Authors Note: Again none of these stories are suppouse to be connected just one shots of different episodes that I just couldn't let stand like that. Some of the lines were taken from the episodes but not all. So thanks to Amy Sherman Palladino and her brilliance (:
To reviewers:
Merdarkandtwisty: I don't know I always thought Jess was sweet he just didn't really show it(: Hope you enjoy this chapter(;
Scarlet3086: yes it gets me mad the wat Rory acted in the real episode just accusing him of fighting Dean like the world revolved around her.
RoryJess: Trust me I have a lot of random ideas that I'm planning to show. Hope you like them (:
Maceye: Glad your liking them!(: Let me know what you think of this chapter (:
2nd Authors Note: this chapter takes place when they go to Kyle's party. It's kind of at the end of that episode with the horrible bedroom scene.
DoOver Three:(Keg! Max!) But I couldn't wait to freeze time with him again
I looked around the party looking for Jess. I hated this. I don't even like parties but here I was trying to support my best friend. And my boyfriend who seemed excited about this party seemed to be miserable. And of course even though he is my boyfriend and I'm his girlfriend. He wouldn't tell me what was wrong. So what was the point of having the tittle of girlfriend when I couldn't even be his confidant. I began heading up the stairs passing my ex boyfriend and his new peppy girlfriend. Bet they were super honest with each. Ugh I need to stop complaining it's making me bitter. I open the first door and just with a peak I could saw way too much, but I guess it's expected at a party for a couple to be doing...it. I close the door immediately. It..I couldn't even say it though I told my mother I was ready. And she put me on birth control. I can't even say...it... I open the second door hoping that I wasn't going to see another traumatizing image. But thankfully not. Thankfully it was my boyfriend turning around his seat. And all those bitter thoughts had seem to escape just by seeing his gorgeous face. And I say "There you are" with a smile of relief. I close the door behind me.
"hey" he answers
"I've been looking all over for you"
"Just got tired of everything down there"
"Are we allowed to be up here? I mean, Kyle was kind of discouraging it." but the fact was I felt like I should be discouraging it. But why was it that all I could think of was relief of being alone together. Jess and I seemed to be better when it was just us.
I hear him say "When you have a party, you get what you get."
"Yeah, I guess. Sad boy, what's wrong? You were looking forward to this party, what happened?"
I reach my hand over to feel his face. It felt soft and I couldn't help but want to kiss him. He replies dryly "Nothing."
"Something did. Come on, tell me." and I knew I was insisting but I wanted to know. Why couldn't he just tell me. Then I say the words that I couldn't even let myself think about. "You're not tired of me, are you?" he reaches in and gives me a peck and I don't know how he did it. But every kiss felt with so much love and passion. I reply with "That's a pretty good answer." he reaches in. Cupping my face with his hands and giving me a deeper kiss. Somehow I couldn't think. He began slowly pulling me towards the bed and now he was on top with his arms around me. There wasn't a place a felt more safe than in his arms entangled in his kiss. While our tongues played war with one another. Then I feel his hand begin to head towards my belt buckle and I felt hot. I know I should stop him. I know this isn't the place. Not here not now. But god I wanted him to continue. I wanted to slip off his shirt. Like I had in all my fantasies. I wanted to see him. "Jess" I was able to let out while he kissed my neck. I clear my throat trying to let air reach my lungs. "Jess" I say once more hoping to get his attention I didn't want him to stop but I couldn't continue not on someone else's parents bed. I didn't want to have my first time with a bunch of people downstairs. He finally stops and looks at me and I couldn't help but noticed that his eyes looked bluer than mine. They filled the air with sadness. At first I wanted to say we needed to stop but all I could think of was trying to make him feel better. I finally open my mouth staring into his eyes "You wanna get out of here" and for the first time all night I saw his smirk. And with that we got off the bed I tried to straighten my clothes. And he opened the door reaching his hand to hold mine. We started walking down the stairs passing my ex boyfriend having a huff argument with his now crying girlfriend and it actually made me smile. I didn't miss having Dean yelling at me. And I knew I should feel guilty leaving Lane but I didn't. I guess I had been waiting for this much longer. Because I knew wherever we ended up tonight. We will end up having sex...
