushered her onto the sofa and sat down next to her.

"So, any guys? You have to start dating if you want to get married you know!" Saaya blushed and huffed under her breath.

"Mom!"

"Well, do you?"

"Um… yeah…"

"Who?"

"Mom! I'm not going to tell you. I want to try to get him on my own. You're probably going to scare him away anyway." Yuuki was bubbling with curiosity. Who could it be? "Where's Tadase?"

"He's at school."

"Oh. And what about that girl, Amu?"

Yuuki hesitated. What was she supposed to tell Saaya?

"She's, um, not feeling well so she's upstairs. But don't go bother her. She'll probably come down for dinner."

"Alright. I'm gonna head upstairs and wash up. There's a guest room, right?" Yuuki nodded once.

"Second floor, the end of the hallway."

Saaya got up and stretched before grabbing her suitcase and lugging it up the staircase.

It felt so good to be home.

She couldn't wait to see Tadase—how glad would he be? She was more neutral about Amu—she didn't necessarily like her but she didn't hate her either. She was, she supposed, a little happy to see her too.

Saaya went into the room and fell onto the bed, humming contently.

She couldn't wait to see Ikuto again the next day.

A/N: Well, I want to know how you felt about this chapter, so please, please review! You don't have to ever review again(I lied), I just really want to know your opinions. By the way, I'll try to update again this week since I do have the week off, BUT it'll depend on the number of reviews(probably not). After that, it'll go back to the usual once a week update.
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