I watch as Lucy walks past me and sits down in the seat Red previously occupied, everybody stops talking and stares at Lucy as she just sits down without an invitation. She looks up at me and smiles a sickly smile, i feel a hand slip into my left hand and I squeeze Nicky's hand for comfort.
"I heard about your sister, it's sad" she says in a bored tone, i can feel anger course through my body as she talks. "Did you here what your mom confessed" she says, I look at her confused.
"No what did she confess?" I ask, since my meeting with mom I haven't heard anything from her.
"She told the paper about what she did to you as a kid" She says with a smirk, all the colour leaves my face as I hear this. Everybody will now know my worst nightmare.
"Everyone already knew about the abuse" Nicky says, I see Lucy send me a smirk and looks at everybody on the table before locking eyes with mine.
"Not that i mean't the sexual abuse" She announces, the table goes deathly silent as everybody looks at me.
"What?" Alex asks, everybody looks shocked and Nicky looks sick. I shake my head as I can't say anything, the one thing I didn't want anyone to know was out in the open.
"Oh yeah her mum has been rapeing her since she was 10 it's all on the news" Lucy tells Alex, I can't take it anymore so I just stand up and I run out of the canteen ignoring the shouts from Nicky. I walk into my cube and I sit down on the floor by my bed with my knees pulled up to my head, I can hear footsteps and I can hear someone sit down by the side of me.
"Why didn't you say anything?" Nicky asks quitely, I remove my head from between my legs and I face Nicky.
"I didn't say anything beacuse I am ashamed" I whisper out, I can feel tears buiding up in my eyes.
"Why were you ashamed?" Nicky asks as she takes my hand in hers.
"Beacuse my parents didn't love me, all I got was hits and rape" I say as tears start to run down my face, Nicky drops my hands and wraps me up in her arms.
"None of this is down to you, it's all on them ok" She says into my ear, I nod as I cry into her embrace. I spend the rest of the day with Nicky in our cube reading or just talking, eventhough I didn't want anyone to know about my past it does feel better to not have anything to hide anymore.