This chapter is one of the many reasons this fic is rated M so proceed with caution. For the sake of legality and my own conscious (since I have a 12 yr old), the scouts will be 17 and Mamoru will be 20. Also there will be dream sequences in at least this chapter and maybe another (I will be incorporating the break up dream). These will be in italics :D. ENJOY!
~*~*~* Chapter 1 - Longing & Denial *~*~*~
The covers were pulled from the foot of the bed onto the floor. A slumbering blonde-haired girl slightly shifted in her sleep missing their extra warmth. In the darkness a hand started to work it's way up her leg starting at her foot, lightly caressing and leaving goosebumps in its path. Shivering from the erotic touch, the girls bright blue eyes opened wide as the bed shifted near her feet to accommodate the extra weight. The hand continued to travel up her leg, it's brother joining in on her other leg. As it reached her inner thigh near her most sacred and untouched center, both hands lifted and came to rest on the piece of skin on her taunt belly where the tank top and her shorts met. Fully awake now, the blonde meowed at the loss of contact, until she felt it again on her stomach. She shivered as the hands lightly traveled up her stomach under her shirt, coming to rest just on the underside of her boob. Shaking with anticipation, she arched her back slightly bringing the hands closer in contact with her breasts. Taking this as a sign to continue the faceless stranger cupped her breasts and flicked his thumb over the nipples on each one causing them to tighten with arousal. The blonde gave an approving moan and the hands of the stranger began to lift the shirt over her head. Complying, she lifted her back off of the bed to allow it to be removed completely and it was thrown across the room. Happy with their handiwork, the hands went back to caressing her breasts, teasing and taunting, pinching and flicking into hard nubs while the girl writhed on the bed. "Oh god Mamo-chan!" she cried out as the hands on her breasts did wicked things to her senses. Noticing a wetness between her legs as well as a deep tingling, she tried to close them as close together as she could to help relieve some of the sensations. The stranger chuckled above her. Leaning over her, he took her pink pouting lips and kissed them, lightly at first. She gasped as the hands at her breasts tweaked her nipples again, thus allowing the stranger's tongue to slip into her mouth. Once it was in he completely invaded her; kissing, biting, licking her lips, warrirng with her tongue for dominance. Although shy and hesitant at first, the girl received his assault on her lips and begin to mimic his motions. While her hands had been previously at her side, gripping the blanket with the pleasure her breasts were receiving, she raised them and tangled them in the strangers hair. Pulling his head closer to hers and thus his mouth into hers more wholly, she moaned into the kisses that were setting her body on fire. Something inside of her broke and she knew that she needed more. She lightly thrashed on the bed, clasping and unclasping her legs, trying to relieve some of the pressure that was building up in her center. Understanding her need, the stranger pulled away from kissing her, dipping his lips into her neck and kissing and nipping the sensitive skin there. He continued to travel south with his mouth, while his hands traveled south past her belly button. His mouth made it's way over to her right breast and lightly licked the tender surface, while his hands caught on the waistband to her shorts. Coming half off the bed when his tongue touched her breast, allowed him to remove her shorts and panties from her down to her ankles without any that she was completely naked beneath this clothed stranger sent shivers down her spine. His hands continued their exploration south while his mouth began to lick, suck and nip at first her right breast, then her left. His hands lightly skimmed over her womanhood and moved on to her inner thighs. Gripping them firmly but not too tightly, he spread them and kept them wedged open with his legs. Lightly running his nails along the inside of her thighs he heard her moaning and chanting over and over "oh Mamo, oh Mamo." Smiling into her breasts he bit down right as his hand found her clitoris. Blinding white light flooded the room, as the blonde girl on the bed exploded like fireworks in her first orgasm. The hand on her clit continued to apply pressure, while the other lapped at her wet folds, coating itself with her juices before entering her completely. Nearly coming undone again, the blonde haired girl threw her head back in ecstasy and continued thrashing on the bed, while the stranger's fingers explored her most sacred center. After unleashing another orgasm, her glossy eyes came to rest on the head of the stranger that was feasting at her breasts. It was then that she noticed he had a mass of white hair coming down past his shoulders, a complete opposite of her love. "Mamoru?" she questioned aloud. The stranger ever so slowly raised his head, his white-blue eyes meeting hers for the first time. Recognition dawned on her face as she realized the man who had given her several intense orgasms was not the man it should have been. She opened her mouth to let loose a blood curdling scream, when she heard him speak, "That's right, scream for me Serenity!"
