Ellie you need to calm down.
Think about Stiles.
I'm sorry I couldn't stop.
You need control.
Ellie please stay.
You made the wrong choice.
The voices kept repeating in my head as I walked around town. The looks on their faces, betrayal. I left the only family I had left. Tears streaked down my face and before I knew it I was sobbing. I had no where to go, no family, no control.
I sat down on a bench with my head in my hands. I jumped when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see Stiles sending me a sad smile.
"Scott told me what happened." He said wiping one of my tears.
"The way they looked at me." I said hiccupping every other word. " It was like I stabbed them in the back." I looked at the ground letting more tears out.
"Hey hey look at me." He said pulling my chin up. " You did the right thing."
" Then why does it feel so wrong?" I asked looking him in the eye. " Maybe I shouldn't have taken the bite. Should have known cheating death was a bad idea. I was weak... I still am."
"Hey! Don't say that! If you didn't then you would never become this version of yourself." He said with so much feeling in his voice.
I let out a dry laugh." Yea because this version of my self is such a jewel. You heard what I did to Derek."
"So you need to gain control. That's normal though. There has never been a werewolf that had instant control. you need to work on that. Scott and I will help you." He supportively.
" I just don't want to hurt anyone." I whimpered softly.
"We can help with that." He said with a smile." Anyone ever tell you that you care too much?"
I let out a weak giggle. " All the time." I looked down at his hands and saw they were shaking. "What's wrong?"
"It's nothing." He said looking away.
"Please tell me." I begged.
He sighed and told me everything. We spent hours on that bench talking about werewolves and whatever the thing that attacked him today was.
"So where are you going to stay now?" He asked as we got up getting ready to leave.
" I don't know my house I guess." I said in a small voice. I was just getting used to not being alone anymore.
He looked conflicted for a second before pulling out his phone. "Here put your number in." He handed his phone to me and I handed him mine. " Cool let me walk you home."
" You don't have to." I said shyly.
"I want to." He replied I smiled and we walked side by side oblivious to the four pairs of eyes watching us.
"Ok just breath, try to control it. Think of Stiles. Let him be your anchor." Scott came by my house to help me learn control. He's actually really good at it. Like he was destined to be a leader." The trick is to not kill people but to use your abilities to your advantage. Your weakness is your care towards people. You always see the best in people even if it's not there. To be a good wolf you need to use your senses to determine who to trust." He said walking up to stand in front of me.
I breathed in deeply and felt my face change. " But I don't want to change."
"Then don't become a better version of yourself." Scott responded.
This made me think back to last night with Stiles. If you didn't then you would never become this version of yourself. I took in another deep breath thinking about him. I felt myself shift back.
"You really love him huh?" Scott asked stepping back.
" Since 2nd grade." I said sheepishly.
"Wow he is totally oblivious." He said with a smile.
I smiled back." Thank you by the way. You didn't have to accept me but you did."
"Are you kidding? I knew from the start you would fit in more on our side. Last night was just proving my point." He said with a friendly smile that I returned. " You know Stiles has been pretty attached to you lately." He said with a sly smile.
I blushed and looked away. " Ok back to training." I said.
" .. We'll get through this." I heard Stiles say as I walked over to him and Scott." I know because I love you , I love you more than-"
"Am I interrupting some intense bromance scene?" I asked teasingly.
"What? No I mean I'm not... Not that there is anything wrong with.. It's just ... I LIKE BOOBS"
I am now on the floor laughing along with Scott and Stiles looks like a tomato. When I'm finally able to breath again I asked." So what was that about?"
"Apparently I am Allison and Scott's private massager." Stiles said still a little flushed.
"Oh yeah you guys are doing the whole Romeo and Juliet thing right?" I asked Scott.
"What did Deaton say?" Stiles asked changing the subject but still smiling at my comment.
"He said Allison's family has record of things they hunted like a book." He said and I nodded in agreement remembering what happened after the ice rink.
" You mean like a Beastiary." Stiles said knowingly.
"I think you mean bestiality." Scott said with a smirk.
I couldn't help but look at Stiles to see he is already looking at me. I quickly look away and Stiles clears his throat.
" Pretty sure I don't." Stiles said.
"It's like an encyclopedia for mythical creatures." I joined in.
