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Author's Note: Sorry for not updating for so long! I give all my thanks to Kurasuchi, Person, scissortea, angel-darkness123, guest and Murayama-Tsuru for reviewing the last chapter! I still can't believe I reached 40 reviews .
Chapter 9: Misunderstandings Are A Hassle
Kagura's eyes shot open, and she realizes that she is in her bedroom. Despite having just woken up, her heart was beating extremely fast with her flushed face, remembering last night, but because it was unbelievable, she is half convinced it was all a dream. She shook her head violently before finally standing up and heading for the shower.
'Was it...was it all a simple dream?' Kagura shut her eyes as she let the water rush down her petite body. As she listend to the water clash with the floor, she felt her heartbeat pace faster, just by thinking of him and the kiss they had share underneath the moon and the stars.
'But it was all too real,' Kagura fluttered her eyes half open, and placed her fingertip on her lips, where as if she could still feel his lips on hers. A sigh escaped from her lips.
'Impossible,' she thought. 'There is no way that sensei would love me...' she convinced herself.
After she had put her shoes on, she grabbed her keys and went out of her room, only to find Gintoki exit his apartment as well. Kagura remained silent, hoping that he could say something that could confirm that it wasn't all just a dream, but unfortunately...
"Good morning, Kagura-san," said Gintoki as he avoided her gaze, and silently walked away from her, leaving her speechlessly disappointed on her spot. A blank expression of disbelief had adorned her features as she stared at his broad shoulders slowly getting further away...
'So...all a dream?' She thought with her head down.
[ 8 : 0 0 A.M. ]
After he had took their attendance, he started with his math lessons, but Kagura was still in a daze staring completely at nothing...She grabbed her big round glasses from her pocket that she used to wear back in middle school. She had used it to hide her face from the other students after she was framed of cheating on Sougo, because she hated the stares she was getting.
Now, she wants to hide her face as well from Gintoki, and she didn't know why, but she just did, so she put it on without even realizing she was catching the attention of Sougo. After she had wore it, she just continued to stare at nothing...
"Who wants to answer this problem?" Gintoki turned to the class seeing if someone had raised their hand, and because Kagura was blank, she hadn't even noticed that Sougo had raised her hands for her to go up to the board, and after finally snapping back to reality, she growled at the guy, and he just winked at her, angering her further.
"Kagura-san, please come up to the board," Gintoki had his eyes on her, and he cleared his throat, stepped back, and looked away to hide his blush. Kagura didn't like this awkward atmosphere so she wrote her equations as fast as she could, and walked back to her seat.
"Uhm...Who would like to answer the next problem?" And that was how the class went...
[ 1 2 : 0 0 P.M. ]
As Sougo watch Kagura pace out the classroom, he leaned back on his chair, as he tried to stop the pounding in his head, and the cause of this is because lately, he's been lacking sleep, because of his aching heart. It might sound cheesy, but it was the truth. Because by the end of the day, when he thinks of Kagura, it starts to hurt him deep down, so he ends up sleeping at three in the morning.
"Sougo, are you alright?" Hijikata asks, but Sougo slowly stands up.
"Uh, yeah...I'll be in the library," Sougo fakes a smile, which was one thing he was good at. As he grew up, he was always taught to smile charismatically, due to business purposes.
Sougo randomly grabbed a book and sat by the end of the library, by the window, which gave him the view of the garden. Little did he know (because he wasn't looking), there, underneath the stone pavillion, was Kagura who was sitting in depress...He sighed as he hid his face in the book, and he closes his eyes to get some sleep, when he hears his conscience to look out the window.
The moment he looked out, as if lightning had struck him, he stood up from his chair and with his heart racing faster by the second, he's brain had started an internal war with him.
'Should I approach her?' the thought had crossed his mind...
'If I do, it'll only hurt me...' thought Sougo with his eyes turning rheumy with tears forming by, and he clenches his fist as he stared at her sad blue eyes that were just asking for comfort...
'...But If I don't go now, I'll only regret it...and It'll hurt more later,' he reasoned with himself, and after reaching to a conclusion, he rushed out of the library...
[...]
"Was it all a dream?" Kagura tilted her head and pouted her lips as the memory of last night play in her head, causing her to puff into a thousand shades of red, and she started squealing like she was a 4-year-old who was visiting Disneyland, but after the scene this morning, one where Gintoki had barely said anything to her, her hands slowly fall to her side and her expression turns sour.
