While I Wait
Chapter 12
Kate shot up in bed, reaching down to grab her stomach. She had been dreaming that she lost the baby, but she ran her hands over her abdomen, proof of the life she was growing still there, still safe. She hadn't had any bad dreams since he had been home, so she rolled over to move in closer to him and she noticed that Rick wasn't in bed, so she slid out, knowing she wouldn't be able to fall back asleep until she knew where he was. She didn't have to look far, he was sitting at his desk, focusing on his laptop but not typing.
"Late night inspiration?" She asked, and he immediately looked up to her. She could tell he was nervous as he quickly shut the laptop. "or porn?" she laughed.
"Neither, I… just, ummm."
"Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, great." He wasn't lying. They had shared a wonderful meal, and even a few stolen kisses before bed. But as soon as she was out, he was up and back on the laptop, reading her book.
"Then why are you acting so suspicious?" she asked, moving towards the laptop and swiping it off the desk before he could get it.
She sat on the couch and opened it up, he had her manuscript pulled up. Which was nothing to be ashamed of so she didn't understand why he would find it necessary to hide it. She looked over at where he still sat behind his desk, the light from the moon shining in the window just enough that she could see his face.
"My manuscript?"
He nodded.
"So why are you nervous? It's not like you have to hide this, unless you X'd out of what you were really looking at."
He shook his head.
"And I get the silent treatment… Wow, and I thought we were making progress." She shut the laptop again and got up off the couch, moving out of the office towards the kitchen.
"I wasn't hiding anything." He said as he walked up behind her. She was standing at the fridge, looking for a snack. She was hungry but didn't know exactly what the baby was craving.
He wrapped his arms around her from behind, locking them around her stomach.
"Then why did you shut it when I walked in. I don't care if you read the book, so that doesn't make any sense."
"I mean you didn't exactly offer it up to me." He lay his chin on her shoulder, placing a kiss on her neck.
"Rick the book has been published, I'm not hiding it from you or anyone else."
"I know, and I don't know why I have been reading it behind your back. It's stupid, but I just really wanted to know about us. I thought maybe it might help with my memory, but so far it hasn't triggered anything.
She turned in his harms, wrapping her own around his neck, "You know they might never come back, and we may never find out exactly what happened. Are you going to be okay with that?"
"I'll figure it out as I go, and things have already gotten so much easier. I mean look at us, we are getting closer."
"Yeah but is this going to be enough for you?"
He leaned in and placed a soft kiss on her lips, "You're enough for me. This baby, our life, it will be enough, I just have to settle in."
"So you aren't regretting tonight."
"Do I look like I'm regretting it?" he squeezed her tighter.
"No… " she sighed, "I just cant lose you again."
He brushed her hair back behind her ear, and ran his knuckles over her cheek before placing a kiss over where his hand had just touched. "You will never lose me again."
"I had a dream I lost the baby."
"What?" he pushed back, grabbing her arms looking over her body as if he was checking to make sure she was okay.
"I'm fine Rick, I was just a dream. When you were gone, I felt like everything had come crashing back down on me. I'm always on alert, like another tragedy is going to happen, one I cant recover from."
"Well our baby is fine, and it's going to be fine."
"You don't know that."
"Yes I do, because eventually something has to give. You deserve to be happy, and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure you are. I'm done dwelling on my lost memory. I want to make it known that I'm alive, and I want to try and resume a normal life."
"Okay, I'll call Gina tomorrow and we will figure something out. Until then, I think you should come cuddle with me, so I can go back to sleep. I'm so tired, and you know how cranky I get when I don't have enough sleep."
"I think you're taking advantage of me."
"Oh yeah, you're right..." she laughed, "Tonight was the first time you've held me in 6 months, I think I deserve all the cuddles you can provide."
"I think you're right, you do deserve all the cuddles."
"Oh Mr. Castle, are you trying to seduce me?"