Usagi awoke in a puddle of sweat. She glanced at her clock and noticed that it was 6:06 am. The dream had started out so wonderfully with her and Mamoru sharing something she had been wanting to do for a while now. How it morphed into that horrendous nightmare with Prince Demande was beyond her. But quite frankly scared the bejeezus out of her. Too strung up to go back to sleep, Usagi pushed off the covers making sure not to disturb Luna, or Chibiusa, who had crawled into bed with her sometime late last night. Even though she knew it was a dream (right?) she felt the urge to scrub the feeling of his hands from her body. Stepping out of her pajamas, she turned on the shower to scalding hot. She let the water run over her, turning her pale skin bright pink, and tried to erase the images of him touching her. Grabbing her loufa off the knob she squirted a generous amount of body wash and began to scrub down her body, once she finished she repeated it until she was sure that any trace of dream Demande's hands were gone.
Contemplating telling the girls about her encounter with the prince of the Black Moon Clan, she decided against it and got out of the shower. She wrapped the towel around her, and grabbed another to wrap up her hair and proceeded to brush her teeth. When she left the bathroom she noticed it was almost 7 am and could smell bacon coming from downstairs. Pulling out a pale yellow sundress with white hearts across it and a criss-cross across the back, she began to get dressed. Staring in the mirror, Usagi brushed the tangles out of her hair and pinned it up in the traditional "odango" style. Giving herself a twice over in the mirror, and deciding her appearance was passable, she bounded down the stairs, ready to forget the previous evening and dig in to the amazing breakfast her mother probably had cooking.
"Oh wow, good morning Usagi-chan!" her mother greeted in her traditional apron. She was busy at the stove flipping what appeared to be pancakes. "Since you're up early, would you mind helping set the table for breakfast?"
"Sure mama," Usagi replied as she opened the cabinets and drawers getting enough place settings for 5 people. Shortly after arranging them neatly on the table, Ikuko brought in a big stack of pancakes, some scrambled eggs and a plateful of bacon. Usagi's father came in from outside with the newspaper in one hand and a steaming cup of coffee in the other. A few minutes later both Shingo and Chibiusa came bounding down the stairs and sat at the table. Breakfast was eaten rather quietly. After Usagi finished her plate she moved to clear it from the table.
"Don't worry about it Usagi! Why don't you take your brother and cousin to the park for a little bit. Then maybe you can stop by the arcade for lunch. I'll have your father give you extra money," her mother said. Grunting his compliance from behind his newspaper, Kenji reached into his wallet and pulled out several large bills.
"Mama," Shingo called. "I don't need Usagi-baka to babysit me, I'll just go over to Mika's house. She had something she wanted to show me anyways."
Usagi stuck her tongue out at Shingo and blew a raspberry. "Suit yourself," she exclaimed snatching the money her father had set on the table before he changed his mind. "Chibiusa and I will have our own little girls day out! Right Chibiusa?"
The pink haired girl looked up at Usagi and rolled her eyes dramatically. "Whatever," she responded. Excusing herself from the table she followed Usagi out the door. Once they were out of hearing distance she turned to Usagi. "You can just give me half of the money and I'll get out of your hair. I don't want to tag along to the arcade while you make kissy faces at Mamoru-chan."
"Actually Chibiusa, I wanted to talk to you. I think that this whole situation has gotten out of control, and while I'm not sure what your mission is persay, I want to try to help any way I can, without surrendering the crystal," Usagi explains. "How about if we go to the park and chat some more, k?