"Sensei," She said with a hushed voice and a distant expression. "I hate you," She said as she punch her chest where her heart was located, because it was hurting.
"Hey, you, the pretty girl sitting in the middle of the garden," She looked up hoping it was her beloved teacher, only to find that it was Sougo who was strutting his way over to her with both hands in his pocket. Her sad look was immediately replaced with bitter annoyance the moment he started doing one of his "charming" smile.
"What's your name?" he asks as if it was one of those scenes in the drama, only to have Kagura putting on an annoyed frown.
"I don't get you," She said. "You say that you love me, so how can you forget my name?" Kagura said blankly, and Sougo's face only darkened, not getting the response he wanted. He was about to give up, when a certain line had crossed his mind.
"You were so beautiful that I forgot your name," He chuckled and brushed a hand through his hair, but Kagura shivered in disgust at the line he just said, and Sougo's jaw dropped to the ground.
"How can you hate that line?" Sougo asked with his voice raised, and Kagura only snickered.
"How can you not hate that line?" She crossed her arms and scoffed, but in the back of her head...'Actaully, I kind of like that line, but it would've been better if sensei had said it,' she thought cheekily.
"Well anyway, why are you wearing your glasses again?" asked Sougo, making Kagura flinched as she remembered why, and immediately became depressed in a lump, and Sougo only laughed at her.
"What are you laughing at?" She growled at him, but he continued to laugh with one of his refreshing laugh, until he came to a stop and smiled at her.
"You were once in love with me, so I can make you love me again," He said, sitting across her, and Kagura only glared at him like he was stupid.
"It's because I was in love with you that I won't fall in love with you ever again, you conceited jackass," She stuck her tongue out on him. After a few moments of silnce had passed, he smirks, making her gulp.
"You're wearing glasses because something bad has happened to you again," Sougo stated, and Kagura felt an arrow shoot through her chest after being found out so easily. "Am I right?" He asked with a victorious smirk, but it was accompanied with a tinge of hurt, after concluding that it had something to do with love.
"I don't have to answer to you," Kagura said looking away from him before he discovers anything else, except her expression had no hint of anger, but only of sadness because her thoughts were filled of Gintoki. She leaned back on the pillar to rest her head, and she closed her eyes for a few seconds, and a soft sigh escaped her lips.
"But I don't understand you," Kagura said with a quiet volume, with her eyes still closed. Sougo's became more keen on his hearing when he she started to talk about him.
"You ended everything, even when I begged on my knees on that stormy day that you'd forgive me..." Kagura's eyes that were now half-open revealed soft, weak and sad eyes after just remembering the past, and Sougo lowered his head in regret...
"And now you're saying you want me back after three years..." Kagura said with her nose starting to sting, threatening tears to form.
"You're really amazing," Kagura said with pure sarcasm and with her patronizing eyes glued to his. Kagura's eyes slowly closed again, placing her head in a position where he can't see. Sougo silently crept behind her, and swiftly snatches her glasses away from her face! Alarmed, Kagura immediately stood up.
"Give it back!" Kagura exclaimed as she tip toed to reach her glasses, but he had lifted them up so high that she couldn't reach it. In the spur of the moment, Kagura lost her balance and was about to hit her head on the marble pillars, only to have Sougo grab her waist, and his hand tight on her wrist, and he pulls her closer to him. The clanking of the glasses that had fell to the floor and the breeze's low whistle was the only thing to be heard as Sougo got lost in her beautiful and bright eyes...
"W-what...?" Kagura mumbled as she turned her head from side to side, refusing to look him in the eyes.
"Kagura," His soft and mellow voice had soothed her, but as she tried to escape, he had tightened his grip on her, which had left Kagura bewildered at his actions. Kagura glared at the taller guy, but his expression remained neutral, showing no emotion at all, but except maybe that certain loneliness he had deep inside him, after years filled with business, business and business ever since that day he had broke up with her.
Sougo pulls her into a passionate hug, catching Kagura off guard as she stood on her toes. He hugged her ever so dearly that it was hurting him so much, he could break down at this moment.
"Please," He said. "For now, I won't request anything from you, except for us to stay this way," He pleaded with a desperation, and even thought Kagura remains off-guard, she pushes him away gently.
"Sorry, but I can't do this," Kagura looked away from him, because if she did, she felt that she would have no choice but to pity and sympathize with him and go with his request. "We really shouldn't be talking like this either. We're over," Kagura said, walking away from him, as he stood alone and heartbroken.
"It's not over until the both party agrees it's over," stated Sougo, making Kagura stop on her tracks.