"Is that a possibility?" he asked, cocking an eyebrow at her.
"Not a chance." She shoved him away and started laughing as she walked back to the bedroom. "Oh…" she turned around, "PB & J?"
"Of course." He nodded and she smiled.
Some things were completely different between them, but he was still the same sweet man that she had known before. Always wanting to please and make her happy. So he made her that PB&J and even cut it into triangles for her.
He found her in bed, sitting up against the headboard, tv on.
"I even brought a glass of milk for you."
"Oh you are my prince charming." She teased, taking the sandwich and glass from him. "Thank you."
"Anytime." He smiled down at her, before stripping his shirt off and climbing into bed with her.
"Want a piece?" she asked, and he gladly took one from her.
She finished her sandwich in silence and when she was done she placed the plate on her bedside table, and turned her body into his, wrapping her arm around his torso.
"So I'm your body pillow now?"
"I think it's about time I invest in one of those pregnancy pillows, but until then you'll do."
"I don't mind." He placed a kiss on the top of her head and wrapped his arm around her, rubbing small circles over her lower back.
"I love you, Rick…. And don't say it back," she interrupted before he could respond. "I just want you to know how much I love you and appreciate you."
He nodded against her head and placed another kiss, before settling down further so that he could close his eyes.
Xx
He walked into the room the next morning to wake her up, he had made breakfast for her hoping that she would wake up on her own when she smelled it.
He leaned over her body and placed a kiss on the side of his neck, "Kate wake up, I made breakfast."
"Five more minutes." She moaned.
"It will be cold in five minutes."
"Just five more minutes."
He left without pushing any further, If she needed sleep then who was he to make her get up. Growing a human being had to be very exhausting.
She woke up over an hour later and found him on the couch.
"You're breakfast is in the microwave if you still want it, if not I can make something else."
"Rick" she called as she pulled her plate out. "Where did you get all this food to cook?"
"I ran down to the corner store."
"Excuse me? You left the apartment?"
"I figured it wouldn't do any harm, I wore a hat and glasses."
"Yeah but the people at that store know who you are Rick."
"Why are you freaking out I thought we decided it was time to let everyone know that I was alive and well."
"Yeah with a public statement, not a picture of you in aisle 5 of the corner market." She placed her plate down on the counter a little too hard. So she was a little more then frustrated with him, but shouldn't he have been a little more careful.
"Kate, it's not that big of a deal.. Where are you going, you should eat."
"I need to call Gina… She is going to freak out if this gets out."
"Kate." He yelled at her as she was walking back into their room.
"You knew better Rick, I just hope no one got a picture."
"It's not that big of a deal. Since when do you care about the press. Since when do you care about any of that at all."
"Since my fiancé disappeared and I was hounded by them for weeks."
"Don't do this…"
"Do what?"
"Make me feel guilty about something I can't control."
"Well you could control leaving the apartment and you made your choice, so now I have to make sure this doesn't come back to bite us."
"Bite us?"
"I'm sure they'll spin this around.. make it seem like i did it for publicity, for the book."
"Stop worrying about the press Kate."
She stopped in her tracks as she pulled her phone off the bedside table. Taking a seat on the edge of the bed and bowing her head.
"You're right. Since when do I care about the media, or the attention they do or don't give us."
He sat down beside her, "Lets call Gina together, tell her to release a statement."
She looked over at him and nodded and he took her phone from her, selecting Ginas contact.
"Morning Kate."
"Hi Gina, it's Rick actually."
"Oh good morning."
"I think it's time."
"time?"
"To release a statement that I'm alive."
"You sure you're ready?"
"Yeah. I'm tired of hiding out. I really need to try and move on from all of this and staying in this house all the time isn't helping."
"Okay, what do you want me to say."
"Be vague. Say I was found alive and our family would like time to deal with this."
"Okay, I'll write up a statement."
"Thank you."
"No problem. How is Kate doing?"
"I'm fine Gina."