Scott looks taken aback. " How am I the only one that doesn't know any of this stuff?"
"I'm best friends with a creature of the night it's kind of a priority of mine." Stiles responded.
"I just did my research." I said feeling incredibly smart at the moment.
" Don't be a smart ass Ellie." Scott said with a knowing smile and I laughed.
"Anyways ." Stiles said with a jealous edge to his voice." The book might tell us what we're dealing with-"
"And who." Scott added.
"We need that book." The three of us said at once.
So my job for operation Beastiary is to go with Stiles to get the book. All I have to do is wait for the signal from Stiles to go ahead and go. I looked over at Stiles to see him doing his head twitch. That's the signal. I ran over and joined Stiles to head towards the school. When we got in his office we couldn't find anything.
"You find anything?" Stiles asked searching in a drawer.
I did one more sweep and sighed," Nothing. God this was all pointless!" I said aggravated.
"Hey, It's ok. We'll find something." He said comforting me Placing a hand on my shaking knee. I looked up and smiled at him.
"Awe isn't that cute." We turned around and found Erica standing there with a smirk.
Erica dragged Stiles to the pool with me following behind. I knew fighting her would only do more harm then good. When we got there Derek was waiting for us with a basketball.
"Stiles." Derek said before looking at me." and Ellie, how's living without a pack going for you?"
"She has a pack." Stiles said in a low voice I almost didn't recognize.
Derek raised his eyebrows before giving a chuckle." So I guess it's not so one sided huh?" This caused Erica to chuckle and Stiles to look confused.
" What do you want Derek?" I asked changing the subject.
"Stiles, what did you see at the mechanics garage?" Derek asked him his firm glare back in place.
"Some health code violations I'm seriously considering reporting." Stiles said sarcastically. Derek smirked before pushing his claws in the basketball." Holy God."
"Let's try that again." Derek said.
"Ok the thing was slick like, skin was dark, scales like all over, eyes were yellowish and silted oh and it has a tail ... What have you seen it?" He asked seeing their faces. " You have this look like you know exactly what I am talking about." We look up to see the beast above us. Stiles pushes me towards the exit. " Find Scott!" He yelled. I nodded and took off.
I ran to the field to find him. When I got there the field was completely empty. Damn it! I pulled out my phone and tried to call Scott, He didn't answer. He has to be with the Argents.
This is so not a smart idea. It's like walking into the lions den. Ok Ellie, you can do this! I knocked on the door and quickly stepped back.
Chris answered the door and looked confused when he answered it. " Who are you?" He asked.
"Ellie?" I looked behind him and saw Allison look just as confused.
"Hey.. uh I needed to talk to Scott and I saw him leave with you guys so-"
"Ellinore. You must join us for diner." Gerard said walking with the rest.
"Oh god Ellie! I'm sorry Ellie, we were supposed to meet after the game to study. We should probably get going education is important you know." He said with a cheesy grin before grabbing my hand dragging me out.
"We need to get to the pool at school." Scott nodded and we ran to the school.
When we got to the school Stiles and Derek were in the water with the beast circling the pool. Scott charged the beast only to be thrown into the pool. It was up to me. You can do this. I stepped forward and it threw me into a mirror. I took a shard ready to use it to my advantage when it saw its reflection it ran away.
"Is that even a language?" Stiles asked standing next to me as we looked at the Besiary.
"How are we supposed to figure this out?" Scott asked.
"It's a kanima." Derek said. I looked up and saw Derek and Erica walk up.
"You knew the whole time?" Stiles asked.
"No, only when it was confused by its reflection." Derek said.
"It Doesn't know what it is?" I asked.
"Or who it is." Derek agreed.
"What else do you know?" Stiles asked a little agitated.
"Nothing. Rumors." Derek said.
"But its a shape shifter?" I asked.
"Yea but it's not right... Its like-"
"An abomination." Stiles said. Derek looked impressed and nodded.
Him and Scott walked away as they started bickering again.
"So back there when Derek said something about it being one sided what was that?" Stiles asked with a curious glint in his eyes.
"It was nothing." I said before being hit with a cold wind and shivering.
"Here have my jacket" He said handing me his jacket. We looked into each others eyes. "Let me walk you home." He said offering me his hand. I smiled and held his hand. It felt as if I was shocked with electricity. We walked hand in hand down the street.