In a cool manner, Kagura looked back and said, "Once one side of the relationship has lost the feel, it's over."
[...]
After finally managing to escape from Sougo, Kagura went ahead to go to the classroom before he did. Just as Kagura was about to slide the classroom's door open, the door opened, revealing Otae, who was surprised to see her there. There was an awkward pause between them...
"A-ah, what to do?...I left something," Kagura pretended to mumble to herself and walks away from the door, just when Otae was about to say something herself...Otae stared at her retreating figure with regret.
'I really am horrible...' thought Otae with grief.
[ 5 : 3 0 P.M. ]
Sougo sighed as he entered his father's office, only to see Matako and the Kijima family, his sister, and his father waiting for him. There was a tense atmosphere in the room, and Sougo gulps, afraid of facing the Kijima family. Sougo also feared that because of what happened in the social gathering, her parents are mad at him, and so was his father, and that his sister would be incredibly disappointed in him.
"Take a seat, Sou-chan," Mitsuba says, patting the seat beside her. The seat that was for him was just right in front of Matako's dad, making Sougo feel more panicked.
"Do you not love my daughter?" He asks, and Sougo gulps at his blunt question, but for him, this was the opportunity to end the engagement. Sougo heavily felt their stares on him, and he felt like he was going to shrink, but he gathers his courage.
"Uh...You're daughter is very beautiful, but I don't think she's the one for me" Sougo bows apologetically, and Matako's mother sighed heavily, Matako glared at him, Mitsuba patted him on the back, but Matako's father and his father only nodded understandingly.
"This is..." Matako's father had a look filled with remorse. "It would've made me feel better if you had rejected the proposal in the beginning," a forced but apologetic smile appears on his face, but Sougo only lowered his head. The room was silent until Matako stood up.
"I will not accept this!" She exclaimed with her voice loud and clear, everyone remains silent, except for Matako's mom who had told her to calm down.
'Her parents are so kind, so why is she a hassle?' Sougo wondered if it ever had something to do with past family conflicts of hers, but Sougo clears the thought away.
"I'm very sorry," Sougo stood up and bowed in a ninety-degree angle. "I hope that this doesn't change your opinion in the company," Sougo commented.
"Of course not," Matako's dad smiled, but it faded once he came to ask this question. "But is it fine if Matako were to transfer to your school?" Sougo was filled with shock and surprise and also nervousness when he heard his questions.
"But why would Matako want to go to a...as she said 'commoner school'?" Sougo rephrased, and Matako reddened in anger that he had mentioned that.
"It is obivous. It's because the one she loves is there," Her mother said in weary at how slow Sougo was.
"Oh! Of course. You didn't have to ask my permission for that," Sougo forced a smile.
"I just wanted to be sure you are comfortable with that," her father smiles. "I'll give you three weeks. Until then, please rethink whether you are going through with the marriage or not," Her father said, and Sougo bowed in thanks.
[ 7 : 0 0 P.M. ]
Kagura exited from the backdoor of the restaurant, and because she was kidnapped before, she was extra alert this time. Kagura slightly tilted her head to herself, for she still didn't know who had kidnapped her, but she somehow got "saved" by Soshi.
As she dragged her way home after a tiring shift at work, she stared blankly on the stone pavement. With the sound of car engines going softer and softer, with the street lights slowly going fuzzy, hazy and blurred, everything has became her simple background as her silent tears fell to the ground.
"Eh?" She said as she touched her cheeks, only to find that trail of teardop on her cheeks. She had unintentionally and unconciously cried, feeling like she was betrayed by his words.
"I love you," the words that he, Gintoki, had phrased the night before echoes in her head as she winced at the pain her heart was feeling.
"Was it really just a dream?" She asked as the sight in front of her had blurred from her wet eyes, and a soft sob escaped her rosy lips. Stubbornly, she wipes her tears and frowns.
"Kagura! Why are you hurt from this?" She asked herself, then she walks as if nothing had happen.
[...]
Kagura sighs as she turned around the corner to the block her apartment complex was in with low spirits, mumbling particularly about nothing. As she made her way up the stairs, she started to curse and her anger starts to grow way greater than she has ever been furious before.
"That damn perm, playing with my feelings?" She said with an annoyed tone. "You think I'd be that stupid to think that was all a dream?!" She exclaimed as she stormed her way over to Gintoki's front door. Instead of ringing the doorbell, she furiously knocked on his door, after finally snapping. After Gintoki opened his door, he reveals a neutral expression.