"Oh speakerphone, I should have known. Good, and the baby."
"Baby is fine."
"Okay, sounds great. Book sales are doing great and I think maybe you should try your hand at writing some more. Maybe a book about Rick coming home."
"Ehhh."
"Too soon?" Gina laughed.
"That and a little too personal right now. Too much going on for me to even wrap my head around, much less write a book about."
"You all doing okay over there?"
"Yeah, we are fine, things are just complicated."
"Okay, well things will get better. You all have a good day."
"You too. Talk to you later."
Not a second after she hung up Rick stood and turned to her.
"Is this too much for you Kate?" he asked, true concern on his face.
"Not too much, just a lot."
"Is there something I could do to make it better?"
"Just be you, and keep kissing me goodnight."
"How about good morning?" he smiled, placing his hands on each side of her on the bed and leaning in and kissing her.
"Yeah I can handle that too?"
"What about good afternoon?" he teased, leaning in and kissing her again.
"Mmmmm." She moaned into his mouth, opening her mouth to allow him to slide his tongue in. "Even better."
He leaned in further, pressing her down on her back and she started to crawl backwards onto the bed. He climbed in next to her and pulled her into him, slowly kissing her.
"Rick, we aren't going to be able to have normal sex, I'm too pregnant."
"We don't have to have sex." He said tucking her hair behind her ear and kissing her on the cheek.
"What if I want to?"
"If you want to we can, but I want you to be sure."
"Sure? Are you crazy? I haven't got have sex with you in a very long time."
"I don't ever remember having sex with you, so it's like a dream coming true all over again."
"Ohh great. No pressure right?"
"Kate…"
"I'm not going to be as good, I cant really do anything major."
"Hey…" he pressed another kiss to her mouth, running his hand down her side. "making love to you is going to a privilege, whether its right now or 6 months from now. So stop…"
"You sure.. I'm really big."
"Oh my god Kate…"
"What? I am…"
"You are perfect, but if you don't feel comfortable then we don't have to do anything."
She nodded, "I thought I was ready, but now I'm second guessing myself. I just don't even know how we'd be able to have comfortable sex with my stomach in the way."
"Well, we can do it a few ways…"
"I forgot you have experience in this.. pregnant lovemaking." She laughed.
"We could do it doggy style, but that's not really my preference, to impersonal."
"I know." She laughed.
"I forget you've had sex with me before. Lucky." He teased. "Spooning?"
"Okay.. we could try. Can I change first, at least…"
"Here, how about I just strip your clothes off." He laughed and she sat up so he could help her pull her shirt up over her head.
"God you're so beautiful." He pulled her into a kiss and then pressed her back into the bed. Sitting up and moving in between her legs. He hooked his fingers into her underwear and slid them down her legs, reaching up to run his finger through her middle, she was already warm and wet. "That didn't take long." He teased.
"It's been a while.." She laughed.
He leaned down between her legs and ran his tongue through her lips, circling his tongue over her clit.
"Ohhh myyy…" she pulled her hand up to bite down on it.
He continued to run his tongue over her clit, causing her hips to buck up. Next thing she knows he's grabbing her leg and pulling it up over his shoulder so he can have better access.
"More." She screams, and he obliges, thrusting a finger into her and then a second.
Within seconds she reaches her climax and screams out and almost as soon as she does she hears a knock on the door.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck…." She pants out.
"Who is it?" Rick shouts towards the door.
But no answer. He immediately gets up and pulls his pants on. "We'll finish later." He leans in and kisses her mouth.
"I already finished." She laughs.
"Yeah I'm aware, and whoever our guest is …. They are probably very aware as well."
Rick opens the door, not noticing anyone in his office so he makes his way to the living room, and there on the couch is a very disheveled Jim Beckett.
Sorry I didn't post last night, I started classes today so I was really busy getting ready. Hope you enjoyed the chapter. Review Review Review, and I'll post tomorrow!