Not sure how to respond, Chibiusa nods in acceptance and takes Usagi's hand. They travel down the streets of Tokyo until they reach the park with the rose gardens. Sitting in a swing, Usagi motions for Chibiusa to sit next to her. They push off and start swinging. "I don't know what you want me to say Usagi-baka. I'm not exactly sure why you're being nice to me, " the pink haired girl sneers. "If it's to make Mamoru-chan love you more, it's not going to work. All I want is the crystal, that's the only thing that can help me."
"I don't understand you at all," Usagi says sadly. "I'm trying to be nice to you for a change and find a way to help you. Why won't you accept it?"
"I just want the crystal! I don't need your help!" Chibiusa wails. The crescent moon on her forehead starts to glow. Usagi panics and tries to figure out a way to calm her down.
"I know it's early still but why don't we go to the arcade. I'll buy you anything you want!" Usagi adds. Looking up at her, Chibiusa sees the sincerity in her plea and calms down.
"Fine, but I don't want to talk about this anymore," she pouts. "And I want a triple chocolate sunday with extra chocolate and extra sprinkles for lunch!"
After they eat their fill at the arcade, they head over to the Sailor V video game. Usagi inserts money and Chibiusa begins to furiously mash the buttons. Her hero dies within a matter of seconds. Turning to Usagi, she holds out her hand for more money. Usagi adds some more coins to the machine, then noticing the girls and Mamoru walk in, leaves some extra on the top of the machine. "Chibiusa, I'm gonna go talk to the girls, will you be fine here by yourself?"
Chibiusa ignores her and continues to play her game. Taking that as a positive response, Usagi leaves her place to join her friends. After their usual greetings, Mamoru asks the girls to watch Chibiusa so him and Usagi can talk privately. Without asking, he pulls Usagi along with him outside of Crown Arcade and over to his motorbike. Wordlessly handing her a helmet, she straps it on and climbs on after him. They speed through the streets of Tokyo until they reach his apartment in the Azabu district. Usagi climbs off and takes off her helmet, then allows Mamoru to lead her to the elevator in his apartment complex. After an awkward and silent ride up, they enter the apartment. Usagi turns to Mamoru expectantly.
"Usako, I want to know what happened yesterday with that man?" he questions with an accusatory tone. Shocked that this is what he wanted to talk about Usagi, stares up at him emotionless.
"Nothing of any real concern," she replies keeping her voice as even as possible. She walks over to the sofa in his overly large living room and after folding her legs under her sits down. After a brief pause, she watches as Mamoru makes his way over to her and sits down next to her.
Taking Usagi's hands in his own, he pleads with her, "What happened Usako?"
Without missing a beat, she recounts the story of how Prince Demande appeared out of thin air and was able to pierce the protective shield that encompasses them when they transform, and stop her halfway through. She also tells him how he seemed to be hypnotising her with his eyes, leaving out the part of the feelings that it invoked inside her. She beings to cry as she explains how scared she was until he came along and stopped it with his rose. Pulling her close, Mamoru whispers soothing things into her ear and lets her cry it out on his shoulder. After Usagi's tears finish, she looks up at him and caresses his cheek lovingly. Mamoru's stormy blue eyes give her a questioning look before she leans forward and kisses him. He tries to keep the kiss chaste, but when she begins to run her hands over his chest and licks his bottom lip seeking entrance, he pulls away. "Usako, we can't. I love you but we can't."
Retracting like she had been stung, she pulls out of his embrace and stands up from the sofa. Heading to the door, she gives Mamoru one last longing glance. The pleading look in his eyes breaks her heart just a tiny bit and before leaving she whispers, "Gomen-nasai Mamo-chan."
I decided to end it here, even though I'm on a roll after having not written anything in so long. I have already mapped out the next 4 chapters and will probably start typing them over this weekend. I'm gonna to take a quick nap (it's almost 6 am here) before I have to be at work in a couple of hours. I hope everyone enjoys their weekend and I look forward to any reviews I receive. Love 333 Amatsura