"You!" Kagura grabbed his collar so they can see eye-to-eye, but Gintoki had to bend down uncomfortably.
"What?" Gintoki asked smugly, with an annoyed frown present as well. Now, it was both of them that was mad at each other.
"Who do you think you are, playing with my feelings?!" Kagura asked with a low growl and a strong glare, but Gintoki's squint was more powerful than hers.
"I could ask you the same. You kiss me, and the next day, you're hanging out with another guy!" Gintoki hissed, and Kagura's eyes widened in shock, confused as to what he was talking about, so she let go of his collar.
"You...could you be the jealous type? And you saw all that happened?" Kagura's eyes were comically round as dinner plates.
"I'm being serious," Flustered after finally seeing her face, Gintoki looks away.
"First of all," Kagura frowned. "It wasn't hanging out, he approached me without my consent, and second, it's your fault you were cold to me this morning," Kagura pointed out, and Gintoki sighed in frustration.
"Yeah, I-I know," Gintoki looks down in a dejected way, leaving Kagura more confused thatn before.
"I'm not supposed to be doing this. You're my student," Gintoki says with a stern look that made Kagura cringe in distaste.
"What does that have to do with us?" Kagura asks with a fierce look in her eyes. "What does our occupations have to do with it?" Kagura asks with her eyes growing firm.
"Don't you understand? That is frowned upon by society," Gintoki frowns as well as to how unreasonable she was getting. In great dissappointment and disbelief, her shoulders slumped down, as her eyes starts to grow rheumy.
"Then...why in the first place have you told me you loved me? Are you crazy?" She asks with an annoyed expression. "This is like giving a baby a candy and taking it away again! Does it amuse you?!" She exclaimed.
"You know what?" Kagura says with a disgusted tone. "I was stupid to even have loved you," Kagura threw her hands up in the air in frustration and aggravation.
"Thanks a lot, sensei," Kagura says in abhorrence, and walks away. As Gintoki watched her leave, he clenched his jaws, and clamp his hands, before his head shot up, and he ran to her and grabbed her wrist, turned her around, and pressed their lips together, and Kagura flinched in shock. Kagura pushes him away, and Gintoki wipes his lips.
"Kagura Yato, you said you were stupid for loving me," Gintoki restated, and Kagura remains frowning. "I too, am stupid for crossing the boundaries between student and teacher, friend and neighbor, because I really do love you," said Gintok with a pained expression, and Kagura's eyes widened, as Gintoki went closer and caressed her cheeks passionately, and a sharp gasp escaped her lips in surprise.
"So, for a minute, let's forget about the rest of the world," Gintoki says with confidence and determination, and Kagura remains speechless.
"What do you say?" Gintoki asks nervously, and Kagura gulps as tears ran down her face.
"You should've...done that earlier," Kagura sobbed as she hugged him. A fond smile appeared on Gintoki's face, as he hugged her in return.
[ The Next Day ]
It was a Saturday morning, and luckily for Kagura, she had her shift changed and she had day offs on Saturday. Kagura was going to spend her whole day studying for tests, but a part of her just wanted to go out for a walk. Kagura groaned at her puffy eyes that was from crying almost the whole night yesterday, but she goes to take a bath.
After, she put on a pair of indigo shorts that had white polkadots, a black tank top, covered by a translucent, loose, elegant, lavender-colored blouse. She clipped her hair into a bun, and pinned her bangs to the left, then put on her grey flats. She grabbed her phone and her apartment keys, and went out of her apartment...As she went down the stairs, she hears Gintoki's voice from behind her.
"Where do you think you're going?" Gintoki asks with a smirk, as he hugged her from behind.
"I'm going on a date with my boyfriend," Kagura giggles, and Gintoki chuckles as he cuddled her.
"Is that so? You're boyfriend must be a lucky guy," Gintoki says, and Kagura laughs. Kagura turns around, but she immediately puffed into a thousand shades of red the moment she saw Gintoki in...different clothing.
He wore mocha-colored jeans, a black and white striped long-sleeves that were rolled to the elbows, and then a black vest over it. This was the first time Kagura had seen him in such a get up, and with the get up, in seemed to have decreased the age gap between the two.
"You look younger," Kagura blushed and looked away, and Gintoki playfully frowns.
"I was always young," Gintoki commented, and Kagura only blankly nod.
A/N: I'll finish up to here for now. ^^" The next chapter will be about their date, and how "Someone" will see them together, and the like :P I hope you liked this chapter x[
