A/N: I apologize in advance for not updating really quickly, I've been super busy with school but as promised! Here's Chapter One! I hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing.

Since I held a popularity vote on my other social media, This story will be JeanxOC

Thanks for reading this c:

Chapter 1:

Learning to Live

Flashback:

I laugh as I run my hands through my now short dark hair, my eyes closing as I listened to Connie joke about Levi's height. We'd made it this far, I think we're entitled to a little sense of relaxation. Sasha watches Connie, her cheeks puffed out as he ignored her cries for food.
"C'mon, Guys! He isn't that short." I say, causing another eruption of laughter among my squadmates. "Y-You're hilarious, Genevieve!" Eren laughed, wiping tears from the corner of his eyes. "That's a funny one, Gen!" Connie follows. Even Armin's laughing quietly, I let out a small giggle. "It really wasn't meant to be taken as a joke!" I laughed, shaking my head.

What was that?

I try to move my arm again, I try to open my eyes to no avail.

My memories are coming back.

I want to feel that again, I want to feel again. That joy, that laughter, They're all so familiar. They're relaxing. They're nothing compared to the hell I'm living right now, I just want to wake up from this nightmare.

It's awful. It's like being in a jail voluntarily.

Try to remember more, maybe it'll help you wake up.

I listen to the voice inside my head, I give in to the painful headache pounding in my head and am almost immediately launched into a dreamlike state.

Flashback:

"You know what I'd really like, Gen." He says.

"Mm.." I respond, laying down in a soft patch of grass beside him.

"I'd really like to kiss you." He replies, a shit-eating grin on his face.

"If this is your idea of romance, Jean, I'm going to need you to try harder." I tease him, laughing quietly.

His grin almost immediately drops and becomes a pout.

"What...? B-But, I snuck you out of your quarters and brought you to the nicest place I know all for-"

I cut him off by placing my lips gently against his, It's almost as if he's shocked. His body tenses up against mine for a moment, then I feel our lips fall into rhythm with our hearts, and his hands snake their way around my waist.

Everything about this moment is perfect and briefly, It is unending; Until our lungs decide that oxygen would be nice, we break a few inches apart from each other. Our lips still touching as we struggled to make up to our lungs for the breaths we lost.

"That was.." I began, my pale face turning a deep shade of red.

"That was wonderful." He replies, a grin on his face. "We should come out here more often."

"It's our first date, Jean." I laugh, relieving some of the tension that had built up inside me. "If you want to get into my pants, you'll have to work for it."

At the last statement, He smirks. "Oh, I can definitely do that." He says, pouncing on me again.

"KIRSCHTEIN! ACKERMAN! GET OFF OF EACH OTHER THIS INSTANT!" The familiar voice of our superior comes from behind us.
I sigh, "Shit, Levi, Really?" I grumble.

"BOTH OF YOU. STABLE DUTY FOR THE NEXT MONTH!" The corporal roars, his boyfriend must've tested his patience today.

Jean looks a bit flustered as he scrambles to his feet, saluting the man and then running off back to the men's quarters.

"Really?" I say, turning to face him. "Are you going to do this to every guy I want to date, Levi...?" I say, anger hinting in my voice.

"Trust me, Little Sister, It's better this way." He says.

Jean Kirschtein.I listen to the sound of his voice over and over in my head, I can feel my heart race faster at the thought of him.

Has it really been three years since that night?

My brain asks another question that I cannot find an answer to.

Genevieve Ackerman. That's my name, I'm near certain. I feel a warmth wash over, as if someone has just pulled a blanket over me. Someone probably has, most likely Jean.

Levi.

Little Sister.

First date.

All the memories begin to swirl in my head until all I can hear is screaming, It's my own. No one can hear it but me, I know this to be true.

"Remember our first date, Gen?" Jean's voice silences the screaming, I can feel him holding my hand. I think about how cold it is, How much it must be hurting him to see me this way, and how awkward it is that he knows near everything about me and all I can remember is Jean Kirschtein and the time we almost had sex but Big Brother Levi rudely interrupted.

"The anniversary of it is today." He continues, I realize that this must've been the reason my brain was bringing me this memory and nothing else. I can feel him tracing circles on my hand. "I want to remember your laugh... I really am trying to remember it, but It's just so hard, Genevieve. All I remember is hearing you scream like hell just before.." He stays quiet for a coupe of seconds, like he wants to form the proper words for this. "I want to hear you laugh again." He whispered.

It's killing me, I want to wake up. I want to hold him, I want to tell him it's alright and laugh with him but that isn't working.

I'll find a way back to you, Jean, I swear it.

"How's she feeling?" A broken voice says, My heart immediately shatters. I know this voice.

Levi Ackerman;

Age 33

My Older Brother

Humanity's Strongest

King of the Underground

Strong people aren't supposed to be broken. Especially not by me.

"She's the same she has been for the past month." Jean says, I feel him hold my hand a little tighter.

"She's fighting, see the color in her cheek." Levi says, walking closer, his voice is hoarse. He's been crying. I want to cringe at the thought of hearing my big brother shed actual tears.

"I need her to wake up, Corporal. She... She..." Jean gets choked up, I feel him let go of my hand. I hear him slink to the floor, his body landing with a hard thud. "She's all I have left." He whispered.

Levi nodded again, his eyes on me, I feel it. I struggle to stay in the real world, I feel the dreams pulling me back in. I want to hear what Levi says. I want to hear Jean's voice again.

"Me too."

The world goes dark, The room is silent.