It has been 3 days since I attacked Doggett and it has been 3 days since I was thrown into the SHU, it is hell in here the food has mould on it the water has bits of stuff floating around in it and the cell is so tiny I feel like I am being eaten alive by my cell. It is eerily quite in here so I have been spending the last 3 days thinking about everything that has happened in my life and it comes down to one thing and that is failing people, I failed in getting my parents to love me, I failed in protecting Sarah and I also failed my two friends and girlfriend. The looks on their faces are burned into my mind, the looks of disappointment and the look of fear in Nicky's eyes is what's keeping me up at night. I promised Nicky that I wouldn't get hurt or in trouble and I broke both of them, I love Nicky is what I have found out. I love the way she makes me laugh, I love the way she keeps me grounded and most of all I love the way she trusts me and now I have thrown it all away by being an idiot. I hear footsteps approaching my door and I stand up when the door is unlocked and a CO comes marching in.
"Hartman you're coming back now follow me" he says in his demanding tone, I follow him out of the tiny cell and up into the truck he is driving. As we are driving my mind drifts to what Nicky will say to me when I get back, I am pulled out of my thoughts by the CO grabbing my arm and walking me into the prison. I walk down to Caputo's office when I see Nicky; she looks at me with a hardened glare and walks the opposite way. I sigh as I watch her walk away and I enter the office and sit down opposite the guy.
"Hartman you are coming back to the normal routine, tonight you will be moved bunks so I want you to go and pack up your stuff" I get up and walk out the room, I am moving bunks which means I won't be with Alex. As I walk to my cube I spot Nicky sat down in her bed, I walk over to her bunk and she looks up at me.
"Hey I missed you" I tell her with a loving tone, she ignores me and turns back to the book she was reading. I sigh knowing that she won't respond and I make my way to my bunk, as I walk in I see Piper and Alex sat down cuddling in bed. When I walk in they break apart and stare at me, Piper stands up and I brace myself for a hit that I feel is coming. I don't feel a hit but instead her arms wrap around my waist as she hugs me, I wrap my arms around her body and I hold her to me. After a few seconds we break apart and I look at Alex and Piper.
"We were worried about you the SHU can make you go crazy" Piper says, I nod and I notice that Alex is very quiet. She puts down her book and walks over to me.
"Nicky was a mess, good luck with that" she says, I think that she will walk off but instead she gives me a small hug. I move over to my bunk and i pack up my belongings, Alex looks at me with a questioning gaze.
"I'm being moved, it's mandatory when you come back from the SHU" I say, she nods but looks a bit sad. A CO comes walking in and watches me pack everything up.
"Follow me Hartman time for your new bunk" he says, I follow him down the dorm and we come to stop outside the last cube in the room. "Here you go your new bunk" he tells me before stalking off, I enter the cube and I dump my belongings on the bed. I don't pay attention to anything in the bunk but when I hear someone clear their throat I turn around to be met with the eyes of Nicky Nichols.
Holy Crap I'm Nicky's Bunkie.