We walked around the square and as much as I wanted to continue pressuring him to tell me why he seemed so off. I didn't want to kill the moment. It was one of those moments where it felt that there was no one else in town. Like for a moment it was those cliches the world had stopped sort of thing. He finally breaks the silence which us a surprise between the two of us.
"You know Luke took up your mom on that whole night on the inn thing."
"So he is staying at the inn tonight?" I ask knowing exactly what he was implying and even though Jess never told me what was on his mind. I felt that I was in it and that at some moments possibly be thinking in the same wave length as him.
"Yeah he is"
"So that would make the apartment completely empty"
"Huh you don't say" he gives me a smirk and we began heading over there. And all I could feel was butterflies rushing all over me. I couldn't help but be excited... We came to the apartment and the same nerves that once struck us before on the first day of us dating had made a second wind. And the best way I could make the silence not drown the room is by cracking a joke isn't that what my mother taught me. "So it's all about relocation right?"
"Yeah" he replies as he meets me in the middle of the apartment. I grab his face and lean in and kiss him. I couldn't shake the nerves. We were completely alone and everything I had been feelings these last couple of months were all out on the table. And before he even pushed me towards his bed my jacket was off and he was already working on my shirt but before he could I slipped off his which just seemed to make him more eager to slip off mine. And then we tripped on his bed. And there we were kissing bare skin the only thing separating our chests was my bra. Which didn't take him long to unclip. The feeling of my breast pressed against his chest sent me chills. He began kissing me lower and lower till he reached yet again that belt buckle. That now was off and the embarrassing realization that I didn't know if my underwear was even considered flattering. But I didn't have long to think about it because he came rushing back to my lips and that's when I took the opportunity to unslip his jeans. He looked surprised and for second stopped all the action and looked at me. I felt like he was trying to ask me to keep going or not so I leaned in and gave him another deep kiss. Circleling around the band of his briefs and then I did it. I took them off and thats when I felt it against my thigh. But it wasn't there for long, because now my underwear was being taken off and I felt exposed. You really don't feel naked till your finally in front of someone. Then he gave me another look yet again and then with a kiss he was in. We were...I was...it happened...
We laid there cuddling. And I drew imaginary circles around his chest. I was still trying to wrap around my kind that this wasn't just another dream that I wasnt laying on my bed making all this up then the words that are so hard to say escape my mouth "Jess, I love you" they flowed so well. But then I feel his muscles tense up like the beginning of the night. The heat and passion that had once intoxicated the room had now evaporated. And it felt cold. I wanted to explain that he didn't have to say it back that I knew how it felt to not be prepared for those words. I wonder if this is how Dean felt like you said too much. Like maybe you shouldn't let everything you feel out in the open.
Then I finally hear him speak "I can't take you to prom" is he serious right now? I just profound my infatuation for him and he decides he can't take me to prom. He continues "I couldn't get tickets" I bit my lip holding my tongue not wanting to fight. I don't want to remember this as a fight. I get off his bed feeling the cold air hit my naked back as I try using the light of the moon through the window find my clothes. I started lifting everything up and holding it against my chest. He sits up "Rory wait" but there was nothing to wait for he wasn't going to say it back. I began heading towards the restroom to change and I feel him follow. I close the door behind me and lean against the door letting my self fall. And I hear him on the other side of the door. "Rory just hold on. Don't go" And hearing him ask me to stay filled my eyes with tears. Why can't he just it back? "Rory I'm not graduating. That's why I couldn't get tickets. I'm...I'm sorry" I sat there and continuing listening because it wasn't often Jess opening up "my girlfriend is going to Yale. And I can't even get my ass to finish high school. The ladies in the newsstand are going to have something to talk about." I hear him sigh. And for a moment it didn't matter weather he said I love you because now I understand why he was so upset. I put on the t shirt I was holding realizing it was Jess's and while I was trying to pass it through my head. I hear him speak again "I know your wondering if I heard you. I did. I just...I just had to tell you this before I could let you know I..lov-"
before he could continue I opened the door and he stood up I needed to see him while he said it. I gave him a smile silently screaming to continue. "I love you" he ran his hands through his hair as a nervous habit "Wow that was hard to put together. I've never really used those words in a sentence." he gave me a smile. And I loved it when he smiled. I leap up and started kissing him. It was one of those kisses that could've ended up back on his bed but I separated. We laid our foreheads on one another and I finally spoke
"I'm sorry about school" he nodded. I knew that he probably didn't want to discuss anything more of it.
