"That's it old girl, don't fail me now,"
I furiously pumped, pressed, and pulled levers, switches, and buttons, needing to get the place and time exactly right this time.
I smiled sadly as I remembered all the times she had teased me for not getting to places at the time I meant to...
It's sad... I can't even bring myself to say her name anymore...
Angrily I wiped away a stray tear and went back to steering the TARDIS.
"No. I'm not doing this. I will not think about the past. The could have's and would be's and all that. I must live in the present. The here, the now. There are people and planets to save and I can't sit here pining away over... over..." I stumbled, unable to finish the sentence.
The TARDIS hummed sadly in my mind. And that was it. I couldn't do it anymore.
Sliding my back down the console, I curled up in a fetal position, arms wrapped around my legs and rested my head on my knees.
"I miss her," I whispered, tears trickling down my cheeks. "I can't do this anymore old girl," I stroked the TARDIS lovingly. She crooned comfortingly to me, but I could hear the sadness in it. She missed her almost as much as I did.
I sat there for some time, just going over my memories with... her...
Grabbing my outstretched hand as I yelled "Run!"...
Her short blonde hair flipping as she whipped around to grin at me with her tongue in between her teeth in that way she had...
Laughing with me and Jack inside the TARDIS as we danced together...
Coming with me even though my face had changed...
Dressing up as servants and laughing as we realized that in a parallel world her mother had a dog named Rose...
Losing the TARDIS and having no way back home, so we held each other...
Her falling... Falling... Away from me...
Her on the beach, crying and confessing she loved me...
Suddenly my grieving was interrupted by a loud ding. Standing up, I wiped my cheeks and took a deep breath.
Okay, I got this. You're gonna be fine, I told myself, taking a deep breath and putting my 'I'm alright' attitude back in check.
Walking over I grinned and resumed talking to the TARDIS.
"See, girl? I told you. My timey-wimey machine does work! It went ding! Didn't you hear it? I told you it goes ding when there's stuff!"
Picking it up, I read what it had picked up. I frowned to myself.
"But it can't be... That's impossible!"
The TARDIS hummed questioningly at me.
"Sorry... Um... Is there any kind of breach? At all?"
"No," she whispered in my mind.
I stiffened and my hearts began thudding in my chest.
"So... So, this reading is accurate?" I whispered hoarsely.
"Yes, what is it my Time Lord?"
After a brief pause, a broad grin spread across my face.
"The best thing that's ever happened to me. And that's saying something; I'm over 900 years old!"
The TARDIS buzzed impatiently.
"Well old girl, I've finally found it. I think I've found a way to bring my Rose back."
Well guys here's Chapter 1!
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