"I'm sorry about prom"
"Its okay. I mean...can't you take like summer school? Or get your GED?" He gives me a kiss in his way of trying to shut me up about the subject and he separated and said
"We'll see"
"I love you" I say again, I loved saying it outloud rather than in my head so many times. He kisses me and wrapped his arms around me and as much as I wanted to stay and continue the trip to his bed. I stop because I know my mother is probably worried about me and I should get home. I gasp between the kiss "My key!" I exclaim.
"Your what?" he asks as I slip my arms off him and begin crawling around the floor of the apartment trying to find it.
"My key" I insist
"Is this like a metaphor or something?"
"No Jess this isn't a figment of my imagination key that opened my chastity belt. This is my house key that was wrapped around my jeans to make me think twice before..."
"before sleeping with me?" he smirks and I blush shyly. "Let find your key" he says and with that he finally turned on the light and it felt like we were back in reality. Like the clock had turned and world began spinning again. But I couldn't wait to freeze time with him again. Just not tonight.
He walked me home and we held hands. Even though it was silent. The silence wasn't awkward it was inviting. I felt that his thoughts were filled with me and my thoughts were held with his. We reach my porch.
"So call me?" I say in hope of making the night last longer.
He smirked and pulls me in. And as we're kissing. I hear my mom in the background. Oh God my mom. I separate from Jess.
"Say bye Jess" she says.
He nods at her giving her recognition , he gives me a kiss on the cheek and whispers "I love you" as he squeezed my elbow and walked away. It filled me with butterflies. And I couldn't help but smile. Then my eyes met my mom's scorn. Which isn't something common for us. I walked into our house. "You can start by saying where you were" before I was able to let words escape my mouth she continues "and think carefully because I know you weren't at the party because Lane showed up drunk about an hour ago saying that it got raided and you weren't there for her. Shes your best friend. Where were you?!"
"I'm sorry I didn't know it was going to happen tonight. But I mean you cant be surprised I had talked to you about it Mom"
"So we put you on birth control and suddenly your open for business"
The words stung. I blinked trying to not let tears out. I finally was able to whisper "that's not fair"
"Maybe it's not but neither was what you did tonight. Lane needed you, you went to that party for her."
"You don't have to tell me how to be a friend. You don't have to tell me how to do things at all. I know your upset cause I didnt talk to you before. And I'm sorry."
"I just didn't want your first time like this"
"Like what Mom? With someone that loves me"
She scoffs "Jess doesn't love you. He's one bag away of leaving this town. This isn't for him. Your the only thing keeping him here. Well he just got the one thing he wanted. I know guys like Jess"
"I hate when you say that. You don't know him. You wish you did! Dean let you in and at first I love the idea of my boyfriend being friends with you because your my mom and my Best friend. But then it seemed like you got better along with Dean than I did. Jess may not talk to you but I know he respects you and that's enough for me. And even though sometimes I don't know why he's upset the mystery actually excites me and I'm happy. I hate that I wasnt there for lane or that I had you worried but this was the right time for us. For me. Now I need to go check on my friend. Thank you for taking care of her" I begin to walk away wanting to end this conversation. She wasn't going to ruin this for me. I hear her say my name. And I turn around.
"Was he nice?" she has tears in her eyes and I know that all her harsh words were filled with concern.
"Yeah. He um he loves me" I say with a smile
She nods "I need to know where you are. If not I turn as crazy as..."
"I know and I'm sorry" she nods at again and tries to smile. She begins to walk up the stairs and I say
"I love you Mom"
"You already know I do too kid"
I smile and I felt that the night had enough excitement but then I see Lane walk out of my room. Holding her stomach "Rory" and I knew the night wasn't over.
Next chapter will be the night that Jess came and said I love you! Are you as excited as I am?(: Have a great day and don't forget to review (: